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Well i was finna go ta sleep at round 12 n i was in bed n everythang n then my man kept wakein me up n shit soooo i said fuck it n went down stairs n shit ta work on my outfit n make something ta eat n we basically didn't talk bout nothin on tha phone ..jus basically talk shit ta each other back n forth cuz i mean thats what we do best n shit ....then he was like ima hit you back n im like yeaaaaaa allllrightyyyy ill hear back from you n like 2 hours n he goes i dunnnnnnoooo n im like ok maybe 3 n he was like shut ur ass up n im like uuuuuuup soooooooo then at 1 something he calls me back n im like hello n he goes GOOOOOOOOOOODNIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT n i started laughin cuz i been bitchin at him fo tha past 3 days he aint been pickin up cuz he normally say goodnight ta me n shit sooo when he said that i just started crackin up n im like DAMNNNNNNN its like that baby n he was laughin n he goes GOOOOOOOD NIGHTTTTT n im like aight babe goodnight n he goes yea yea yea ..he like ill call u in tha morning n im like aight...n now im watchin some movie on bootleg n shit wide awake n cant sleep

I�am nervous. I will be meeting my boyfriends mom and sister tuesday. Well I guess it was bound to happen sometime. I�just didn't think it would happen so soon.� I�am sure I�will be alright though. Hopefully she will be nice I�hope they like me.

sooo since tha last time i wrote...my man been actin funny n shit n aint picked up tha phone n 3 days n shit sooo i got sick of it since fo tha past week he would call me every hour and we would fall asleep on tha phone n shit ....sooo i texted him n i was like aight tha fuck u ignoring me n shit...n he texted me n was like what u mean n im like shit i call you ..you dont answer tha fuck it that shit and soo he called me n shit and he was drunk ..just left tha bar with his cousins n shit n he was like what�u mean ..u dont wanna fuck wit me no more and im like i didn't say that..im sayin u better change ur shit up cuz i aint finna have you do me wrong n he was like sorry baby i was jus hustlein n thinkin bout money and shit fo tha past 3 days i wasn't tryin ta ignore u n shit n i was like all u care bout if ur fuckin money..im like u finna be lonley n shit n he all like tellin me how i mean so much ta him and that he think im really tha one fo him that can help him do better and help him stop huslin n shit n sooo we still see...

Have you ever wondered about something, and it just got on your nerves so bad because you couldn't figure out the answer or reason why? Well, I have been feeling that way for a while now. I've been wondering why my dad hasn't called me in almost a month after he promised me he would keep in touch this time. I've been wondering why my grandpa, the most wonderful, amazing, sweetest...awesomest, person in the entire world is lying in a nasty hospital bed dying from Leukemia. I wonder why little innocent children are starving to death all around the world while rich snobby people pig out on expensive food and take everything they have for granted. I wonder all of these things and more, and I am just so frustrated that I can't ever get the answers I need! Ugh!

I came to my boyfriends house and I really wanted to cuddle but he is playing video games like he always does. I�love to cuddle. I�wish he would show me more love I�guess. We don't hold hands in public, he doesn't kiss me that much, doesn't put his arm around me when we go to the movies. I wish that he would do these things. It is like he gets so involved in his life like work,video games,movies that he forgets that I want to be a part of it too. It sucks sometimes. Our sixth month anniversary is coming up soon. i�have no idea what to expect. Any advice? Should I�tell him anything? Should we talk about it? I have no idea.

What should I�do? My parents are arguing almost every day over finances or that they don't like where they live. I�am going crazy because lately it has been an everyday occurence. Anyways I�leave and go to either my boyfriends house or my friend Laurens house and my mom calls me like every�5 minutes to find out what I am doing and when I�am coming home. I love my parents but why do they have to argue like everyday. I�tell them that it is driving me crazy and stressing me out but they continue to argue anyways. Is there anything else that I can tell them so they can stop? What can I do when my mom is blowing up my phone saying I�can't deal with this anymore and when are you coming home? I�get so annoyed just thinking about it. UGh!

I hadf my first nite out last nite in a long time. since iv had kids anyway. 3 years.

but last nite dick bf actually let me go out to the cinema with my best friend. obviously he didnt like it, but he's not a dick in public so he cudnt really say no. although i still had to put the kids to bed, sort out his food and make sure� he had weed before i left the house. god i had an amazing night. getting a few admiring glances from blokes....id forgotten what attention from the opposite sex felt like. luke doesn't count, he's cyber. i expected him to be in a stinking mood when i got in but he was suprisingly ok. great!!! i think he's beginning to realise� im changing. im starting to think about me again. and about bloody time too!!!