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Now you are the enemy...

�Song for me and you

You left with out a goodbye

And now I cant help but wonder why...

My heart is lost in a puddle of tears

So now I have no choice but to face my fears...

With everyday that passes bye

I wonder how I bought those lies...

How could you ever do this to me?

I never thought you would be the enemy...

If only I had known what was to come

Then maybe I wouldn’t be so dumb...

Soon I will let you go away

I probably should have a while 'go...

Unlike those childhood fairytales

This one ends in betrayal...

Her heart beats faintly,

The whispers call to her softly...

Left alone in the rain,

Cant help but scream in vain...

No longer able to breath the air,

As she dies in despair....

I�like him alot, but you already new that. Im so confused. She likes him to... my bff that is. But shes been distant lately. Do you think she's mad? His hugs are so warm and comforting. He's what I look forward to everyday...

Im lost, and confused. What do I do?

I am writing this song and it's the best one I've written but I�can't finish it!�I just can't think of anything! Ugh! So frustrating!!� Anyway, I�am so bored. I'm thinking about taking a walk. I've been doing that alot lately. It's jst been so nice. I�love this spring break!

Ok So I've been reading a book called "The Day I Killed James" By: Catherine Ryan Hyde. Theres a passage in it that I love, this is how it goes....

People die of love. I'm one of the few who'll admit it. That doesn't mean it isn't true.

Take all the peole who died yesterday, or last week, or last year. Subtract all the suicides and the so-called accidents of the brokenhearted. Take away the men who got blown away for being in the wrong bed at the wrong moment, the women in abusive marriages who died of cancer because they couldn't find any other exit from their lives. All the AIDS deaths except from the needles and the transfusions, the ones the call the innocent victims. Like if you have sex, you're guilty. Deserved just what you got. Now tell me who all you've got left.

Different passage, same book

Today a guy tried to pick me up at the bookstore. Are you ready for that? I�was actually saying that out loud in fact, later, on the way home: "Are you ready for that?" I shave my head, I've lost twenty pounds. I wear truckloads of loose clothing. I mean, what do I have to do?

"Buy you a cappuccino?" he asked when he'd caught my attention. I looked at him like a kestrel might. We're small, kestrels and me, but we can be formidable. "Do you love life?" I�asked. He smiled. Looked confused for a moment.�I suppose he thought It was part of a dating questionnaire. Like, Do you enjoy sharing hot chocolate and long walks on the beach at sunset?

"I do" he said. "I love life."

"Then run." He didn't, exactly. But he did go away.

Me again, lol

Dont those passages make you think long and hard about life? love? where yuor at in life? That one person whose hurt you repeatedly, but you'll still take back at the first chance you got?

Thats how I feel....

Sportygirl15

maybe i'm beggining to like him a little to much. a few days without him i was completely okay with. it made me rethink who i liked and i thought that it wasn't anybody. but because of last night, i realize how much i actually do like him. he kept bringing up how Josh had said "we should start dating", he just wouldn't give it up. and he was flirting with me like crazy! i felt so loved. He kept hugging me randomly yesterday, and it made me feel really good. he also threw his arms around me once and said "mine", and it made me feel amazing. i felt like he really cared about me. now, i can talk to him about like everything, whereas before i felt like he was really hard to talk to. i'm wondering how he feels about me. he randomly came over to our lunch today, and it made me feel really good. he sat right next to me. and we talked about "the valley of the green glass doors", which was basically everything yesterday. and today we brought it up and it was a major thing. man, i just can't get will off my mind. i wonder if he feels the same way...

"Better stop short than fill to the brim. Oversharpen the blade, and the edge will soon blunt. Amass a store of gold and jade, and no one can protect it. Claim wealth and titles, and disaster will follow. Retire when the work is done. This is the way of heaven." - Tao Te Ching

"The best moments in reading are when you come across something -- a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things -- which you had thought special and particular to you. Now here it is, set down by someone else, a person you have never met, someone even who is long dead. And it is as if a hand has come out and taken yours. Shall we just have the last verse again, and I'll let you go."

(quote from Tue 2/24/2009 reading)

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin... But there was alwasy some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."