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I am super exited! few more weeks I gotta be with my man! thats right! MY MAN god I miss him so much, I will be flying my boys kayden and stoopy and leave them with him.. i do hope that he likes my boys too and love them.. i am scared for my boys and him not sure how are these three gonna survive each ..

been busy day @ wrk 2day I really think am way too old for this field run around all damn day! but then again I can't really see myself sitting in office all day that will put me to sleep and will get bored and probably add more fat on my big belly already

Watched tha movie "tha unborn" n i gotta say i felt like i already watched it..theres gotta be a movie that is jus like it cuz i was disapointed how i could guess what was finna happend before it happend....i mean it made me jump a couple times n shit cuz i always do that with scurry movies...then i fought with my mans cousin a lil ..u no talked some shit back n forth n then kicked it with my lil woman....then drove my man ta walgreens and he woudln't let me come in cuz there was some black boys with long nappy ass hair in there and he no how i love ta braid soooooo he made me sit in tha car so i was bangin my music with his hat on n tha black boy with tha long hair came out with his friends and started dancin n actin dum ta my music ...he was prob drunk ..i jus laughed at em..he was wit some geeky white gurl pushin a stoller with a mixed like couple month ol baby...she didn't look happy that i was laughin at her man but its ok i really dont care...yea my man n his cousin had ta get they damn flamein hot cheetos cuz they fat asses...fuckin cheeto heads....n now im back home still paintin graffiti on tha outfit im makin...tomorrow im gettin my hair dyed like miss keyshia cole in this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghj05RXTfbA&feature=channel...my hairs already curly...yea i love keyshia cole n her krazy hair colors i think she soo damn purdy....my man dont understand why i gotta get my hair done n shit fo my trip cuz he think im on some otha n on some sneeky shit but whateva ill jus beat his ass later and he will get ova it

Lets seeeeeeeee.....

Saturday: Went ta tha dells with tha black family that raised me...went on a rollor coster fo tha first time n almost died

Sunday: legs was dieing from all tha walking from tha water park and i took my mans twin 2 year old daughters ta tha zoo wit him ..gotta love bay bay kids

Monday: got in a fight with my neighbors boyfriend cuz he jus a plan ass hole n i really wouldn't mind if he jus like stoped living

Tuesday: was my moms birthday and we basically didn't do shit cuz she didn't wanna do nothing so i jus made her a big ass birthday sign for her to wake up to

Today: My man urked tha shit out me cuz i asked him if he wanted ta kick it and he was like yea what u wanna do and im like i dont care i jus wanna see u and hes like well think of something and im like i aint got any money right now and he like u dont need money ta kick it and he like call up one of your friends and see whats good with them and im like i dont have any friends and he like yea you do and im like no i dont and he like whateva and im like shit will u shut ur ass up and find something fo us ta do and he like call me back when you think of something n im like whateva cuz i dont got nothin n then i hung up on him and then played ball with my ma n brother and beat they ass like always and then he called me and was like did you think of anything yet and im like naw i already told you i got nothin find something fo us ta do and he like call one of ur friends and im like man will u jus shut ur ass up i already told you i dont have any friends cuz i dont get along with females and he like stop lieing i no u have friends and im like u really urkin me n shit and he like u startin ta make me mad and im like whateva and then he like bye n im like click and i went back n played ball n then i went inside and worked on tha outfit im makin fo my lil trip ta see my sister and then he called me n we finna watch a movie tomorrow sooooooo he says n shit cuz i neva get my hopes up with men cuz shit aint finna let no man bring me down n shit sooooooo i guess we will see and we sat on tha phone fo like 2 hours talkin n basically bitchin cuz he dont like it when i ask questions about anythang even stupid shit soooo we got going at it again n shit n now im watchin family matters till i fall asleep

I don't know what to do about my boyfriend. He calls me Mexican and makes jokes about how I�speak. Sometimes when I�am around him�I stutter and I�don't stutter around anybody else just him. What can I do when he calls me Mexican? I�am Puertorican and he knows it bothers me. He says it does it to show that he loves me and that he cares for me. But I�don't know. Any advice?

The injury we do and the one we suffer are not weighed in the same scale....

I believe the one we suffer is far more worse than what we do in any situation. They can not be measured in the same scale,� not even close to it at all.

Hey Diary,

Okay, I know over the past number of entries I always say this... but time really passes so fast. 2 weeks has gone by since I picked up my report card.=P�AND. yes i'm bored.. but i guess this is the perfect timing to bring�stuff back into life.

Like?

Anime. I gotta catch up. + i gotta buy more dvds to burn them on!�I stopped watching way back in ... December. ?? i dunno but i'm getting on it.

SCRAPBOOKING. I remember keeping all these pictures of my mom when she was young to make a page or 2 for her birthday. I guess i kinda forgot about that since .. last year. Until i started to clean under my bed. Then i realized i've been missing out.

No wonder i feel so lonely right now. I used to do everything by myself. Now that i start to realize i barely spend time outside...and it's starting to kill me.

Now.

ehh . nothing else to type soo

love

blahbee =)

i miss my daddy so much today he is working late super late. god knows i cant stop thinking of him.. i never though it is possible to love someone this much

My boyfriend says I�need to grow up but I don't know how. It is kind of hard for me since I am in college and I am only 22. He has a two year old daughter named Lily.� He wants me to be step mommy in the future and like change her diapers every once in a while. It is like I�am a wife but still in college and we are not married. I�don't even live with him but I�help clean up his house sometimes and we go grocery shopping together. Am I�growing up too fast? Will I�still be able to go out and have fun like a normal 22 year old? I�don't want to lose him though. I love him so much but can I�handle Lily?! Any advice.