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Today,

I feel lost,

because in all reality,

this is what it costs.

I'm upset and broken,

toren down and misspoken.

Today,

I feel lost.

Over there,

I see it,

somethings telling me,

to pull away.

But even as I do,

it will help to dance the pain away.

Today,

I'm lost.

� I know love and I know loss. I believe that everyone has a soul mate. Yes, there are others you will love but there is only (�I believe) one soul mate. Mine has come and gone. It hurts every day of every moment of my life. The worst days are days like this. The days that you feel it in everything you do. Everything you hear or see reminds you of them. Every breath you take makes you want to scream and your eyes hurt from the millions of tears you have shed. You can almost feel them there with you, holding you, smiling... you can almost feel their gentle touch. The worst thing is that you want to stay in this miserable moment all day just so you can be there with them once more. Then you realize that you must come back to your present reality, the one with your new love that is always there for you. You can't be in this state when they get home. The hard part is to pull yourself together and say good-bye to those cherished memories once again until that horrible day comes that�tortures you�all over again.

please,

don't hurt me.

I've cried so hard to day.

looking for that little girl,

that i used to be.

now im confused!

what happened between me and you?

over and over we break,

over and overe we're missed. just let me find you.

beyond the midst of misfourtane.

im hoping as im looking,

for you.

hoping that i'll see,

A better side of you and me.

I need to open my eyes.

Because we're over and dead.

I lost some where in side my head.

just� like alice in wonderland.

now as im looking threw that history book,

of our memories.

i am lost,

like a kid in a movie scene.

so find me,

and kiss me good night.

because right now,

i am lost from sight.