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    distracted  52, Female, California, USA - 5 entries
18
Nov 2007
9:14 AM PDT
   

i have everything i need...

i have everything i need..find what i hold has kept me free..longer then my thoughts have stretched..my days have found amazing events..in my heart there has been heat, the world around me small defeats..common though outstanding means..a passion for what interests me..hind sight aswell as all could find..yet before me all clearly defined..only moments inbetween darkened by great tragedy..but in my heart even when stormy..i find a steady calm is forming ..deep my soul entrenched in awe..the brother and father who out shine them all..lay to rest with the past and pain that just to watch drove others insane..but here we stand against all odds and doubts..the truth we knew now carried out..into the sun that absent so long..those nay sayers all proven wrong..
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    jesssie  33, Female, Canada - 69 entries
18
Nov 2007
8:53 AM EST
   

i have no life
well i have a life
but its boring
and nothing ever
exciting
happens

and im sick of it
and i want to go out
and do something
but plans get
ruined
cancelled
dismissed
and i am tired of trying
so hard to keep my life
exciting
when in reality
my life is boring
and i want it to change

but theres nothing i can do right now
because im
swamped
overwhelmed
buried
in other things that are
more important then if i get out much
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    aGiftFromAbov  41, Female, Virginia, USA - 25 entries
16
Nov 2007
5:51 PM EDT
   

Fall

still stuck on finding love.....

Fall
Fall

Not in love..

But for me.



Fall for my imperfections,

Fall for the look in my eyes,

when they land on you.



Fall..

Not in love,

But for me.



Fall for the dimple in my left cheek..

for how strong I am..

Until you make me,

Unsure of me..



Fall not in love but,

For me,



Fall for the imperfections,

My secret jealousy..

That?s not so secret.



Fall for me,

Fall for the time we spend entangled

In each others web,



Fall for..

My heart,

As it has for you.



Fall,

For me.



Not in love,

But in the possibility.

Fall for me

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    tiredofthisplace  39, Female, Massachusetts, USA - 5 entries
16
Nov 2007
5:48 PM EDT
   

its like im taking five steps forward and ten steps back...

well, i just don't know why. I didn't need to drink tonight...but, I did. It's sad really. It's sad how i realize that...

My whole world is right in front of me...and here I am drunk...Why? I don't know. I just can't handle seeing the shit in front of me...I am twenty one...I shouldn't be at this point. Yet, I am. I wish I knew how I could rid myself of this disease. A.A. helps for an hour...But, there are twenty four hours in a day. Its like thecleaner I get, its the messiest yet(thats a quote from a piebald song).

I just know I have to get this right this time...I HAVE TO. I can't stress that enough...To myself that is...

anyone have any advice?
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    Tatiana  33, Female, Belgium - 36 entries
16
Nov 2007
4:42 PM WEDT
   

Oh. Charlotte verandert waarschijnlijk van school. Maarja. Als ze zich hier niet goed voelt. Ze is ook min of meer depressief. En ze begrijpt me. Gelukkig.
exy was daarnet online. Hij probeerde me te helpen. Hij is zo lief, ik hou van hem. Hij heeft het volgens mij ook niet echt gemakkelijk. Ik wou dat ik hem echt goed kon helpen. Waren we maar bij elkaar.. Maar dat zijn we niet. Oh. Was het maar zo.
straks naar het station. Ik ga met de 2 charlotten naar ons favo plekje.
en vanavond naar Geert Hoste. Dat zal wel leuk worden.
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    shirleyxu  54, Female, China - 301 entries
17
Nov 2007
12:58 AM EST
   

一家三口京都 ,奈良四日自由行攻略

周五下午5点从浦东机场上飞机,下飞机已经是晚上9点了,好在我们赶上了东京火车站1015 分发的卧铺车,第二天一大早就到了京都,我们全家一下火车就被满视野的赤橙黄绿青蓝紫倾倒了, 赤是满山的红叶,橙是挂树的果实,黄是漂洒的落叶,绿是脚下的青草,青是寺庙的砖瓦,蓝是头上的天空,紫是和服的主调。

来到京都,有两样功课要做,第一是观寺庙,第二是赏花园,把行李放在南山寺旁的料理旅馆'湖月庄'。我们就先访'南山寺',然后经'哲学小道',直达'银阁寺'再乘汽车到'金阁寺'。

南山寺的大门很有历史,人们都喜欢在门前拍照,我们拍照的时候,很投入,一抬头才发现,大概有一百人的旅行团驻足我们身后,等我们拍好后才接着向前走,这在中国是不可能发生的事。我特地指给敦敦看我们身后耐心停下的黑压压一群人,我们到过许多国家,这样的场面还是第一次,老百姓自然的举动中体现出来的文明很壮观,也很震撼。我若能即时拍下当时的情景,肯定是获奖作品。

这里的佛教寺庙真是名不虚传,虽是经过反复重建,每一个寺庙都保持其独特的风格,南山寺是顶天立地的大汉,银阁寺是小家碧玉,金阁寺是大家闺秀,气质各异,各人有个人的美法,彼此无法取代,日本人把寺院的每个角落都打扫得干干净净,我们要穿拖鞋子N次,因为木质楼梯上也是一尘不染的。

第一晚'湖月庄'的日本大餐还真不错,我们三人吃得有点走不动路。'家庭澡汤'了一下就睡了。住湖月庄的大都是日本人,他们可能是为大餐而来,吃完就走,也不敢久住,因为实在太贵了。

第二天,我们转战住进清水寺脚下的'清水山庄',与湖月庄相比价钱合理,

6000日元每天一个人,三人每天早餐收500元。老板娘严肃干练,主次有序,井井有条,这楼上楼下不大不小的生意,一个人一脚踢。

清水寺,坐落在半山,走在通向寺庙的上山小路上,真像到了香港的半山,街边的小店多也很值得一逛,我还买到一些物美价廉的布艺饰品。清水寺香火盛,我不失时机,求得一签小吉:"见禄隔前溪,劳心休更迷,一朝逢好渡,鸾凤入云飞。" 大意是,我的人生先负后胜,买屋,搬家,旅行,谈话对我都是有益的。想想还真是那么回事,我30岁之前比较辛苦,之后我一路平稳地辗转工作生活在四个国度,搬了很多次家,这些年来没少旅行,而且一路也没少跟人讲话。

清水寺出来就直奔二条城,二条城的松树壁画是个20岁的年轻人的杰作,很大气。这里的'画眉鸟地板'堪称一绝,这也说明了日本人的防备心里很强,很少见到日本人无所顾忌地开怀大笑,日本人很有谦卑心,上公共汽车不先急着和别人争座位,而是生怕自己妨碍了别人,大部分日本人上车后先是低着头找自己的落脚处,并不感到没抢到空位就损失了。二条城比较大,要慢慢地游,敦敦得益于便携英文导游解说,玩得很尽兴。

晚上,我们到了祗园花见小路,这里小餐馆林立,我们溜哒到街尽头上的一家小餐馆名叫'霜月的献立',铺面简陋,但很实惠,大餐很丰富只用3990日元。老板娘很能干,雇了一位英文不错的白发大叔和一个长得很有味道的女学生帮忙楼面,吃完正好以到街对面买票看8点开场的民间艺术专场演出,一个小时的演出包括茶道,琴,插花,亚月,狂言,京舞,文乐。小剧场。我还自愿当了一回茶道的表演嘉宾,喝着茶,学茶道很过瘾。

第三天我们坐火车到奈良,在火车站,我和老公花了很多时间争论该先去那个寺,我和老公都是很主观的人,我警告大家,一家人在外玩不需要民主,要保持高度的集中,民主家庭只能玩两个寺,专制统治下的家庭可能在一天内把奈良玩个大概。不论先去那里,都要开步走,花时间争论是大傻瓜做的事。

东大寺法隆寺是奈良的灵魂所在,这堪称世界最老和最大的木结构寺庙把您带进幽深的梦幻世界。当你抬头仰望慈眉善目的佛像和狰狞面目的金刚时,他们就像在提醒人们,人世间不时有魔鬼和小人出没。因此这大慈大悲的佛还都要金刚来保护呢。俗话说,害人之心不可有,防人之心不可无啊。

时间紧,我们是跑着进法隆寺的,得赶在馆4点半关门之前看完国宝展览。我们一家人是最后走出法隆寺的,要在天黑前乘新铁赶回京都,到了京都火车站我抓紧买东西的机会,买了一些日本造的化妆品,不管便宜还是贵,关键是要 'Made in Japan'

第四天一大早,趁游人还没上山,小路边的店铺还没开门,我跟敦敦9点溜出门去体会宁静的清水,晨光中我们娘俩漫步在清水的石阶上,我们感到此刻的头脑是清凉的,此刻的灵魂就像水一样透明。

中午十二点我们又跨上新干线赶往成田机场,搭晚上645的班机回上海。

到上海浦东机场时,才晚上9点钟,这四日游下来,感觉很好,总结一下:此行不虚,天气好,精神爽,对日本的宗教文化有更多一点的了解,日本人生活很'定式',讲礼貌'谢谢,请多关照'要一天24小时挂在嘴上,一日三餐必吃米饭,豆腐和咸菜,喝万古不变的豆瓣汤,日本人崇尚坚忍的意志和持久的精神,喜欢自然中经得起风霜的东西。每个花园都以松竹梅兰菊为主题。日本人勤劳,节俭,质朴,典雅,谨慎,精细到位追求完美,在不张扬个性中显现着神秘的孤傲清高,日本人永远不会像美国人那样盲目地猖狂和不可一世。著名的'石庭'告诉我们,日本人的骄傲不是松下电器和丰田汽车,这个经过战乱和饥荒的民族内心追求的东西是 '禅'的境界。

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    nina123love07  41, Female, New York, USA - 2 entries
16
Nov 2007
9:48 AM EDT
   

what I appreciate in people is honesty, open-mindedness, sense of humor, and love for openminded. I am looking for a love and openminded partner who is open to a serious relationship in the future
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    Ray  29, Female, Canada - 5 entries
15
Nov 2007
4:38 AM A
   

kill me now...
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my heart is burning.
my mind is truning.

tear drops form in my eyes.
your love for me start to die.
you ripe me up
and break me down.
just kill me now...
just leave me here on the ground...


i stare out my open window
catching the rain in my hands.
every drop of tear i get.
i shead them with regret.

i should have never loved.
i should have walked away.
i should have missed the day.
but instead i close my eyes and cry.
you left me here to feel the pain.
why did you want me to�die of pain?
just leave me here.
here in the�snow of a winter's day.
kill me now with your gentle words.
ripe me apart.
tare out my heart.
kill me now with your beauty and grace.

how much will i cry? when will i die?
if iblock the path, and walk away.
will my shadow find me again?
will my bleak, black, world stay?

in the darkest place on earth,
light and peace give birth.
in the ugliest time in history
beauty and grace solve your mystery.
some how, somewhere.
i know you'll hear me
some day sometime.
i know you'll see.
i won't be there always.
we�need to go�our own ways.
i am what i am.
open your eyes to see.
i am who i am.
let me go just let me be.
kill me now with your kindness
strike me down
drop me to the ground
kill me now with your pride and love.
my heart is burning
my mind is turning.....
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    shirleyxu  54, Female, China - 301 entries
15
Nov 2007
11:19 AM EST
   

We had just spent a long weekend in Kyoto and Nara. Now, I understand if you only have time to visit one city in Japan, you should choose Kyoto, especially in Nov. the color of the mountian and temple made you feel that you are in an art gallery.
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    Angela Wang  47, Female, China - 73 entries
14
Nov 2007
5:09 AM EDT
   

Nov.14,2007
I have not come here for a long time. In recent two month, I have been busy with read books and some thesis and dissertations about architecture. becuse I will have to complete my dissertation after one year.Although I have read many, I feel I have enough confidence to investgate the conditions of traditional dwellings in chosen region. Before I had never learned about the knowledge of architecture, and now I have to start learning from the basic knowledge. My research is the thermal, acoustic and illuminous environmentsof traditional houselocated in Northwest inChina. I have realized I will confront many difficulties during writing dissertation, but I have to finish it on time before I will proceed to the next work-----to work or to further my study for gain Ph.D. So I must work hard every minute.

And I hope I will do it well.

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