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ANGRY ....................................APPRECIATIVE

BRUTAL ..................................BALANCED

CRY..........................................CARING

DRAIN......................................DELIGHTFUL

EMPTY ....................................ECSTATIC

FRAGILE.................................FUN

GUILY......................................GUILTLESS

HATE.......................................HAPPY

IMPERFECT ...........................INVINCIBLE

JAGGED ................................JOYOUS

KAPUT ...................................KIND

LONELY .................................LOVELY

MASSIVE ...............................MAGNIFICENT

NEBULOUS...........................NICE

OBSOLETE ..........................ORANGE (favorite color)

PAIN .......................................PRECIOUS

QUESTIONABLE..................QUIET

RECONDITE ........................RARE

SECRETIVE .........................STRONG

TEMPORARY........................TENDER

UGLY .....................................UNDERSTOOD

VAGUE...................................VICTORIOUS

WEAK ....................................WONDERFUL

X-TREME...............................X-TRAORDINARY

YOUNG..................................YOUTHFUL

ZONKED................................ZANY

I NEVER THOUGHT...
Current mood: indescribable

� I don't normally do this, but I feel that I have to, cause holding my feelings inside and to myself is killing me....� Who new that I would lose someone so special? I never thought that the one I put my complete heart and soul into would just walk away so suddenly. I'm dying inside because I didn't even see it coming. All the dreams...marriage, kids, the house and just being happy with the man I thought was the one...SHATTERED!!! I can't help but day dream about the good times, and the way I felt when I was with him and the way I longed for him to be near me. But now, I' m lonely, I'm so deeply hurt, and worst of all I still can't imagine my life without him. See..at the same time it makes me think why did I bother, why put your heart into something thats not guaranteed, for it to just be stripped away from you? I know I shouldn't feel like this but... I have never felt a pain like this before and truthfully I thought I would be one of the lucky ones, to find something so real, so meant to be, and to never have to go through such unbearable pain. It's so hard cause I put up this font like everythings okay, like I'm happy, like I'm over it, but really my nights have been cold and lonely, filled with tears and heartache. Dang...why me? God...How do I get rid of this feeling?!!!� How do I once again fix that piece of my heart that been broken, to the point it's unfixable? I pray, for this to be okay, for everything to just feel normal. It's a fact that I truly loved like I never loved before and right now, I don't know if I ever will again. I am forever changed, and scared, cause I can't let this happen again and I'm trying my best not to become bitter over this because for some crazy reason I feel in my heart that everything will be okay and my dreams are still meant to come true, but at the same time why get my hopes up and set myself up for another possible failure. I don't know what to do....~Shanell

It's been so long since i've writtin in my journal. I am currently in Sioux Falls, South Dakota. I'm visiting Steven on his business trip. I arrived last friday (the 15th). The weather, is crazy beautiful but crazy cold. Being from southern california, it was almost like a culture shock. The land.. its so flat and covered in snow. The air is so crisp and cold.

Seeing and spending time with steven is just so friggin great. I know i was really worried and nervous about coming out here, not knowing what to expect.But things are going really well. We've gone to dinner and just spending a lot of quality time together. He's really.. growing on me. Even tho when i met him i knew i wanted to spend time with him.Sleeping next to him, waking up to him- its really something. Never in my life, have i felt so sure, so comfortable to be with someone. It always takes me a while to warm up, per se. It's kind of a shame i'm leaving in two days. I really wish i was staying until he came home. I just want to spend time with him- i miss him the second he leaves in the morning.

i loved him so much then found out he was cheating wif my best mate on me !?!?!?

he says he still really loves me but y should i be wif him !!!!!

except the main problem is i love him to !!!!

I like Ice Cream!!!

I went to your class yesterday, after not seeing you for a week. Seeing you is twice the pain ,twice the hurt . But I gotta be cruel to be kind to myself.

Anybody like the band Switchfoot?

so where is my little friend today and how did her day go.....i will tell you about my day girl...my youngest brother called me at nine in the morning..wow wakeup call!!...he is splitting up with his girlfriend....what else is new..the whole world is splitting up with their girlfriends and boyfriends....you see he ended his marriage to be with this girl and now one year later the girl doesnt want him anymore....stop thinking the grass is greener at the other side cause you will get hurt!!!!...why not try to have fun with what you have instead of trying to find the most incredible person in the world...trust me they dont excisit...period.....whoever wants to be in a relation needs to work for it in order to make it fun...and to all the dude and dandy's outthere that think that their hubby isnt exciting anymore...well duh!! thats your own fault too cause you let it slip!! and gave up on something that could last a lifetime...and with a little work and some special time you MAKE folr one another....your life can be as happy as you want it to be....but it can also be as crappy as you want it to be...so cheer up!! make things happen...work at it...hey no one ever said life was smooth and simple...its hard work in order for you to have a happy and healthy marriage...but if you want it to be happy you will just have to find a way to make it happen....there are choices you can can make and if that choice is to be cranky and mean hey for sure i would leave too...but if that choice is nice and warm then hey why would i leave....i have a good hearted hubby and although we never really see eachother that much as he is working overseas...i never want another man in my life because we have what it takes but we also keep it going..and yes sometimes its very hard..but sometimes i know this is what we both want and need.....so if you have a wife or a hubby and think you dont love him no more think again!!!!!....you made kids together..think about all the good stuff you had together and make him want you again...sorry it wont work if you bitch all the time and that really goes for the both of you......sure there will be always differences between the two of you..geezzzz people you were put together and got married and now you have to live together....is that soooooooo bad??? not if you make it fun....but thats work and people get lazy....all i hear is how unhappy every one is with their livers and how the men make the women cry or the opposite.....learn and listen...and make fun..keep the love of your life..stop the bitching both ways...make love laugh enjoy yr kids instead of putting them under pressure..they were made in a love passion..make sure you keep it that way.....its totally up to you!!! love to all of you outthere Dangles

2008情人节特辑

今年的情人节, 天气很冷, 花店的老板娘大方地送我一堆红玫瑰花瓣, 我将一只玫瑰花放在当中的小花瓶中, 把玫瑰花瓣洒在周围盛满水的四个白色瓷盘中. 黑暗中, 二十只蜡烛的柔光烘托出玫瑰高贵稳重的气质.

吃过烛光晚餐, 多情的老牛与老情人老鼠品着白葡萄酒, 喝到似醉非醉时, 在闪烁着玫瑰红的烛光中传出小牛悠扬的钢琴弹唱. 结婚十多年, 恐怕没有比此刻更加浪漫的感觉了.

小猫乐肥显然是受了这超级浪漫气息的影响, 跃跃欲试地想舔蜡烛尖上的火苗. 我家乐肥刚一岁半, 正值少年青涩, 哪里知道这如火的 ‘爱情’ 不是好玩的东西, 搞不好要招致烧身之祸. 为了避免冲动的乐肥因初尝禁果燎着了它那漂亮迷人的胡须, 我不得不轻拍它的屁股.

情人的爱犹如水中的玫瑰花瓣, 艳丽而动荡, 是女人用水的温柔成就了 ‘爱’ 的玫瑰红, 是男人用蜡的燃烧照亮了 ‘情’ 的坚定和义无反顾.

为了测试我家小牛的浪漫细胞, 我让敦敦试着对对苏小妹当年给准夫婿秦观出的上联: “闭门推开窗前月”, 敦敦沉思片刻, 几笔挥出下联: “合眼闻得水中花”. 你别说这下联还真是充满了浪漫才情.

Hi i am Lovely Gurl....i'm 13 years old....i live in Malaysia....there is a boy i like in my school......so love ya........i'm a girl of course..........so be cute and be happy to everyone out there...........