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I am sitting here w/ tears running down my face like so many nights over the past 5 mos. I called you to tell you about Aleea appt. to her specialist & you said you have to work. I talked to Aleea for a second. I tried to call at 7:30 to tell her goodnight &�you said you would call when you got in that she was a sleep I asked if she was w/ you &�you said yes. Its 9 & you didn't call. I feel like when you know how strong my love is you take advantage of my feelings. I know you have moved on &�it kills me to know. What do I do from here? I asked god to have you come home or take my feelings for you away! There still here &�you aren't. How is that fair??? I am so sorry I fucked up so much I just need one more chance to show you I can fix this &�make it ok! The sad part is I would even let him keep seeing her just to show him I can do this. I know if you would give me a chance he would want to come home to me &�Aleea. I don’t think I am going to get my chance &�how do I prepare for that?

I� had a good day today, even though I had a bit of a headache.� I am so tired and I�feel like I�haven't sleep for days.� I�had an appointment with my Case Manager and I think that went well, but then I�find out my doctor retired and that bummed me out.� I�didn't sleep well last night at all.� I�am so tired I�could climb into bed and go to sleep right this minute and feel like sleeping for 2 weeks.� I�wish I�had some medicine to help me sleep better.I went to Jewelry club and had fun, even though I�kind of lost interest in making jewelry for a bit.� I�gave a bracelet to my friend because she is going to help me out to pay fior a movie tomorrow when we go with Healthy Living.� I�hope we see a movie that we all like.� It's going to be fun I�think.� I am taking a sack lunch.
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I had a headache pretty much all day. Just haven't felt well at all and so I plan to go to bed between 8 and 9 tonight.

�just got home that was a cool party @ Victoria's house.. it feels soo good to go out! i have not been out in a long time. seen people i use to party with catch up on what's going on w their life.. as I say bye i realized this might be the last time I see them again.. and am a little sad and I will miss my friends.. I am not changing my mind..�

I still 100% would like to move to Ga and be with the only man I love. and hopefully send the rest of my life with him. but cant help the fact that I will be leaving behind all these friends I have and known for years.. the place I called home for a very long time now,�

I�had a very good day today.� I�went out to lunch with my friend and we really enjoyed ourselves.� We had a good long chat.� I�showed her some of my writing and I�think she liked reading them.� I returned some library books at Temple City Library and got dropped off here, so I�can hang out here for an hr and then will take the bus home.� I�am excited because when I�get home, I�can actually watch tv.� Yeah! I�am feeling better today.

I have not been feeling at all today. The Depression group did not go well and I did not make it to my other groups. I had a severe migraine that would not go away and I felt nauseous all day. I also felt as if I was going to have an anxiety attack, but thank God I didn't. I really do not want to end up in the hospital again.On a better note though I�found $3 that someone had lost.� I�am sorry for the person that lost the $3, but it was good for me to find $3 because I�need it on Sunday, so my friend and I�can go out to lunch.� Hopefully, the person who lost it will not miss it.� The person dropped it on the ground.� If it had been in a wallet, I�would have found the owner and not kept the money, but since the bills were lying there open, I�didn't ask anyone if they lost some money because they could have said, "Yes,"even if they didn't and it cheered me up anyway.� I don't feel bad for keeping it because I know if I�lost money, someone would have it.� Once I�found $20 in the gutter and another time I�found $10 at school. �That was really cool because I�treated my friend out when I�found $20 and when �I found $10 I�treated my mom and friend out.�



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SONG!!!!

She was so young,

why did you take her away?

She didn't feel you,

coming close,

Oh, where did she go?

Her stolen innocence,

makes her believe in hate,

her stolen innocence,

can't believe in fate,

her stolen innocence,

makes her afraid,

of you.

She didn't know why,

or the time that past by,

she, couldn't figure out,

why?

now it's her

CX1

She was so young,

why did you,

steal her face?

she could believe in lies,

now is not the time

CX2

REPEAT FIRST VERSE!!!

I had a wonderful day today.� I went to the Write-On group and I really enjoyed it.� It was a lot of fun and I�think that I am going to learn something new.� I also went to the anxiety group, and I really, really liked it too.� It was a pretty good day though I�am disappointed that I�didn't finish the book I�wanted to finish before returning it.