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    Spiritual One  52, Female, New York, USA - 6,725 views
17
Mar 2010
6:41 AM EDT
   

I believe
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    andheartsme  28, Female, Hawaii, USA - 6,626 views
23
Jun 2007
9:10 AM HAST
   

stupid party. shoyld have been hotdogs and not burgers. wah wah wha.
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    Jenee  32, Female, California, USA - 6,557 views
12
Dec 2008
8:44 AM PDT
   

Fridays and Friends, i guess?

Today is a wonderful friday! things have been running really smooth with the start off of a wonderful luncheon that my boss threw for the ERT members. Good Job michele!��today is the start off to hopefully a really relaxing and exciting weekend! My nephew is turning 1 year old tomorrow, its funny how fast 12 months can fly and a person's life can change in just so little time. with my new nephew around, the family has definitely came closer and so has the age of the rest of our family to start popping out some kids. Im now 21 years old (still in my Prime) but have considered maybe having one for sake of a new chapter to start in my everyday routine life. BUT, Im pretty happy not having to deal with the worries and headaches that come with a child. I plan to live up my prime as much as possilbe. Lately, I been trying to figure out if my friends are my true friends. I lived an hour away a few months back and i just recently moved closer to my hometown and things still seem distant with them. I would always make the effort to make time for them and spend $40.00 dollars a saturday just so i could be in the comfort of my old high school chicas! but the favor hasnt been returned as often as i would like and as often I made time for them! Oh well, is all i can say now but in time hopefully there effort will improve. besides all the sad stories i can go on and on about, my new place, I absolutely adore! everyday after work i love to go home walk through the door and slip off my 4 inch high heels, and dig my toes into the plush carpet in the living room, grab a blanket and veg out on the couch watching my fav, "what not to wear." tonight will be one of those nights, maybe but i think i might have me a glass a wine and add my new cozy slippers i bought. Happy Friday everyone!

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    christysmith  32, Female, Virginia, USA - 6,557 views
17
Mar 2007
9:34 AM EDT
   

Due to the fact of my new location i will be slow on posting any entrys. Sorry for the inconvenience....
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    redshotlizard  30, Female, Virginia, USA - 6,523 views
26
Apr 2010
6:46 PM HNT
   

let me see... I brag about how awesome my boyfriend is because he treats me well. There aren't many couple like us, our relationship is true. I actually have never met a couple like us and just when I though for sure I did.. I was wrong because it turned out to be a break up. I brag that my boyfriend treats me right, takes me places, calls me his princess, tells me he loves me, always kisses me in public, and respects me and everything. I am not really a bragger of anything much but when I see something awesome.. I can't help but show it off. Oh And let me not forget.. GOD is definitely something to brag about. God is awesome and He is the reason for everything. He makes everything possible and He helps us all through it. God is the Awesome one. Without him nothing would be possible so he is definitely worth bragging about :)
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    nonstop  22, Male, China - 6,423 views
07
Apr 2008
9:47 AM EST
   

i have observed and discovered�a series of movements that cats use to express their feelings.�when�my cat�wants to eat,�he will�let out a series of meows. normally there will be one especially long meow. after�he eat he will meow a single satisfied meow. when we scold him for breaking things, he will �meow a short, stout meow.

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    questioningeverything  32, Female, California, USA - 6,401 views
12
Apr 2007
11:48 AM PST
   

What is terrorism?

Terrorism is not something we normally think about defining. It is thrown at us in a certain context. A context which we just accept. But what if we are asked to question it? No one approves of terrorism. Terrorism is defined by the people on the other side, say the US Administration. We are currently waging "A War on Terror." Terror defined by us. Defined and in so many ways created by the government. I just heard a quote which made me really think. It went something like this: Why should terrorism be defined by 9/11?

Terrorism has been happening all over the world for so long, but when 9/11 came it meant something, not because the US is superior but because we are the most powerful nation. The reality is that it has been happening around the world on much greater levels than it was performed in the US.

Now let's look at what dictionary.com defined terrorism as...

1.

the use of violence and threats to intimidate or coerce, esp. for political purposes.

2.

the state of fear and submission produced by terrorism or terrorization.

3.

a terroristic method of governing or of resisting a government.

I want to examine the second definition. "The state of fear and submission produced by terrorism or terrorization." What does that mean? I was always told not to use the word in the definition.

Look at the third definition: "a terroristic method of governing or of resisting a government." So that is to say that a government cannot be partake in terrorism. What about a dictatorship or an authoritarian regime--or say a democratic one? If the government of any state is able to define terrorism as something that is against them, then it would seem we have a problem. This is a problem because if you put the power into the hand of one person and they cannot be questioned in some way or another it becomes oppression. Oppression is never responded to well, and it shouldn't be.

In the US media we are told day after day they there are terrorists in Iraq and throughout the Middle East. It has become a scare tactic for this administration to get the country to follow. I am aware that there are bad people out there, but we are not living in a black and white world. We are living in a vibrant, colorful world where the definition of right and wrong is indefinable by just one nation or one group of people. It is a world where context is everything. Right now, we are occupying Iraq. Many will disagree and even call me Anti-American for saying such a thing. Anyway, the thing is that the so-called terrorists who are blowing up things and killing people are not necessarily completely different than then our soldiers. I know that I am unaware of what it is like to be living in an occupied state. I am unaware of why these people are fighting against us. I do not know how I would react if someone walked into my house and started trying to control me. Now I know comparing an American solider to what our government has defined as a terrorist is beyond what I should be doing. But they are each fighting for a cause which they think is right (and in some cases the Iraqis may have a better idea of what they are fighting for).

I want to mention something about the military for just a second. There is this idea throughout the United States that we are supposed to support the troops regardless of how we feel about war. Now let me say that I admire what the military in an ideal way is meant to be: A group of people who are willing to put their lives on the line for you or me. That is amazing thing, but I am not a fan of war. I don't think it is necessary 99.9% of the time. We learn as children that we are not supposed to fight, we are supposed to learn to use our words to fix our problems, yet militaries are still a needed thing for most countries. Works shouldn't have to fail. I am not only critiquing the United States but the world. I respect the military for what they are willing to give up, but I think that it is silly for them to do so. There is so much they can do with their lives and bringing honor to killing is just not the way to go. It is unacceptable to kill, unless an individual is about to kill you and there is no other way to injure them in a nicer way which would allow you to get away. I am one of those people.

I was not able to stay for whole documentary because I had leave for work but what I saw of Arabs and Terrorism brought up this question. It was really interesting and I hope to get a hold of a copy to watch the rest of it. This is such a difficult to discuss this topic because it is one that is not questioned for the most part. It is controversial and a touchy subject for so many. But that is what makes it so important. Not every Arab is a terrorist and Americans can be terrorists.

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    elizabee  29, Female, Canada - 6,389 views
19
Sep 2007
7:23 PM EDT
   

-Wax the ceiling -Rearrange political campaign signs -Sharpen your teeth -Play Houdini with one of your siblings -Braid your dog's hair -Clean and polish your belly button -Water your dog...see if he grows -Wash a tree -Knight yourself -Name your child Edsel -Give your cat a mohawk -Purr -Mow your carpet -Vacuum your lawn -Whine -Rake your carpet -Re-elect Richard Nixon -Critique "Three's Company" -Listen to a painting -Play with matches -Paint your house...Day-Glo Orange -Read Homer in the original Greek -Change your mind -Change it back -Learn Greek -Watch the sun...see if it moves -Stand on your head -Stand on someone else's head -Build a pyramid -See how long you can stay awake -See how long you can sleep -Spit shine your Nikes -Paint your teeth -Wear a salad -Speak with a forked tongue -Get your dog braces -Shave a shrub -Have a proton fight -Watch a car rust -Quiver -Rotate your carpet -Learn to type...with your toes -Set up your Christmas tree in April -Be someone special -Mail it to a friend -Go back to square one -Factor your social security number -Take the fifth -Memorize a series of random numbers -Read the 1962 Des Moines white pages -Learn Sanskrit -Exist...existentially, of course -Print counterfeit Confederate money -Kick a cabbage -Take a picture -Sandpaper a mushroom -Put it back -Play solitaire...for cash -Abuse your patio furniture -Run for Pope -Count to a million...fast -Make a schematic drawing...of a rock -Revert -Think shallow thoughts -Sleep on a bed of nails -Boil ice cream -DON'T toss and turn -Run around in squares -Speak in acronyms -Have your pillow X-rayed -Drink straight shots...of water -Calmly have a nervous breakdown -Give your goldfish a perm -Fly a brick -Be blue -Exercise a ghost -Be red -But don't be orange -Paint stripes on a lake -Sleep in freefall -Kill a Joule -Test thin ice...with a pogo stick -Apply for a unicorn hunting license -Do a good job -Crawl -Paint your windows -Watch a watch until it stops -Flash your goldfish -Paint -Smile -Paint a smile -Flirt with an evergreen -Rotate your garden...daily -Shoot a fire hydrant -Pretend you're blind -Apologize to it -Plant a shoe -Sweat -Turn -Take your sofa for a walk -Write a letter to Plato -Mail it -Start -Stop -Go to a funeral...tell jokes -Play the piano...with mittens on -Contemplate a cockroach -Get a dog to chase your car -Let him catch it -Form a political party -Climb a sidewalk -Have a political party -Get diagonal...with a good friend -Ride a loaf of bread -Sharpen a carrot -Interrogate a gerbil -Annoy yourself -Get mad at yourself -Stop speaking to yourself -Be a side effect -Ride a bicycle...up Mt. 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everything -Hold your hand -Watch the minute hand move -Grow your fingernails -Pretend you're a telephone -Radiate -Ring -Skip -Play hopscotch...with real scotch -Put your shoes on the opposite feet -Cross your toes -Roll your tongue -Crystallize -Baby oil the floor -Hide -Attack innocent bunnies -Declare war -Destroy a tree -Hide the scrabble bag -Seduce your stick shift -Wink -Memorize the periodic table -Mummify -Collect electrons -Correct typos that aren't there -Repeat -Ad lib -Fade -Drop your cat off the roof to see if it lands on all four feet -Unscrew all the light bulbs and rearrange the furniture -Dial-a-Prayer and tell them they're wrong -Make a drive-in window at your local bank where there wasn't one before -Walk on water...but don't get caught -Confess to a crime...that didn't happen -Be in the wrong place at the right time -Plot the overthrow of your local School Board -Request covert assistance from the CIA -Discover the source of the Mississippi -Search for buried treasure...in Nebraska -Hot wax the bottom of your brother's dress shoes -Drink as much prune juice as you can -Write a book about your previous life -Serve ping-pong balls...as hors d'oeuvres -Jump up and down...on your alarm clock -Make a quilt out of used cocktail napkins -Carve you and your girlfriend's initials...in a marshmallow -Drive the speed limit...in your garage -Sing the national anthem...during your calculus final -Wear a three-piece suit...in a sauna -Pay off the national debt...with a bad check -Go to a cemetery and verbally abuse dead people -Give yourself a hernia...for Christmas -Recite romantic poetry...to your toaster -See if you really can build a nuclear device in your own basement -Go to McDonald's and pretend you can't speak English -Write to your congressmen, senators, President, etc. to tell them what a good job they're doing...On April 1st -Find the heat capacity of your chemistry professor -Take apart all your major kitchen appliances...mix and match them 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in a tank and drive in anyway -Found a cockroach stable and stud ranch -Send your goldfish to obedience school -Free the oppressed toasters of America -Weave a tablecloth out of copper tubing -Give your cat a suntan...in the microwave -Park your car...with a friend -Park your car...with a group of friends -Frame your first statement of bankruptcy -Place it on the wall of your office -Solve the population problem (x^2 + y^2 = population...solve for x) -Contribute to the population problem -Practice the Aztec method of heart removal on your professor -Find out who made the super glue commercials and give them your Ginsu knife -Sneak into a nuclear physics lab and stay the night -Play with anything that looks interesting -Drop piston engines on two people and see who squishes first -See if your goldfish can live in Coors rather than water -Try to ignite water...the Mississippi might work -State fallacies as fact (like, "peanuts grow on bushes") -Visit the Architecture building...loudly criticize its design -Wallpaper your laundry room...with pages from books you don't like -See if diamonds really do cut glass...on everything in your neighbor's house -Tenderize your tongue...chew on it for a while -See how long you can stare at a fluorescent light...try green -Bronze your sister's turtle -See how long it takes for her to notice -See what she does when she notices -Bronze your sister
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    solarplanet  35, Female, Arizona, USA - 6,382 views
27
Dec 2009
6:45 AM EDT
   

What I really want

After my conversation wtih my gal friends today, I felt so drained, so tired coz they're so negative. Guys, do u know that u have build�a terrible reputation for yourself ? Women find it so hard to trust u! My conversation with gals always revolve around how guys r cheating on their gfs .I feel so disappointed. I mean, certainly there r honest,faithful, really great guys out there right? So why am I not meeting there yet? I know there r guy out there who think the same - that girls r doing a great job on cheating their bfs as well...but for me, I can really guarantee I will stay faithful to my husband as long as I love him. There is no way I will split my heart into 2.

I just think that maybe it's time my gal friends stop telling me how bad guys r or how upset/uncertain they r in their r/s.

God, just really wish, pple can understand me. Being single is OKAY - I'm really starting to believe in this statement. There's nothing wrong if I'm single and virgin at 25.

�I'm really happy with being myself right now, although feeling lonely, just wished there's somebody to hug me and tell me everything's gonna be okay.

We r really just being more than physical beings. Can we ever look beyond this fact?!

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    babe21  26, Female, Texas, USA - 6,382 views
30
Jun 2007
6:26 PM EDT
   

hey everyone i no i havent been on in a while but i'm back soooo.... wats been goin on with everyone come on people tlk 2 me

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    every1luvsme  28, Female, Ohio, USA - 6,328 views
06
Apr 2007
1:08 PM EDT
   

Micky is in Florida and I miss like crazy... my sister is having boy troubles, she misses the old dayz like hell!
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    ABMScheergrl  24, Female, Virginia, USA - 6,317 views
28
Nov 2006
6:43 AM EDT
   

im finlly home an di am like so damn happy i thought dat buffalo is gonna be a great ideal but it wasnt and i dont really want 2 tlk bout it right now i have 2 do home work so peace out!!!!!
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    prdiva87  32, Female, Florida, USA - 6,296 views
02
Dec 2010
1:00 PM CST
   

Feeling


About 4 days ago my boyfriend asked me to marry him and today we had a fight. Honestly I don't even remember what the fight was about. All I know is he told his brother that he is trying to teach me responsibility. I'm not a child. I would prefer it if we could talk things out but he is acting like a child and barely talking to me. Honestly I don't feel engaged at the moment. I think we need to communicate more and try to work things out.
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    liailian  26, Female, China - 6,239 views
04
Nov 2007
9:43 PM HAY
   

...

who knows
simon's rock???
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    lostblackbird  41, Male, Brazil - 6,225 views
06
Jul 2007
10:34 AM EDT
   

E aki vou eu again! P/ todos, 7 abra�os e um copo de breja!

S� keria dizer p/ vc � fikar irritada, flw? Vc � minha amiga desde q conhecemos no take e desde ent�o sempre nos falamos, porque � assim q as coisas rodam.

Tem vz q crian�a tem q leva umas na traseira, e acho q ela tb merece!
Posso at� dar uns chutes por vc, se assim vc quiser, Raqs. Covarde q corre de briga e depois d� as costas t� � pedindo pra apanhar. Defendo amigo com unhas e dentes, sempre q precisar, sou assim. Posso � manjar das palavras, mas sou amigo at� a morte, � q nem essa falsa a�.
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    Miley858  25, Female, Nevada, USA - 6,197 views
24
Feb 2009
8:50 PM EDT
   

Damnn. I haven't been on since last year... Summer 08 was the most amazing summer ever. I fell in love with Zackk.. Its unexplainable what he ment to me, but he broke my heart cause of rumors and cause i didn't kiss him as much as he wanted me too. Whateverr, im almost over him, its been seven months that i cried, cried and cried everyday. He's a helluhh jerk now and he's not worth it, if i could show him how much he hurt me, he'd NEVER be able to look me in the eyes again. This year is pretty crazy. I should rlly start writing in here like errryday. So anyways after Zack i dated Justin, didn't work out cause i still had feelings for Zack, then i dated Kyle like months later, he broke up with me and then told me it was a mistake so we went out again and i broke up with him. Then i dated Edgar like a couple months later and he turned out to be a reaaallll asshole. Right now im done with all the drama with guys, they can go screw them selves
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    lmm27295  38, Female, Nevada, USA - 6,183 views
29
Jan 2007
8:03 AM EDT
   

I am very upset about last night, but I am not going to raise my voice w/ you or get loud and upset and I would appreciate it you can do the same in this conversation. I am going to try to express how I feel to you in the nicest way that I know how and w/o trying to purposely upset you. Please listen to what I have to say just like I listen to you and let you speak your peace. First of all, the other night you expressed to me how when you come to me you want me to be understanding, caring, etc. I did not get that respect from you at all last night, I feel like you set all the rules that I am suppose to follow when you have issues but when it is me w/ the problem, all rules are broken. And no matter what point I try to make to you, I feel like you always try to twist it instead of really listen and trying to understand why I think the way I do. Communication, the things that are said, I understand you have your ways of thinking and that they are not like mine, but it is how you handle it and the words that are said, I am tired of the hurtful things, it is one thing to talk to me about things that frustrate you about me and its another to say the things that were said last night, you have to learn how to control your mouth b/c it is pushing me away from you. It is making me not want to be close to you. You don’t understand the fact of when you say things like you do, they are not forgotten, and I carry them with me You have top realize that we are not alike. We are different in so many ways. We think different, handle things differently, see things differently etc. We have to except that about each other. You don’t always act the way I want you to or say what I want to hear and the same goes with me. Or you say things sometimes that you think are funny but you really have a meaning behind it is where we again, have to set boundaries. There are boundaries that have to be set and have to be respected and not crossed. I have to know that if I call up Chandra and trash talk you to her that I have crossed a boundary and I have to expect that you are going to be upset, so I don’t cross that boundary. Just like w/ me, if you purposely say things to hurt me, then u have crossed a boundary and I am going to upset with you. Trying to express a concern w/ one another is going to have to occur from time to time but just down right be mean to one another is going to drive us apart. With the wedding, I am tired of being threatened. This is how I feel, point blank, if it is said again, that the wedding is called off, then that’s it, I will follow through w/ it and we will not get married, I not going through a roller coaster with this wedding. This event is suppose to be a fun and special time and it is not turning out to be like that. This is something that is very important to me and my family and I have a lot of people that is putting a lot into this for me. We have 5 months left and I don’t want to have to look back at this time with you and think of how miserable it was for me. I don’t want to keep having to harp on the wedding issue. Either it is going to get better or it won’t and if it don’t then we need to call it off b/c we have people that really care about is and this event and they are putting a lot of $ into this. If you don’t want to get married then PLEASE tell me now and I will stop it all! If we don’t think we can live together, than let’s call this off, I am going to tell you right now, I cannot stand a messy house. If this is going to continue to be an issue than something is going to have to change. I don’t ask you to clean toilets, or scrub, the shower or dust. All I ask of you is to pick up after yourself or do a load of clothes or take out the trash or jump in and help if we have guest coming or put your coat in the closet. I want a neat and clean home and if this is a problem for you then like I said, this will never work. I cannot do it all by myself. I have to work to. I cannot constantly pick up behind you. So if that is what you want then I will do it but I will be a stay at home girl. You talk about how you love that I am girly, well this is part of that package. I grew up in a messy, unorganized home 80% of my life there and I WILL NOT have my home looking like that! Trust, Trust is very important, especially considering what is getting ready to happen with us. This issue has really put a damper on that with me. I am not going to lie to you, I did search for it once I realized that there was some on the computer. I understand that you have needs. U are a man and that is understandable. What frustrates me is how you hide things, u may not realize this but it kills your creditability, it makes me question things that you tell me and I hate that. I hate that I have to pull the truth out of you. PLEASE just be up front with me and don’t hide it. It just makes it 10 times worse. When you are in the wrong, just be honest and we can work through it easier. Do you want me to hide stuff from you? It makes me think 10 times more of you if you don’t hide stuff. When I don’t feel like I can trust you, it makes me not want to be close to you. I don’t care what it is, big or small, don’t lie to me, tell me stuff before I have to find about it. I want to be able to find comfort in you and be able to let my hair down with you and I want to feel like I can tell you everything and I want to feel like if I fall or make a mistake, you will be there. I want to be that person for you. I want has to build a bond with you, not a wall. I just want you to know that I love you. I want you to truly love me, to the pt that there is nothing that we would not do for one another and I am not talking about small stuff like you always fixing my drink or me always having to get up and get something for you. I am talking about stuff that really matters. We can be a great couple if we try hard. We have got to stop giving up. I do it to. And we have got to take responsibility for our actions b/c if we deny what we do, then we will never change it and I am not talking about telling one another a problem just to cause a problem to make the other one feel bad. But we have to start admitting what our fought are so we can make them better and help each other with that instead of criticizing them for it. Its funny cause in a lot of ways our situation reminds me of Sonny and Carly as stupid as it sounds. I think we need to figure out a way to help with these problems. I am willing to do anything. I have been unhappy and buy what u said, u have too. #1. I think we need to set a goal for reading the book that I bought. I think we need to read 5 to 10 pgs a week. And we can read the same pgs, prob not together b/c we will not see that much of each other, but we can talk about what we read. This will also help to know that we are both reading them and not just saying that we are. #2. I think that we need to set aside 1 nite a week to go do something together, ex. Bowling, or we can trade off, one time is something you like then next time something I like, We should fit this in every week even if something else has to go. It is important that we start getting closer and trying to build a stronger bond. #3. On Sundays, we can both get a piece of paper and right down one good thing about that week or a praise for the other person and one disturbing thing so that we can learn from it. Do you have any ideas? This stuff may seem stupid but I am trying really hard to keep us from tearing apart.
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    Brunette Mess  32, Female, Texas, USA - 6,181 views
06
Mar 2010
4:23 PM EST
   

Sweet Summertime


Life has been way too crazy and stressful lately. So at the end of April, I will be unemployed. I tried the whole 'working full-time AND going to graduate school' thing, but it ended up being too much. I feel that I am missing out on the most important schooling of my life by working at a job I don't particularly enjoy.

Ok, on to the main reason for this blog. I want to make some changes this summer. Here is the list of things I want to accomplish this summer:

1.) Work out - I've tried, but during the semester I have zero time to exercise. I really only gained a few pounds, but I want to feel healthier. My plan is to begin running, as far as I can. I'll just build from there. I hope to get up to at least 10 miles.

2.) Be more social - Currently, the last thing I want to do on the weekends is to go out and be social. Usually I just want to catch up on my sleep...and then study.� I want to go out on weekdays and meet my friends at fun places in Dallas.

3.) Join a sports team - Since I won't have much going on this summer, I want to play in an intramural league. Great way to meet people and to stay active.

4.) Spend more time with my puppy - I adopted a 2 year old black lab back in October. He is one active lab and he is always wanting to play. I feel guilty because I am usually way to busy or too tired to play. I want to spend more quality time with him.

5.) Summer school - Since I have to take summer school, I want to make the best of it. I want to actually get a feel for UTA. I want to venture around campus and see what there is to see. Currently I go to class and leave. Since I will have an advanced degree from this school, I really want to know campus.

6.) Grow out my hair - This may sound lame, but I want to spend this summer relaxing and waiting for my hair to grow. I want it looooooooong!

7.) Practice my photography - I just bought a Canon Rebel and I really excited to play with it. Hopefully I can spend this summer taking lots of pictures.

8.) RELAX - Haven't had much time to relax and figure out what's important to me. Laying out by the pool, leisure walks with my puppy, sipping' ice tea on my porch, etc. Can't wait for all of this stress to be lifting off my shoulders.

Well, that's quite a list, but I think everything is pretty do-able. I'm ready for you Summer! Bring it!
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    giovani74  44, Male, North Carolina, USA - 6,161 views
26
Jul 2007
3:09 PM EDT
   

The wedding has been postponed due to financial issue. The bank approved us but Dani and I didn't want to be overwhelmed. I guess I can continue writing til our wedding date is met.
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    dave  43, Male, Arizona, USA - 6,147 views
06
Dec 2006
4:13 AM EDT
   

Why is the pain still ther after all she has put me through. I can't believe she si doing drugs after all the great things she could me and the kids holy shit...I don't miss her but I mis the person she used to be. We all do. I wish that one of these days she will be back to the person we all know. even the kids notice a differance. God be with her and me. I love lisa so much. Every day I am with you a become more and more in love with you and who you have made me. All I want is to be with Lisa and the kids. God please look over us and make sure we are safe. Thank you!
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