hai. haha. gud day! just wanted to tell more about myself. hmmm. just a simple junior student. well, my life isn't too hard coz i have many friends out there. and of course i had my family. . at this very young age, many trials and problems has come in my life. problems on friends, family. haha. but proud to say i overcome it all. well i just do the things that can make me forget and overcome it. haha. ...to be continue  

Well, im trying to study my brains out for the GED. And im having trouble getting a good laptop and money for college, maybe this journal will be my college journal, the life of a student/ young adult trying to make her way in the world.. That's sounds so much better.
Also some other troubles of a older teen are: driving lessons,paying your insurance and vet bills for your pup, finding housing and scraping cash together for a life. Actually kellena my friend is doing a little better than me she already has a car and is starting her driving lessons, hopfully i'll start next week or the next! :-)

Sumter living is not so great what do people get out of living in a hell hole where people are allways up your ass about some really unimportant crap. spreading really damming rumours that are way to mean to be real.. but sometimes you never know ... cause this is a jacked up world.. with jacked up people who have jacked up atttitudes.

If i was originally from this place I would probably be a lot worse off... Love you sumter people but some of this is just unnatural. I miss big city bright light.. that is kinda weird because i grew on an island that is 37sqaure miles, which is like half of Sumter County... but damn.... please get me out of here beforeI become one of them... start talking crazy shit that I don't know about,( judging others based on my ignorance...The biggest problem around here)

Hey people don't open your mouth to say stuff that you can't even understand like other peoples religion... judging others because they have a different faith than you is very ignorant.. it is racism it is against my freedom of expression and religion for some douchebage to tell me my religion is wrong.. no bitch, your wrong,afew months ago you drank and smoked like it was going out of style ... now you are a child of god and we are all going to hell because we do not wish to become a proffesional hippocrite ... guess i'm going to hell then............. see ya there fuckers.. i'll be the one holding the book of names helping the devil decide if you are worthy of hell's wrath.

Judgementwill not be passed on me based onyour perceptions of me, it's what i have done and shown on my own recognance. so pleasekeep talking shit behind my back... you are building me up morethan tearing me down... thanks for the encouragement ... negativity gives me the strength to be me and carry on doingwhat makes you crazy..

quit my job and start my journey in discovering life as a freelance interpreter, aide-worker and missionary worker. alas i have bills to pay now. life.

for what its worth...
for what its worth, im here..never a stray, come clean dont fear
for what its worth, im never far, stay put my dear its not too hard
for what its worth , the actions made, dont ever forget the bonds you've made
for what its worth, everythings in sight, never a lie but a promise to fight..
for what its worth, there are are angels that cry, not for me dear but for your life..

Well there really is not much to say there is alot going on in my life and I dont really know what to do about all of it...I am back to cutting and that sucks... I have had a few slip ups in the last few weeks which is not good.. But its okay..Me and kris are doing okay.. and all of viv's puppies are growing up to be beautiful! I love my vivvy... and now we have star trigger anna bell bear and trey... all of which I will have to sell soon... but I think that scott is going to get to keep trey... He is really excited especially with me and kris moving out soon!!! I HOPE,,,, Mom kicked us out agian but as normal she was all Im sorry by the end of the day... I love my kris kris but we are fighting alot lately.. I dont really know what to do about all that.. I have tried talking to he that doesnt really help any..just makes her mad that seems to be what I am good at... I really dont know what to do anymore... But it is okay we will work through it like we work through everything,, I know we will.... I am starting to talk even if it will make her mad.... i am at the point that if I have something that I want to say I am going to say it... I really am getting better... i dont really know what to rant anything else about so I guess Im gonna go ahead and get off of here...atleast everyone knows i am kinda sorta alive... LOVE YALL....

     Well, the good news is that I have found a house. I was originally suppose to close in 2 days, but now they are delaying me another week. This sucks because I had to call my utilities, cable, etc.... back so they could postpone my transfer date another week. Im just ready to get in the new house...the anticipation is killing me. I just want to tell everyone that when you go to the loan company to get a loan, they will ask you for anything and everything you can think of. Im about burnt out.