I've got TONS of goals for 2009!� My main fitness goal is to lose approximately 40 pounds of fat, re-gain some of the muscle I lost while pregnant, and compete in IDFA's Toronto Classic on July 11
with my best body yet!� I've lost about 35 pounds since I had my baby at the end of August without really trying (a mixture of not having time to eat all day because I'm so busy with him,
breastfeeding, and not hanging out at restaurants so much), I've been teaching my dance and exercise classes, walking a lot (it's too hard to get on streetcars with a big stroller), and getting
down to the gym a bit, but thus far�my fitness efforts have�been pretty sporadic and lazy in my mind... which is fine - I don't mind that I gave myself a few months to re-adjust my new life as a
mom�without throwing myself right back into super- workout-girl-mode as soon as I got home from the hospital.� But, now It think it's time to get crazy!!!� I've set a very reasonable goal of
competing in July, so I have 7 months to get ripped!� I'm so excited about getting more serious about my training (and less excited about super clean eating).� Now I just have to decide if I'm
going to compete in fitness or figure... Getting� a fitness routine together now that I've been out of the scene for so long may be challenging, but I might try!� I'll keep you posted!� HAPPY NEW
I just got my new desktop today. Just slightly more than a week ago, I was telling a few of my friends how much I wanted to have one because I wanna play MMO. Someone asked me if I wanna play MMO
it's because I'm lonely.
Actually, not at all. I have plenty of things that I like to do to keep me busy. I just would like to try something new. That's all.
I started gaming once it's all set up and ready. I had fun and along the way I think I did quite a few things that made other players roled their eyes. (haha...)
However, there's something that's bothering me. -.-
How I managed to have this desktop at such a short notice was all because of my cousin who was so willing to spend on me. I was really thankful. I haven't been a very good spot today because I
got pissed at what mom said to me... AGAIN (just like so many time in my life).
I forgot to thank my cousin and got mad because the cd/dvd drive couldn't work well. My cousin said that seller wanted her to come down to his store to get a new drive, and he's even willing to
upgrade it for us... for free. To me, that's not the point. His store is so far away and my cousin told me she wasn't even sure of the way as well yet she just agreed to go down to his store to
pick it up and said that she knew how to fix or change the drive.
That seller has the responsibility to come over to my house and fix that problem. I felt that my cousin was being to easy going. -.- Or maybe I'm simply being too difficult. I just feel that
since he's the seller, he should be the one to provide us the service and not us who's making things convenient for him.
In the end, after waiting for such a long time for my cousin to help me set up the PC, I got bored and started reading my manga. I couldn't really paid attention to her when she was showing me
some stuff and I didn't realised that I haven't thanked her for today. I did thank her profusely when she offered to get the PC for me, but I just didn't do it today. -.- I felt so rude, worst of
all my mom was the one who reminded me.
This isn't the first time I didn't thank someone who has helped me. It's not that I didn't want to thank them, I simply forgot or didn't realise that I... just didn't. This is so embarrassing.
I'm sitting in this room,
with no way to get through,
I'm sitting on this chair,
waiting to see,
pop in through the door.
But you don't really care about me,
I'm done, for ever,
because no matter,
what you say,
life does go on,
Exams are sure boring things.....
but dis few exams wit sum1 special...
it's another different story.....
lately..all kinds of cute stuff happened.....
juz bcoz of a special 1...
saw a question ..'How do you define love?'
A gud question...
To me..love comes in various forms..
through fren...family...religion...or ur partner....
i found a fren,family,religion and a partner...
i think it's all in 1...
Now comes another question...
'How to�prolong your flower's beauty?'
This is my question.....
Still seeking for answers....
Happy Mothers Day for yesterday~
Me and�Eddy* got back together� on May and i promised him i would meet him on december. Things had been going really GOOD between us. He is the
most adorable loving man. But i am a�not 4 him�and i never seem to be content with anything good in my life. I always have to push the envelope. I have made him prove over and over and over again
that he loves me.
His love for me is not quetionable... not alot of NORMAL ATTRACTIVE HARDWORKING LOYAL LOVING�men would talk to a girl on the phone for 3 years
without actually meeting them.
It's been a while.....it seems like i come running to this site when things between me and eddy are @ a down hill. I finally told Eddy the
truth(well sort of) about me not meting him...he did not take it so well.
This time i won't shed @ tear (in pubic). it's like i am slowly dying inside(and i derserve it!!!) .
Now i have to go to my sister's wedding thats half way across the world. It will be good to get away......but one can't always run from there
problems. It's wierd some part of me actually feels glad that i have told him. I had started to feel really guilty
I hate myself for what i am doing to Eddy but thank god it's almost over. I hope i have the strengh to make the right choice. He is a good man he
deserves so much better than me
Wow lol its been a long time but whatever nothing exiting really has happened cuz my life is o so boring but yeah....lol i g2g get
back laters beyes
I am very grateful for a sound mind and the ability to discern harmful people and situations.