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shootingstar420 30, Female, California, USA - 72 entries

Nov 2007
4:57 PM EDT

today was a kool day at skool
it has to do with abel!!!!
Yeah So Today We Were doing this drills at p.e class
and we have the same class
we were doing some drills and he was in the jump rope section and i was in the situp section which r right next to each other so yeah then he is all like hey girl my friend said whats up and im all like fuck u in my head i ignored them and he is all like so yeah or no
im all like hellz no and then he is all like what about him!
and then im all like no so yeah the teacher sounded the whistle and yeah we changed stations and then i went to the stair setion and he went to the situp section
and he came up to me and said how about this guy and all like No i dont want tog et with anybody and then he sai what about me well i think he said that im sure i guess!!
so yeah i just ignored him and so yeah that was the story

o and so yeah i cant believe that shane torrez turned emo omg he looked so scary
so g2g bye

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jesssie 33, Female, Canada - 69 entries

Nov 2007
3:17 PM EST

when you're listening to a song you really like.. not just really like; but absolutely love.

it makes you want to scream, or cry or smile or laugh or whatever.

i have like so many songs that do that to me:$

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pamiejpate 74, Female, North Dakota, USA - 20 entries

Nov 2007
1:04 PM CDT

Meditation

I need some ideas on meditation, any help would be great.

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jesssie 33, Female, Canada - 69 entries

Nov 2007
11:18 AM EST

My feelings are constantly changing.. sometimes i think its going to be great. and then something comes up and i know my mind has changed, and then ill feel guilty about it. but then the day after, it happens all over again. i am so SICK and tired of writing about the same things, the same problems. its always guys, or school, or family. and family is pissing me off the most right now. like, im sorry i am stressed out about school. i was thinking about exams yesterday night, and honestly like i started to cry. because its soo hard.. grade ten is so hard! i know it will only get harder, and there will only be more work. but i dont feel like im ready for all of this!! im not good under pressure but at the same time i know i wont completely fail at everything. but i just want to give up 90 percent of the time. but i know i have to do the work and i know i have to pass.. and i know im smart enough for it. but i just CANT focus on anything other than stuff outside of school. school feels like the last thing on my mind, the last thnig i care about! which isnt exactly true.. but honestly i just want to pass everything.
im so tired. im exhausted. i want to curl up in a ball, and never talk to anyone again.. or at least for a little bit!! i just need some time to myself, yet i keep making all these plans every weekend.. like this weekend i haev a party on friday and then on saturday im hanging out with jeff, and maybe i should just have some time for myself! some relax time or whatever.. but there ISNT time for that because there is too much other stuff going on.

i want a break.

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Br0kinHeart12 34, Female, Ohio, USA - 2 entries

Nov 2007
8:45 PM EDT

Have you ever felt like your world is spinning out of control? Like you can't control your life anymore? That is exactly how I feel. There is something wrong with me latley. I can't sleep at all. I will lay in my ben all night crying for no reason at all. Everytime I do end up sleeping, I have the worst dream ever. It's like I am afraid to sleep anymore because I don't know what's going to happen in my dream. I hate it. I feel like I can't take much of this anymore, like one day I am going to fully lose control and everything is going to be gone. Who knows what I might do that day? I feel like a fucking crazy person! I hate this shit so much. I think that I really really need professional help ....

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zap 64, Female, Maine, USA - 2 entries

Nov 2007
8:24 PM EDT

Yes indeed I do pretend to be serval things, it just depends on the job.. for most women, Our resumes go on forever. I put my mask on and take it off only with trust, and love. At times I wish I was 6yrs old, time never mattered, and belived in Santa.Pretending was such a adventure. Then I grew up.

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shootingstar420 30, Female, California, USA - 72 entries

Nov 2007
7:47 PM EDT

Hi!!! I Think Its Been Months Or Weeks SInce I Havent Wrote On This Thing WOW!!
So Yeah Un Chingo De Cosas A Pasado
And yes It Includes Boys LoL
Omg I Have to tell u this I Was Actually Talking to Omar's Aunt
I DOnt Know Her Name But Yeah I Was Talking To Her!!
Omg So Look Here Is The Story I Was Talking to alex first then he left and i didnt know he left so yeah
I Forgot What I First Said But She Is All Like Whose This
Im All LIke Wtf Whose Is This
And She Is All Like I Wont Tell U Because I Dont KNow You
So I told her i was Karyna And Then She Is All LIke Im Diana
And Im All LIke Wtf R U The oNE tHAT comes to miguel and alex's bday and she is all like yeah i am o so then i asked is ur whole family here
and she is all like who do u mean by that so i made an excuse that i will be back in a minute
and then she is all like no te creas soy la cunada de raquel
and im all like oo
and then she is all like conoses a omar y diana
and im all like van a el party de miguel y alex eda and she is all like yo creo
and then she is all like eres prima de miguel alex diana y omar
and then i said no nomas de miguel y alex
and then she is alll like mejor eda

so yeah i acted like i didnt know what she was talking about!!
and then she is all like tu sabes de lo que estoy ablando eda!!!
im all like no but i knew LOL all i could do is

LoL
So Then She Is All Like Ya Me Tengo que ir and what made me laugh is that she said
me le mandas saludo a el omar

LOL So Then I Said Bye

And Do U Know What Sucks It Was 3 days ago that i was suppose to see him but he didnt come

i was really sad when i found out he wasnt coming :(
I Felt Like Screaming I Just Wanted to see him once more to see if there was still anything there but how could i if he didnt even go i was really sad :..(
So Yeah Now I HAve TO Wait Six More Month And I Thought I Got OVer Them Already but here we go again:(

so yeah alot has been going on in skool i met lots of new people like david
he is a really kool funny guy so yeah i have someone else i think is cute his name is abel hehe
it all started the day i went to walmart i was with my dad in the shampoo and all those things section and then he just passed by
and in my head im all like o i recognize him he goes to southeast so yeah he stared back and yeah yeah yeah lol
i think he is cute he is with jocelyn!! LIke Omg But i dont think he likes her cuz reyna told me that they never talk to each other and that supposably he said that he doesnt know y he got with her in the first place

lets see what else is new uhhhhhhhhhh let me think

i dont know what else is new i forgot but ill try to write on this as soon as possible
so yeah g2g thanks for listening u diary lol i feel like i get everything off my shoulder when i write on here so bye

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scarlett 36, Female, Bahamas - 161 entries

Nov 2007
6:52 AM EDT

wow. i said the weekend was going to be crazy but i had no idea... mall trip was fun: found the cutest dresses for upcoming events ($10 each). But then I passed out during the concert (the rock concert). I just slowly fell sideways (apparently) until I settled on Amanda's shoulder. Pills? or just really stressed/overworked? you decide. friday night was incredible. parties everywhere and i got to get all dressed up. walked into my friend's party and got so many cat calls that that's all you could hear on the hall. felt really good, i have to tell you. Spent the night dancing with Patrick: finally someone as tall as me to dance with! Spent Saturday stressing over work and then danced the night away with him again. there was much drama with a friend. her ex came to visit and...for some reason...pnched her in the face which set her best friend into a fit and the guy eventually had to be restrained. i thought that we were more mature than this. speaking of maturity and lack thereof, I finally just sent Patrick a message asking if he had any interest: he said yes but that friendship was more important. ...which can mean a lot of things...my friends say it's good, others give me sympathetic glances but to tell the truth, i am happy with friendship. maybe i just need to feel wanted?

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jesssie 33, Female, Canada - 69 entries

Nov 2007
2:53 PM EST

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause i never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

-rihanna (cry)

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jesssie 33, Female, Canada - 69 entries

Nov 2007
2:46 PM EST

You know when you feel like you have the entire world.. on your shoulders? Yeah, not in your hands. You don't carry it that simply. Instead you have to haul it onyour back because your hands are not yet strong enough to hold it. You have to go through pain in order to get the pleasure.. fair enough I guess. But how come it has to last so long? And, why is life sometimes like a rollercoaster? How come you have to feel periods of awful pain and then life will all of a sudden change direction.. and it makes you so happy. If happiness is so great, and we all strive for it- why don't we ever get happiness that lasts? What changes it when we get it? What makes it go away?? Do we drive it away? I dont understand. I dont understand life.. but then again, who asked me to?

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