My Fiancee and I Have Finally Picked The Date For Our Wedding...July 10th, 2010...We'll Being Having It In His
Home Town...For One His Family Is Larger And Mine Are Willing To Drive To Be Apart Of The Celebration...Two Decorah Is Absolutely Beautiful For A Wedding...
It feels like love is just another form of suicide. my friend wrote that on a desk in science class and
other girls responded. LOVE IS JUST A WASTE IF U DONT EVEN HAVE A BOYFRIEND.....when will i ever get a boyfriend who understnads me and cares about me....i cant even wear make-up till im 16! or
even date! So i think guys are wasted on me...
Well I need to try to post way more often.� Well...it's a new beginning!� Tracee didn't go to Mid
Winter Recess (in Dallas, Tx) as her father did not come thru and he promised.�� As a matter fact, no one has heard from him since he promised the money by Dec. 15th (2009); it's now Jan 5th, and
he has contact her at all...NOTHING!� He's a piece of work!!
Now you are the enemy...
�Song for me and you
You left with out a goodbye
And now I cant help but wonder why...
My heart is lost in a puddle of tears
So now I have no choice but to face my fears...
With everyday that passes bye
I wonder how I bought those lies...
How could you ever do this to me?
I never thought you would be the enemy...
If only I had known what was to come
Then maybe I wouldn’t be so dumb...
Soon I will let you go away
I probably should have a while 'go...
Unlike those childhood fairytales
This one ends in betrayal...
Could someone out there please give me some helpful insight.� I just can't seem to get any
better.� Depression just seems to get worse.� The night before I go to bed, I tell myself: I will get up early, eat right, do the things on my "to do list" but then I wake up, lay in bed and the
day begins like the day before.� I don't have any "get up and go".� That doomed feeling takes over.� Then the night is here again.� I ponder about what the day brought.� Nothing as usual.� I get
depressed and the whole cycle returns.� It is so lonely and frustrating.� I am living in my "own world"� and there seems to be no escape. Can I ever see or have a "real" life.� Or is this the best
that there will ever be.� Could someone out there offer some words of encouragement or helpful criticism. Anything would be welcomed. uptowngirl.
i raelly miss him so much do u ever get over the loss of someone u love so much??? i
should have never gotten married in the first place before i dealt with the loss of jon i loved him more than anything and we were happy together then all my happiness and joy was stolen from me
when jon tragicaly commited suicide. i don't think it ever get's easier although people try to tell u it does i just wish it didn't hurrt sooo bad but hopefully someday i can get over all the pain
and the hurt and the feelings� of how he'll never get to see his daughter god please help me i miss him sooooo much he's always in my thoughts and i always wonder what might have been !!! does the
pain ever stop??? should i have gotten some kind of grief counceling??? now how do i tell his daughter about him the daughter he wanted more than anything and the daughter he never knew he had
because i found out i was pregnant 3 weeks after his funeral i reallly and trully wanted to die from the pain of loosing him and even though it's been since dec 03 since he died it's still not any
easier i love jon soooooooooooo much someone help me please im going crazy i should love my husband lke he loves me but i can't why why cant i love him the way he's meant to be loved is it because
i can't let go and go on??????????????
today on my way home from dinner with my family.. as i sat in the back seat of my car... i was thinking about all my problems.. i
could almost hear the background music they put in movies when the girl fights with the guy and they both look out the window at the rain.... so i started thinking... and none of that is true... so
many lives end everyday without a happy ending... the stories in popular romantic songs are not true...life is just not like that... ever since i was little movies like cindirella and other disney
productions have had me thinking that no matter what happens love always finds a way... and that it is so full of great surprises.. well at least the last part is true. except that the surprises
are not always good ones... actually they are almost always terrible... and prince charming is dead... and chivalry died with him.. men in our generation expect to get a maid when they start a
relationship.. at the beginning they can�t get enough of you... the little by little they start to show the real side of them... and let me tell you its not pretty.. my boyfriend and i (yes we�re
still together) are gonna be 5 years old as acouple.. in may... and now.. i know men are jerks.... and most of the reason that life is not�a fairy tale is because of them.. all girls expect to find
a prince waiting for them.. and all the guy needs to do is make that simple wish come true.. is it too much to ask for a guy to open the door for us... to hug us and give us their jacket when we�re
cold... to kiss our pains gently away.. i think not... and its hard enough trying to keep the flame alive while the guy is being a total jerk sitting infront of the tv. watching football� withough
them treating us so bad.... i for one. plan not to cry for a guy ever againn.. imagine.. if he treats me bad NOW... imagine if we got MARRIED!!!�