The Dragonfly has a Birthday
April Twenty Four for NPM poetry
her smile lights in my heart
she calls to �me at times
she flutters her wings in love she makes me sing my love is secret but not disguised
she is a warrior and she is the world
she is unconcerned with petty theft
she makes me happy and never sad
she is my thrift and all my worth
on this day in May the dragonfly will play
and MAY she think of me this April Day
my Indian my love my wings my calling dove
will always answer with love
�well life gets worse all the time round here and why because pepole gosip and spead lies and in the mean time i have lost my one true friend and miss him so much we used to have a laugh together
tell each other our thoughts and problems but other people just said we were having an afair and that he was just sniffing round waiting for his chance .we had been friends for seven years and i
realy could tell him any thing i miss my freind so much ,its been about two months since we last spoke and i miss him i have no one else to talk to now and im lonley with out him . i dont know what
to do now�
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!� Another year,� THANK YOU GOD, for this year.� I can't believe I have� lived 3 years longer than my first husband.� He died when he was 30.� Sometimes I miss him so much
still, which is wierd becaues I am remarried.�
Cory is gone, out of town working,,, weeks of no husband SUCKS!� So, thankfully I have a great mom, who lives close enough to surprise me.,, She brought me starbucks, flowers and donuts to my at
work, and then took us out to supper,,,and even brought a lil' carrot cake to supper.� I love my mommy!�
THANK YOU LORD!
ONE YEAR WITH GUILLIAN-BARRE
Ron continues to make progress, moving his arms, now legs more!� He is working hard daily in physical therapy and occupational therapy to become stronger.� Please continue to pray for Ron's
strength and continued progress.� ONE year ago, he was put on the ventilator for his condition.� We are so thankful that he no longer needs it and look forward to this next year having continued
I can't remember
Last night's dream
So I'll tell you another
Sits quietly�in his chair
Watching the waves crash into the shoreline
But all around him
Everything is exploding
Like a mirror when it hits the floor
He sits in his chair
Smiling, like it's the best day of his life
LIFE SUCKS!!! what am i supposed to do!!!�i am stressed about school, i am getting no hours at work!!!� my relationship is getting out of control and i am so depressed!!� i have made so many bad
decissions in my life and i cant handle this crap any more... i think i am going to put my relationship on hold... so that i can get myself to a better state of mind and turn my life around�and�do
whats right for me!!! i am so thankful for the support from my family and friends and them putting up with my mood swings and drama!!
I'm sad for a few reasons.
Mandy & Scarlet left on Sunday and I'm missing them sooo much.
I got a call from cousin Michelle to tell me that Aunt Helen has suffered a massive heart attack and needed surgery. She's come
through the surgery and will be in hospital for the next 1-2 wks., they're keeping her unconscience for now. They don't know how (or if) she's going to pull through this. I am very
conflicted about going out there to see the family - conflicted and sad.
Then the husband decides to argue with me on Monday about something so stupid, so trivial and then during that arguement he took a verbel swipe at me and it felt
just like I'd been kicked. The arguement stopped right then but the feeling that I'd been kicked is still hurting. What an idiot he is sometimes!
Maybe today will be better, I'll get used to Mandy being gone, Aunt Helen will improve and "stupid" will not seem so
here it is now in the winter really with lower temperture.But for me lived in northin China, where it has been cold in the winter, I have already used to lived in cold conditions. So
since I have come to Nanjing city of China, I have notbeen weared heavy clothes before the last winter.
Today I came to University at noon, for I had got to a lesson to have. but when I hurried to the dorm, my roonmate told me the lesson is cancled. In fact, I also hope so. So I went
to bed, because I was very tired. After woke up, I washed my hair and then went to lab.
In the evening, one of my classmates trusted me for dinner because she gained fee from invigilating for teachers. So we went to restaurant outside of University and ordered "suan cai
yu" and "di san xian". they were tasty. after dinner, we came back the Lab, repectively.
She was always happy inthis term, perhaps because she made a boyfriend last term. Everytime I looked her happy smile, I also felt happy as I met my boyfriend first like.
I hope that A GOOD MAN WILL HAVE A SWEET DREAM!
I know I stopped this again... but I really need the outlet... at least I can realize that right?
I'm really tired of people and their bullshit... I don't even feel like other people sometimes >_<
Is my loneliness my fault?� I am so tired of being single. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong. Granted...it hasn't even been a year. But I still think�about Connor all the time. I'm supposed to be
this mature, strong, independent college student. And I guess I am...in a lot of ways...but I have a long way to go.
Noon: I can start updating again.� Someday I'll write about why I�had to stop for so long.
- Dirty Girl &�I will be moving into a new house this week.� Two move events, Friday-Sun, and then Monday the movers come to get the big/heavy stuff
8AM - Must finish SuperSearch systems Edison & Tesla by Friday 8/28.
9AM - WAS�Upgrade meating with Peter &�the rest of the upgrade team.� They need both NWIE�VM�images set up by Friday also.
Since 10am this morning I've been working on ITP project, ME2:
- ITP ME2 servers are moved to Columbus
- Cuervo and I�are re-ip'ing them and trying to get them to start up normally in the new network space.� Stuffer was being a total pain in the arse for a while but I�think I�have him on-board with
the action items.
- must edit /etc/ldap.conf &�/etc/openldap.conf to add line:
- edit /etc/modules.conf &�remove reference to pcnet32
- edit /etc/fstab and remove 3 lines added by vmware
- After demter &�hestia are done, the rest of the boxes should come up without issue
- Forgot to change /etc/resolv.conf.� Hestia can't resolve anyone so she's not letting us in.� but that shouldn't happen with the nss line.� hmm.
- chkconfig off rhnsd &�osad?
4:40PM - every one of these servers are fucked.� none of them can get on the network to talk with their LDAP host, so none of them will let anyone log in.� What a fucking nightmare.� I�have to
break into every one of these machines and fix the configurations.
All of them get host name changes
This has to happen or it won't come online.� If it won't come online, you can't log in.� :)
- Mr.�T said that the firewall rules were just finished and the network is shut off on these servers until the IPs are changed etc.� No wonder we couldn't even ping gateway.� It would have been
nice to be informed of that bit of trivia.
- fuckers -
- We're going to call it a day and sleep a bit if we can.
- AM�- must talk to Cole and get my access level bumped up so I�can initiate tool installs without hand holding.
�- Have to get nets turned on and test accesses.
�- Get Cuervo the info that he needs to carry this on without me, or with Stuffer.�
- Dirty Girl &�I are going to meet Nikita to give her the $$ and get the $K.
�- I'll meet Grandpa Simpson and trade my Mercedes for his Suburban for the weekend.� Dirty Girl takes Scooby to work, I�bring Suburban back here and finish Oracle server build for WAS Project, and
get UID's created on Edison &�Tesla for Country Boy, Becky, and Kipper.
Calling it a night, logging out of work.� Going to start tearing down the other computers and prepping them for the move.