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I haven't been on the computer for a month =D�it's my record. =D�I dunno why. Sometimes, afterschool i just wanna get away from socializing since i suck at it. antisocial? i duno. don't ask me.

I�hate mr. braid. he sucks. hes the worse physed teacher anybody could get.� NO OFFENCE

Tomorrow's gonna be the worse day of my life. Friday's gonna be hell on earth.

WHy am i writing an entry? because.. i'm trying to connect to myself. and .. to accept myself. I need to write a journal entry =D�

Self-love, self-acceptance, unconditional love and compassion for others, inner peace, harmony and balance.

Try: Keep a gratitude journal, show compassion and kindness toward yourself and others, forgive yourself and others, buy yourself a special gift, listen to beautiful music.

OR a gratitude journal.

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what� am i grateful for,

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okay lets start with ... 10 good things about my day

1. I got some spaghetti from Brittany.

2.�I showered

3. i finished the 4th season of Lost. ( i know.. i'm not up to date)

4. I�had fun in LA

5. i GOT married. again!�heha

6. I divorced

7. i have a signiture wedding walk

8. I have at least 5 friends i could count on in LJHS

9. I found a nice guy to talk to .=D�

10. FINALLY. I�... figured there's no use feeling sorry for myself.

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SO. there are many nice people in the world. how come i never came around to see them? I�should slow down my life and take it the way i did. a slow steady pace. maybe i'd learn to appreciate who i am now. appreciate those around me =D because i love them. i gotta remember that. (writes on hand)�woah. i love me. =D�

THANK YOU SO MUCH

BLAHBEE

Darn, I just wrote a perfectly long and wonderful entry and it....disappeared and didn't save!! Just great...on one of the odd days I manage to convince myself to write in the journal...it doesn't save. GAAAAAHHHH

I guess I'll have to retype...just without all the extra colors and stuff....Here we go:

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Dear Journal,There's just been so much homework lately! Like seriously, I'm not talking about everyday worksheets and booklets! That I can handle. What bugs me is we get these huge projects and tests that come around the same time! You finish one project and you get another....wow.�

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L.A presentation

L.A poetry project

Science Test

Math Chapter Test

Social presentation

Chinese skit/play thingy�

�Garrr...one after another!!! I've finished to L.A stuff, Science and Math is over...so now I just have Social presentation and the skit. But really....2 weeks ago its was so peaceful! It was merely the calm before the storm!! How weird to use it to describe the way my teachers give out homework.�

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Well...at least I'm looking forward to the chinese play! Even if its kinda�a little tedious and going to be long....Especially with Emily and I doing almost all the work in our 5 people group...�

However, that means that WE get to decide what play we're doing, WE choose what scenes we're gonna do, WE get to decide what they're gonna act....OOOHH, lemme tell you, this is going to be good!

I claimed director + 1/2 script writer! But in order to get this amazing position, it means I'll be the main translator for the play....�

Still....poor Johnny, poor AJ, poor Aileen and Emily (even if she's helping cuz this is for the good of the play)....okay, okay, poor people who are in my group - except for me, that is! That's cuz I'm narrator. MUA HAHAHAH!!�

�So Emily's gonna fall in love with Jonathan...and vice versa (hehehe She already has a crush on him, so I'm sure we can squeeze in some awkward moments!)�

AJ's the emperor AND the herbalist whose married to Aileen. They will be parents of Emily.�

But don't worry, nothing will go further than a hug or two, so hand holding, awkward script....and sappy moments.�

But lemme tell you, its gonna be awesome!!! Everyone will have fun, and I guarantee you, we're all going to get a FANTASTIC mark on this. I hope ours will be the best, I think the top 2 plays will be Ours and Vivian's group. They have good people in their group and all, but they're going to act it out in Cantonese and sub title it in chinese. When I heard about this, alarm bells went off in my head....but they seemed convince that it'll be okay...so I'll leave it to them

I'm gonna fone Janette now!!�

Lots of luv �Joyce!

ps. I've written some other entries on paper...will type them up when I have time!

You know, It continues to amaze me. I think back to elementary school when all you needed to worry about is if you were going to pack your lunch or buy it.

Now everything seems to be about sex.�I can't go a day in school without hearing about it. I'm just so sick of it.

I�have this friend (We'll call her Ryley) that I�used to be really close with. We are still close, but lately we haven't been. I just found out that she has already had sex. Okay. A)We are freshmen. and�B)She has only been dating him for about two months. She is way in over her head. I just worry about her.

My sixth period class is art. I love art. It's one of my favorite classes. But now, I�dread going there. Everyday I just hate going there. Why? Well, there is a couple that sits at my table. Thay are always talking about when they had sex. Or when they took a shower together. Really? I don't want to hear that.

And honestly. That is personal. You would think that people would want the whole world to know that.

Anyway now everybody knows about Ryley and her boyfriend and she is pissed because she confided that information with one of my best friends�(we'll call her Ashely)�and she told me, and my two other friends. (We'll call them Jasmine and Jacey)

So now there is like this feud thing and I just don't want to get involved.

But anyway my I am completely in love with my boyfriend. (let's call him Lucas.) We have been dating for three months since March 7th. He is my other half. He tells me he wants to spend the rest of�his life with me. And I�know where I�stand on the whole sex thing. I don't want to do it untill I'm married. He is fine with that. but peopl assume things. They assume that we will do stuff or that he is going to pressure me to do things. But see. He's not like that. Even my mom doesn't think he is like that. If she thinks it's fine, then how come my friends can't?

Anyway, I�just want to avoid the whole sex topic period. But I�don't want to be a bitch when they start talking about it. how can I�just avoid it? Please help me. I'm just a teenage girl who is sick of it.

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The rain falls down,

On this old ghost town...

I hear your whispers in the dark,

As they slowly break my heart...

Who ever new you could be so cruel?,

You left me like that forgotten jewel....

Slowly and painfully betrayed,

So now I hide in this masquerade....

the scariest day of my life is tomorrow. i can't wait for that day to be over. so that it brings me closer to knowing the outcomes. the nerves are going to drive me insane. i can't wait to just know what i made.�will it be JV? Varisty? Jesus Christ i'm beyond nervous, this is making me insanely scared.

SOFTBALL TRYOUTS

the scariest day of my life is tomorrow. i can't wait for that day to be over. so that it brings me closer to knowing the outcomes. the nerves are going to drive me insane. i can't wait to just know what i made.�will it be JV? Varisty? Jesus Christ i'm beyond nervous, this is making me insanely scared.

SOFTBALL TRYOUTS

With everyday that passes her by,

She lets out an exausted sigh...

Only to think she once new love,

But it died like that lonely white dove...

A piece of her has died,

The gap inside her heart so wide...

If only she had known,

Maybe then she would'nt be all alnoe...