I have really felt behind in my Journalism.Reading back it does give a certain
perspective on life which I wouldn't have if I did not bother
It is impossible to recall every event since my last entry so I will go on what I can
Was in Monivea last night.Did the four pubs.The only bit of life was in Kelly's where
there was a hen party on.Youngsters going around dancing,singing,and enjoying themselves.
When I was in McGann's I handed a fiver to Padraig for a ginger ale but he only gave me
20 cents back.I didn't want to say anything.He must be getting forgetful.
I had a Bord Bia audit eventually on Friday after postponing it on Thursday because I
had a tooth out on Wednesday.(It is still a bit sore but is healing)
Carmel was out yesterday.She showed us the youtube video of herself singing with the
Athenry musical society.And guess who was in the background.The person she most loathes in the whole world-Kennedy
I had a mediocre week last week on.I had to go to Brooke lodge to help out Austin and
Burke.It wasn't too bad when Burke and Leehy were around but It can be difficult at times working with Austin.He tends to be overcautious about everything and he does tell the odd fib
The weanlings are coming on nicely.They are eating the meal and they have nice young grass over in the calla.
I may sell the bullock next Thursday in Athenry as cattle prices are dropping a bit and the may be on the way down after being dear since last year
� Today I did a shoot with a baby girl named Eliska. She was so adorable. She had several different halloween costumes. She was so easy to work with and her mom and grandmother kept singing this
really cute song to get her attention. I really enjoyed the session and am sure the images will be beautiful. I think my favorites are the ones of her with the colorful toule. There was a cat that
she really loved. We tried to put the cat in the pail with her but it immediately jumped out before we could even snap off one picture. I was kind of sad about that because it would have been very
halloween like. We did get a few with the cut on the bench with her but then it decided to get down when she started petting it a little less than it liked. She wasn't even 2 so she was learning to
be nice to the kitty. She didn't quite have it down yet but it was very cute to see her try. There were some great areas at the pumpkin patch to shoot. The only thing is that in the barn some fly
kept landing on the baby but I got lots of shots without it so that will be okay. There were huge pumpkins and colorful gourds so I think these will be perfect for halloween.
I'm going to start writing poetry again. I used to for�a long time. I'm hoping it will be as therapeutic as it used to be. Well here is one that� I wrote a few days ago. It doesn't really have a
No, Everything is not okay
Everytime night turns to day
"God let me die today."
I can't change the way I feel
People are trying with just a little pill
It all just makes me want to blurt
"God, stop making me hurt."
I know I have Jesus in my heart
Which means we'll never part
But I just don't feel him with me
Maybe they lied and he really left me.
God, if you left me, hear my cry
Please come back before I try
To take something that isn't mine
To take my life one last time.
I need some feedback, Please.� That is, if you want to. I can be short or long. You can tell me it sucks if you want to. Just give me something to work with.
I've got TONS of goals for 2009!� My main fitness goal is to lose approximately 40 pounds of fat, re-gain some of the muscle I lost while pregnant, and compete in IDFA's Toronto Classic on July 11
with my best body yet!� I've lost about 35 pounds since I had my baby at the end of August without really trying (a mixture of not having time to eat all day because I'm so busy with him,
breastfeeding, and not hanging out at restaurants so much), I've been teaching my dance and exercise classes, walking a lot (it's too hard to get on streetcars with a big stroller), and getting
down to the gym a bit, but thus far�my fitness efforts have�been pretty sporadic and lazy in my mind... which is fine - I don't mind that I gave myself a few months to re-adjust my new life as a
mom�without throwing myself right back into super- workout-girl-mode as soon as I got home from the hospital.� But, now It think it's time to get crazy!!!� I've set a very reasonable goal of
competing in July, so I have 7 months to get ripped!� I'm so excited about getting more serious about my training (and less excited about super clean eating).� Now I just have to decide if I'm
going to compete in fitness or figure... Getting� a fitness routine together now that I've been out of the scene for so long may be challenging, but I might try!� I'll keep you posted!� HAPPY NEW
Today I stayed home from school with my dad and my brother's girlfriend. She is really nice and I like her because she listens to me. Not with her ears but with her heart. Today I
spilled my guts out to her and it all started....uh....I foregot how it started but it had to do with boys I liked or like Manny or something. I told her everything from all the kids in my
classroom to writing a book.
I like to write. I told you that already didn't I? When I write I am in my momment of zen or something. Since I like to write then that means I'd like a Pen-Pal to write E-mails to.
Would you be my pen-pal? I would really like that.
What can I do to attract Manny? Help Me! Give Me Tips! I Need Your Help! I am begging you! PLEASE!!!
Answer My Question and Send Me Comments!
I just got my new desktop today. Just slightly more than a week ago, I was telling a few of my friends how much I wanted to have one because I wanna play MMO. Someone asked me if I wanna play MMO
it's because I'm lonely.
Actually, not at all. I have plenty of things that I like to do to keep me busy. I just would like to try something new. That's all.
I started gaming once it's all set up and ready. I had fun and along the way I think I did quite a few things that made other players roled their eyes. (haha...)
However, there's something that's bothering me. -.-
How I managed to have this desktop at such a short notice was all because of my cousin who was so willing to spend on me. I was really thankful. I haven't been a very good spot today because I
got pissed at what mom said to me... AGAIN (just like so many time in my life).
I forgot to thank my cousin and got mad because the cd/dvd drive couldn't work well. My cousin said that seller wanted her to come down to his store to get a new drive, and he's even willing to
upgrade it for us... for free. To me, that's not the point. His store is so far away and my cousin told me she wasn't even sure of the way as well yet she just agreed to go down to his store to
pick it up and said that she knew how to fix or change the drive.
That seller has the responsibility to come over to my house and fix that problem. I felt that my cousin was being to easy going. -.- Or maybe I'm simply being too difficult. I just feel that
since he's the seller, he should be the one to provide us the service and not us who's making things convenient for him.
In the end, after waiting for such a long time for my cousin to help me set up the PC, I got bored and started reading my manga. I couldn't really paid attention to her when she was showing me
some stuff and I didn't realised that I haven't thanked her for today. I did thank her profusely when she offered to get the PC for me, but I just didn't do it today. -.- I felt so rude, worst of
all my mom was the one who reminded me.
This isn't the first time I didn't thank someone who has helped me. It's not that I didn't want to thank them, I simply forgot or didn't realise that I... just didn't. This is so embarrassing.
i am so jealous of bellaluz. elves?! wish i could see some. haha my friend just text me saying "Yay! Kayla's mad at me. Yay!" heehee. he's a nerd