Job going well not sure of status.
Worried about job.
Worried about bills.
Have to get the house cleaned up.
i am so so so bored....i need to do something
yah i want to be off already but i'm gonna be here till probably
i'd say 6:30-ish hopefully earlier and NOT later
but i think most likely later...sux
idk going home this weekend finally haven't been there in like a while
i don't really go home that often since i'm alwayz with my boyfriend
i know thats bad but i can't help it....i like spending time with him...
he really is AWESOME...but idk
i guess i'm just gonna end this since i don't really� have much to write
and i don't know what to write really...alrighty then PEACE
� My heart froze at
� Strains that tone cradle dream - the dream
of my soul � my heart .. .. .. longing began unite
� I sang a song to miss softly .. .. confuse serene blue � A piece of the
song was slow - so frozen land
� At the end of the night ... The break down laughing wistfully yearns � Free-flight blend in with the sky
high Until the time a piece of the song down to touch the heart in heart
� But .... I dunno ... when The yearns only waiting ..
Last Monday Mike text me & asked me if I was seeing anyone. I said no & he asked if I would like to do something. I said I would love to. He came over I made dinner, we played w/ Aleea,
watched a movie, & we went to bed. We had sex 4 times that night & he seemed to search for me all night to hold me. He smiled & seemed so happy. I even asked before we did everything if
we would be ok after & he said no. The next day we briefly texted each other by Thursday he said he didn't think we would work. I asked lets just date & take out time no preasure he said he
didn't think it would work but also said he would think about it. Sunday I asked when I picked up AJ if he still felt the same. He said yes. After I got home I called him to talk & said I
truelly believe we could make this work. He said he was more compatible w/ Mindy... The woman 3 days earlier he said was 1/2 the woman I am. Maybe I should move back to Rockford & smoke crack
& then I will be more compatable. Our family is worth saving to me but not him. I dont know how to let go..,.. I do know I wont let him close to me again. I wont answer any text that remotely
talks about us because it is nothing but a head game. I dont deserve that... I wish I had chosen a man that would put his family before anything to have children w/ He says we fought to much &
doesn't thinnk it could have changed enough. Why not try? Better yet why the hell do I care. Why can't I move on &�find someone that loves me unconditionally. Does that only exist between
parents &�children? Some much goes though my head. I cant sleep... I was finally getting better & told him I was happy. I guess he just couldn't let that be... I can't wait for the day that
he comes back & I can look him in the face &�tell him no NEVER AGAIN!
I know, I�haven't written for a while. But not too uch has bee ngoing on. Just everyday drama... yuck. But Ryleys Is made at me and Jacey cause I am "replacing her." I just get so irritated cause
she treats Jacey like crap and I always try to be there for her. But Ryley doesn't tell her anything but she expects jacey to tell her every fricken detail that goes on in her life. Jacey
doesn't have much drama except for Ryley. But Jacey really likes tis guy and they talked every night for like two months but then he thought it would be best to quit talking becase he lived a while
away. (Not at the same scool as Ryley's bf) but He just texted her the other day saying he was sorry and her still really liked her and he didn't forget her. Jacey wanted to tell Ryley but she
didn't know. She ended up telling her and Ryley was like "Cool. I�think Mackenzie is talking to him too." Mackenzie is this girl who is really slutty and she "likes" everyguy she talks to. Of
course Jacey was upset. Her feelings get urt really easily. I ujt get so frustrated.
dont yuu ever wish that yuu can change this world around, or yuu can start yuur life again.
i just want to move out of my house to start over, event though i would leave people i love, it would be harder if i was with them. i dont know what to do. should i or
~letters start with "ABC" numberts start with "123" music starts with "do-re-mi" and love starts with
"yuu and me"~�� i think i love my best friend
so im still at school and im soooooo bored.!!!!!!! but im happy also. i get to go hang out with my bf. just me and him. FINALLY! we haven't been alone in so long. but oh well. hanging out with bf
and friends at the same time is cool and fun. except when they start to embarasse you. :) but i love them. bniacw... haha. bye
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