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i would like to say that this year has had a quiet start but it hasn't my other half has problems at work ie: goiong to loose his temper with his boss beacause all he does is drink .this is made worse by the fact he works in a pub . but never mind i'm sure he will cope .i'm still recovering from my op and must say i do feel a lot better now still the best bit is still not allowed to do house work ! and now they know just how much i do in this house while they are out and their favorite cry is there isn't enough hours in the day .well at least they know now what i do all day long and they have even started to washing in the basket insted of on the floor .well that's about it for now so see ya all later

Ok so today Im walking out of Economics class and heading to my locker to grab my stuff and go home. Well this Adam kid comes and starts talking to me.

Ok this is how I see Adam, Really BIG, bad teeth(their strait but dirty/yellowish) He thinks he's a little know-it-all. He's always "correcting" me, interupts my conversations, and just plain rude, weird and a total mess!!!�

Well this is how the convo. goes

Him: hey do u have a minute

me: sure?

Him: I was wondering if u would want to catch a movie this weekend

Me: Sry but im busy (Ewww!!!)

Him: Okay maybe next weekend

He must be on crack or something because I have made it more than obviouse to him from past "conversations" if you can even call them that. That I REALLY dont like him, at all!� Nodda, Zip Zeero!

So any1 have any advice on how to get him to leave me alone? cause he like stalks me! No joke.

��� Note to self: make planes next weekend with friends!!!

Love to me is not just girls and guys together. Love is a way of life. You love your friends, your life, maybe a certain kind of food, maybe you love loving! I know I do. So to me that's what love is.��<3�

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AND THAt'S A FACT! But there are too many things to list........

He's suddenly not himself. We took him to see the vet on Tuesday after he fell the second time. When he went down the first time we heard it but no one was in the room to see what happened. We just heard a loud noise and when we got there he was laying on the floor instead of his pillow, all stretched out on his side. We knew the noise was him hitting the floor. That was Monday night, then Tuesday morning again -�this time I made him stand up and he really had trouble getting on his feet. His legs seemed very wobbley like he could go down at any point.

The whole day before seeing the vet he was only interested�in�laying on his pillow, he�even ignored his food!� When the man came to work on my PC�he usually�barks alot - nope, he ignored that too. We had to lift him into the truck - no way could he jump up there like he used to.�He usually is very excited whenever he's in the truck but he just layed down - wierd!

At this point the vet isn't able to pinpoint what the problem is exactly, he was only able to say that from what I told him, the xrays and the bloodwork results he believes there is something seriously wrong.�

I knew that! $500.00 to learn what I already knew! All he could do now is to refer me to�specialist - uh - no. Can't go any further, we can't afford even what we've spent so far.

I'm left with guilt, anxiety and sadness. He's been a good dog, he's our friend and I don't want to see him suffer. At this point all there is to do is wait and see & HOPE.

I filled in my new calendar yesterday. I�went page by page copying the important dates from the last year's calendar. I made note of the ages of the birthdays we'll celebrate, I note the years of the anniversaries, the age of my dog and the years we've lived in this house.

It always is amazing to watch a year go by in just the 10minutes it takes to organize the days on the pages. I know time doesn't pass that quickly but by this time next year I'll have my doubts about that!

I wonder what memories I'll have, what goals I'll reach, what I'll look forward to.

Time is such a wierd thing, while we don't notice it as we drift along we tend to take it for granted and only appreciate that when we are faced with the possibility that it will end. Having the honor of being part of Shirley's last days has me wishing I had the power to stop the clock, or at least freeze it now and then.

I could cry (and I have) when I realize that this life I have will not last forever. I hope my love will. I hope I'll be remembered, what can I do today to make sure I am?� That sounds like a resolution!

I cant get rid of this feeling, all I know is that something is missing. No matter how much I try I cant forget the memories that haunt me. You'd be suprised at how much a song or joke reminds me of you. But now your gone and Im left here wondering what went wrong.

Someday you'll cry for me like i cried for u

Someday youll miss me like i missed you

Someday youll need me like i needed you

Someday youll love me but i wont love you