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18, 2008: FebWelll the weekend is over and i ended up spending my bday with my nephew, without him i really wouldve been miserable. Yesterday I answered a BP note and today he is coming over and im cooking tonight. Well when Blair arrived he had the cutest dimples ever. He is gorgeous! He helped me with my laundry and my groceries. He even scratched the itch I had. lol So far I like him a lot. Well lets see where this goes. Hopefully far cuz we both want the same. Andre baggage and his bullshit lies are out the door.

敦敦的 ‘五星级’享受

陈家经常旅游, 按惯例凡入住五星酒店, 敦敦总是毫不犹豫地自觉选择睡在沙发上而且不吃酒店餐厅的自助早餐. 敦妈会在他醒来之前, 出门买来当地特色小吃, 让他一饱口福. 这样的选择他既可以睡懒觉又能每天有400 RMB 进账. 9天的假期后, 他的个人帐户就有几千元的流动资金, 可以用来买他喜欢的乐高玩具和作为给朋友买生日礼物的开支. 我们观察到, 他使用这笔开支时通常很小气.

今年敦敦期末取得了平均95分的佳绩, 敦爸决定糖衣炮弹一下, 请儿子吃顿像样的早餐, 一月的北京半岛酒店生意不错, 餐厅里各种肤色的人熙熙攘攘, 敦敦选了几块他喜欢的肉饼放在盘子里, 刚想大嚼时发现肉饼里有一个细长的卷发, 我和敦爹看到了这一切, 但没吱声, 低头吃我们的早餐.

敦敦用肢体语言示意服务生, 并把头发指给她看, 并没有说话, 然后轻轻地将头发放在一旁的小碟里, 接着吃他的早餐. 小姐先是愣了一下, 过了一会她才反应过来是眼前这位小 ‘先生’ 投诉, 她礼貌地请敦敦等一会, 不到一分钟, 餐厅经理来了, 她先向敦敦道歉, 再用各种词汇想法解释这种事情发生的可能性. 敦敦还是一句话也没说, 一边喝饮料一边静静地听她讲完. 再看年轻的经理姑娘, 对眼前这一言不发的小伙计, 她已经耐不住劲了, 她赶紧对敦敦说, 您们的早餐不用签单了, 真是对不起, 万分抱歉. 敦敦礼貌地冲她微笑了一下, 还是没说话. 我和敦爹傻看了眼前的话剧. 自愧涵养不如敦敦, 他明白, 在这样的场合, 语言是多余的.

Makes me wanna jump out the highest window,

Swallow all those pills.

Makes me wanna cut the deepest, I've done before.

All because the pain you caused,

But what keeps me from doing it all...

Jesus

Take my hand.

Jesus

Please take my heart. And

Jesus

Take the pain,

Don't let it hurt no more.

OH, what a sweetie!!! He had a scavenger hunt around SPearfish, all planned for me. Since we didn't get to see eachother Valentines Day (THURS) and we had plans Friday in Rapid (I gotthe spot lasered off my face and we both got massages at Spa MED! :) THe scavenger hunt started this morning (Sat). I took Oakley and Jett stayed with Cory. my first clue sent me to the Coffee shop, where I got a coffee compliments of my sweetie and an envelope which sent me to the gym.After the gymI went to our church and the final destination sent me to "our special" spot, the bench down by the creek at the city park. He and J met us there and that is where I got my valentines present,,, which at first was popcorn and M&M's. That was sweet bcceause it goes to show you he knows my favorite treat! BUT I was still hopeful for my RING! and sure enough, he said, "There's one more thing" I was so happy and excited that I don't really remember exactly what he said, Something like, we've had good times and bad times and and then something else and then he asked me to be his wife, which I said, "of course"

It really was sweet, THe boys were there but didn't seem to care about him proposing because they were more interested in the creek. BUT, it was cool we were all there! I LOVE CORY SO MUCH and I am SUPER HAPPY!

"Als je je hart kon zien? Zou je er dan beter voor zorgen?"

Man, nee! Ik zou het weggooien. Geen gevoelens enzo meer. Niemand die het kan kapotmaken. Liever geen hart dan het hart dat ik nu heb. Of wat er van overblijft. Vandaag moest ik 3 (!!) maaltijden eten. Waarom 3? Waarom kan ik niet zonder eten leven? Het zou zo veel stress wegnemen. Er zou zo'n last van mijn schouders vallen. Maar zo werkt het niet. Het zou té gemakkelijk zijn. Ik word er achterdochtig van, als iets gemakkelijk gaat. Er moet dan toch iets aan zijn? Alles heeft een keerzijde, als ik moet beginnen achter alles iets te zoeken zal ik altijd weliets vinden. Mag ik niet doen dus. Anders ga ik me nog slechter voelen. Tjesus, zou ik niet overleven. Hm, ooit ga ik toch dood, maarja, op een andere manier dan. Weer een bizarre hersenkronkel.

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Hi you person who reads this,

Today is still boring. I have to start with my homework, but I don't want to! I feel nervous and tired at the same time. Yesterday I went to the cinema with my friends and I can't stop thinking about it. I mean, we had so much fun and we laughed. It's still weird to me. Because I never had such cool friends. I feel really respected for the first time! I still remember school, I had friends but... they weren't like friends. They hated me. And all the kids teased me. I think that was until the six grade. But know I'm on the 'next school'. I don't know how it's called in English... I am 13 years old and in 'the second grade'. I don't know how to explain it. Now I'm on this 'next school' I finally feel respected and cared. I remember one time, my friend told me. I was sick for two days and I couldn't go to school. And everybody in my class was worried. They kept asking my friends where I was. And kept asking when I was coming back. It was so awesome. But still I have some 'enemies'. Not enemies, but people who don't like me. I didn't do anything, they find me ignorant. But I know, you can't be respected by everyone, right? Today I'm going shopping with a friend, my best, best friend. But my mom and dad aren't at home. My friend is still asleep... So have to wait. And I'm so excited! Later this day, I'll write stuff that's more interesting. Because, my diary is quiet boring so far.

Bye!

P.s: I am not English, so my text could be incorrect.

It feels like love is just another form of suicide. my friend wrote that on a desk in science class and other girls responded. LOVE IS JUST A WASTE IF U DONT EVEN HAVE A BOYFRIEND.....when will i ever get a boyfriend who understnads me and cares about me....i cant even wear make-up till im 16! or even date! So i think guys are wasted on me...