I just got my new desktop today. Just slightly more than a week ago, I was telling a few of my friends how much I wanted to have one because I wanna play MMO. Someone asked me if I wanna play MMO it's because I'm lonely.
Actually, not at all. I have plenty of things that I like to do to keep me busy. I just would like to try something new. That's all.
I started gaming once it's all set up and ready. I had fun and along the way I think I did quite a few things that made other players roled their eyes. (haha...)
However, there's something that's bothering me. -.-
How I managed to have this desktop at such a short notice was all because of my cousin who was so willing to spend on me. I was really thankful. I haven't been a very good spot today because I got pissed at what mom said to me... AGAIN (just like so many time in my life).
I forgot to thank my cousin and got mad because the cd/dvd drive couldn't work well. My cousin said that seller wanted her to come down to his store to get a new drive, and he's even willing to upgrade it for us... for free. To me, that's not the point. His store is so far away and my cousin told me she wasn't even sure of the way as well yet she just agreed to go down to his store to pick it up and said that she knew how to fix or change the drive.
That seller has the responsibility to come over to my house and fix that problem. I felt that my cousin was being to easy going. -.- Or maybe I'm simply being too difficult. I just feel that since he's the seller, he should be the one to provide us the service and not us who's making things convenient for him.
In the end, after waiting for such a long time for my cousin to help me set up the PC, I got bored and started reading my manga. I couldn't really paid attention to her when she was showing me some stuff and I didn't realised that I haven't thanked her for today. I did thank her profusely when she offered to get the PC for me, but I just didn't do it today. -.- I felt so rude, worst of all my mom was the one who reminded me.
This isn't the first time I didn't thank someone who has helped me. It's not that I didn't want to thank them, I simply forgot or didn't realise that I... just didn't. This is so embarrassing.
Hidden in the dark of night laying in the grass starring deep into your�eyes as the hour pass your smile speaks wonders and it also warm my heart it's times like this that help me when we have to be apart alone under the stars your lips brush my cheek your arms wrap around my sides and make me feel weak�the heat of your breath as you whisper in my ear and you pull me closer to you your feelings are so clear i know that you love me i know your hunger for my touch baby just know that i feel the same� and i love you so much babe.
I'm going to start writing poetry again. I used to for�a long time. I'm hoping it will be as therapeutic as it used to be. Well here is one that� I wrote a few days ago. It doesn't really have a name.
No, Everything is not okay
Everytime night turns to day
I pray
"God let me die today."
I can't change the way I feel
People are trying with just a little pill
It all just makes me want to blurt
"God, stop making me hurt."
I know I have Jesus in my heart
Which means we'll never part
But I just don't feel him with me
Maybe they lied and he really left me.
God, if you left me, hear my cry
Please come back before I try
To take something that isn't mine
To take my life one last time.
I need some feedback, Please.� That is, if you want to. I can be short or long. You can tell me it sucks if you want to. Just give me something to work with.
� Today I did a shoot with a baby girl named Eliska. She was so adorable. She had several different halloween costumes. She was so easy to work with and her mom and grandmother kept singing this really cute song to get her attention. I really enjoyed the session and am sure the images will be beautiful. I think my favorites are the ones of her with the colorful toule. There was a cat that she really loved. We tried to put the cat in the pail with her but it immediately jumped out before we could even snap off one picture. I was kind of sad about that because it would have been very halloween like. We did get a few with the cut on the bench with her but then it decided to get down when she started petting it a little less than it liked. She wasn't even 2 so she was learning to be nice to the kitty. She didn't quite have it down yet but it was very cute to see her try. There were some great areas at the pumpkin patch to shoot. The only thing is that in the barn some fly kept landing on the baby but I got lots of shots without it so that will be okay. There were huge pumpkins and colorful gourds so I think these will be perfect for halloween.
Exams are sure boring things.....
but dis few exams wit sum1 special...
it's another different story.....
lately..all kinds of cute stuff happened.....
juz bcoz of a special 1...
saw a question ..'How do you define love?'
A gud question...
To me..love comes in various forms..
through fren...family...religion...or ur partner....
i found a fren,family,religion and a partner...
i think it's all in 1...
almost perfect......
Now comes another question...
'How to�prolong your flower's beauty?'
This is my question.....
Still seeking for answers....
(12/5/2008)
Luv u~^^
Happy Mothers Day for yesterday~
I am very grateful for a sound mind and the ability to discern harmful people and situations.
Wow lol its been a long time but whatever nothing exiting really has happened cuz my life is o so boring but yeah....lol i g2g get back laters beyes