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Everyone has a genius inside themselves or at least a special ability that no one else has, the only difference betweena genius and ordinary people is that ordinary people lack of power to persue and to continue.

Leo

� I really love reviewing the Texas State Parks so here I go again. As I said previously, this is just my opinion. (Go check out the state parks and get an opinion to share.)

Goose Island State Park. I think this is my favorite. I absolutley love it. If you are a bird watcher you better be ready. It is just above Rockport and a hop, skip and a jump from Port Aransas. The people here are very friendly. Camping is spread out all along the park. My favorite is in the front along the wall or whatever they call it. Each of these campsites has a covered picnic area with water and electricity. I believe they are $20 a night. I like the ones right on the waters edge. I put the tent up just far enough from the ocean to keep the tide from coming inside. It is so relaxing to hear the waves along the wall. Be sure to bring extra rope to tie from each leg of your tent. It is very windy here. Closeby this camping area is showers and bathrooms. A long lighted fishing pier goes out into the ocean. You can also wade fish off the little islands and shallow waters. Be sure to get up early in the morning between 5 and 6am and get out to the pier. Most mornings the dolphins will come in to play. They are amazing. If you don't catch them you can go to Rockport around 9am and catch a dolphin tour. I think it is around $20 per person. They also have sunset cruises to watch the sunset on the ocean. Cranes, pelicans and seagulls are numerous along the parks waters. You can also head a little north on I-35 and watch for the signs to Aransas National Wildlife Refuge. This is a must see and is only about 30 minutes from Goose Island. There you will be able to drive thru the area and also stop along the way and hike the trails. This can be an all day trip if you would like. At just $5 for the day, you can't beat it. If your kids are curious, like George, they will love it here. Please watch for snakes. We saw a Cottonmouth our first time there. These are very poisonous water snakes. Besides snakes there are wild turkeys, armadillo, wild pigs, javalina (javalina and pigs are not the same thing.), numerous types of birds, alligators (big ones), rabbits, deer, and other wildlife. You can�hike up the trails or up the big tower to the observation deck. It is beautiful. They allow fishing in designated areas. You can also get� binoculars at the office, on loan of course. There are bathrooms at the observation deck and the front office but I don't recall seeing any�else where. Be sure to have some snacks and water. Also make sure you have gas in your car. The drive thru is about 15 miles long and go slow so you can see all that the refuge has to offer. You can also purchase gifts and a few refreshments at the front office.�

I know, I got off subject. We must get back to the state park. So, we were discussing camping areas. When you first enter the park, to the right are some roads for primative camping. Remember these areas have no electric or water and bathrooms and things are�scattered. There is a lot of nice shady spots and some nice hiking trails in this area. This park has a bait shop and rents Kayaks. There is also a boat ramp.�Once you pass all that and go across the bridge, you will find to the left an RV area. Almost directly in front of you, if you continue to drive straight, you will drive right into Stinky�Beach. I believe it is called this due to�the algae that grows there in the summer. Don't take my word on it though, check it out and read the sign they have posted. It does kind of smell sometimes. This is where a lot of people swim or�seine for bait. I can't see how�people can swim right there. Every time we seine we get a net full of jellyfish. Wear your shoes in the water at�Stinky Beach. The Exxon up the road�sells some medication for jellyfish stings. You may want to carry some with you anytime you go to any beach. Don't forget the sunblock while you are getting ready to go out in the sun for the weekend. This park is always clean and the people who run it are helpful. I think they even have stuff they do in the summer such as wildflower trails, fishing with a Ranger, and tours of Big Tree. Big Tree is a very, very old live oak. I think it is over 1000 years old. Can you imagine, surviving hurricanes and gulf coast storms. Wow!��It is a must see.

This park is one of the Texas State Parks that loans out fishing equipment. McKinney Falls and some others do as well but we will discuss that park and others later.

In conclusion, if you want a nice park, with nice people, and a great view- this is your park. I would love to be a park host at Goose Island State Park!

Just my opinion! :)

hi again! well, since the lasttime i wrote, i´ve been trying to get my boyfriend fixed.. but it just doesnt seem to work and i´m getting pretty tired of it, i dont think he really cares what happens to me and justhas me there for kissing or whatever,but its not fair on me so i´m going to show him the real me. i´ll explain the rest tomorrow... i´m just so sick of the way he treats me!!

Overstepping Bounds.... In relationships.

You know last night I was beyond heated.. after the news went off about attacks and he decided that he wanted to discuss gun control issues. For the 14th million time... I decided when the conversation was first brought up that I did not want to debate this with him. Partially because I get tired of hearing it.. and secondly he thinks he is all knowing on this subject and I dont think there is much that can bruise his ego. So I told him.. that I didnt want to discuss it.. but he kept going with the subject. Then.. when i decided to state that peeople in attack situations... "do not shoot to kill.. they shoot to disarm.. or stop the attacker" in my mind the killing of the individual that would attack me is just cause and effect. He attacked me.. i shot him.. the dying was just part of it.

So... where did I overstep my bounds.. ?

Well as he brudishly informed me in a very aggressive shout in my direction.. "WHAT DO YOU KNOW?!!!" my jaw dropped... and I blinked. Was I being diciplined like a three year old who goes to touch a fire? All I know from that moment.. the conversation was over. I had asked him.. not to yell at me... previous when he did so in a threatening tone. I left the room.. for fear that Id go into the rage that I am all too familiar with. I didnt want to do anything that Id regret.. and didnt want him to further add to the flames and have him do something stupid.

So.. Im in the room crying... I calm down relatively quick this time..

I go back in the room.. and ask him.. "what part of.. I didnt want to have this conversation did you not respect.. or hear." Two strong minded individuals.. one who could care less on the subject and one who feels he needs to whisper his opinions in everyones ear just so that they would listen. He states that what I am telling him was wrong.. and that he was mad because I was telling him stuff that I couldnt speak on. (What kind of crap is that?) he represents the minority of people that are actually trained to use a gun.. and the even smaller minority of people that have been trained by the military.) I on the other hand.. am the john and jane doe's oout there.. the other 7billion of our population.. yet my opinion is invalid. Even though he solicited it when he wouldnt shut up about the issue. Be careful what you wish for.. isnt that how the adage goes? The fact was though he further made a donkeys ass of himself when he stated that .. I had "overstepped my bounds!?" Im sorry.. what kind of bounds are those? Would that be the bounds of me as a woman.. having an opinion... my bounds as his woman, a card carrying opinionator? Lets think about in the past where this phrase has been made.. being that this is black history month I only fnd this appropriate: Rosa Parks overstepped her bounds when she decided that she would not give up her seat. Martin Luther King overstepped his bounds when he decided that we should all be able to live in harmony (they even shot him for it). Brown.. in Brown Vs Board of education overstepped his bounds when he decided that they should recieve the same education as caucasians. The government overstepped thier bounds when censorship was an issue and gambling was deemed illegal. Its been said that Kanye West overstepped his bounds when he spoke out about how he felt about Bush. What do all these situations have in common... the person who stated that the bounds were overstepped are all the ones who had no business doing what they were doing to begin with. So lets just make it clear here and now.. that In overstepping of bounds.. this would only work in a totalitarianist society. Or maybe when in conversation with a facist... now that I think about it he was definately acting like a facist. I always told him that he doesent know how to talk to people.. he treats people like he is supreme beings and they are idiots. Ive only been on the observation end of this behavior until now... I dont plan on being subject to this behavior if it continues. He told me that I disrespect and hurt his feelings sometimes as well.. which is odd because he never seems to say anything. Then he said.. they are my feelings.. if i dont want to tell you then I wont tell you. I mean.. im no dr. phil.. but I was raised to let the people I love know I love them... and the people that hurt me know that they did so.. and that it will not be tolerated. He hurt me.. cut deep... down to my soul.. he rations out his emotions. Rations out his feelings.. and Im not even privy to how he feels. And even then so... he felt no remorse or empathy for how this effected me. That night I told him why.. i hated people shouting at me. Did he even reassure me that it was okay... or apoligize for his outrageous behavior. No, he stood his pompous ground. I dont know if him bringing me tissues.. or something to drink.. was his way of saying sorry.. i dont even want to analyze that situation. Because I shouldnt have to.. It pains me to think that I ever inflict hurt or create disdain with anyone. But thats the difference between he and I.. I personally feel. Ive been through enough.... and Karma is a B!

All I want to do.. is love him.. and be loved. Why must that be so hard? I work so hard to treat people the way I like to be treated and all they do is piss down my back and then attempt to tell me that its raining... IM NOT BUYING IT!

Simplicity.. I require simplicity... RESPECT and Honesty... wow.. now i sound like Aretha! Its funny how the same people we love for one thing.. are the same people that we hate for others. I hate that he cant identify.. and remotely empathize with what im going through. Its like.. hes looking at me.. like cry.. go ahead cry.. get it out of your system. And if he does.. he has a heck of a way of showing it.. funny that it makes me cry even at work thinkin about this who scene...

I love him.. he hurt me.

But as ol' dude would say on 103jamz... "WHAT PART OF THE GAME IS THAT? "- Otis.

A Bullet-proof Vest

Leo started reading newspapers in 2008. Yesterday, he found a report about the campus shooting in US from Shanghai Daily. He seems to understand about how does quantitative change lead to quality change due to his statistical heritage from his mother, after counting the number of casualties in recent years, he stood up and said to me seriously, “ Mom, please buy me a bullet-proof vest if you want me to study in US.” The childish words seem not that unreasonable, kids in his generation do not have sense of security especially after September 11.

When I was in Grade 5, a psychopath boy in my class threw a fist sized rock from other side of the building and hit right on my forehead while I was playing during the break, my fellow pupil walked me to the army hospital for some basic treatments. I still have a big scar on my skull which is a mile stone of my teenage school life.

It’s quite peculiar that I said good bye to my day dreaming time in School after that and my brain worked remarkably well since and I never had any difficulty in math study and I won many math competitions in No. 6 Middle School. After I gone through this horrible blood shedding event, I was never scared and never worried about my life security.

Today’s world is different; the poor little kids born 1990 onward have to wear a bullet-proof vest in their mind.

wow it worked didnt loose a word how cool is that huh......i am pretty much only using this sight for practise....they say real writers practise writing..no matter what they write so i babble along and write after this in my lil asus comp and it soooooooo works for me....my fingers fly over the keys on my lil baby asus.....its 6.18 right at this minute...and i am not sure what to write about...i dont want to write about people...so lets try wrting about my dogs..i have 3 of themright now..the oldest who is almost 13 is an sharpard and her name is elmo....then i have bentley..he is a little bugger that i couldnt leave in the mall when i saw him...he put his little paw up to my hand and ever since we give eachother high fives all the time.....then i thought he got lonely and should have a girlfriend so i found hannah, a liitle smarty pants pom.... she is the tiniest and funniest creature of all and she's the boss of the other 2....then i have a cat her name is kamikazi but i call her kazie cat....and she is a big fat cat....if she wanted to she could kill the 2 lil dogs in one attack..she's too kind and would never,.....well i hope she would never take revenge at the little dogs...and god knows they tease the shit out of her...but i think she likes the attention....she also like the watertab in my bathroom....im talking to a friend on msn gotta go for now love Dangles

I'm trying to get a new lease/perspective on my life. I have felt so negative about everything lately. Not just lately the past several months. I've blamed most of it on my work, because I can't stand the company I work for and am beginning to hate my job as well. Then of course everything trickles over into my family life and I becaome negative with them as well.I'm trying to figure out how to get myself out of this. And what I need to do to change,

What of the things I realized the other night when I was yelling at my kids is that I need a life.I don't mean I want a different Life, I just need to find a balance in my life. Everything I do is for my family (of course including me) but it seems that I'm the last one I think about. I know that this is part of being a mother and accept that, but I think, no I know I could do a better job if I could find a way to balance things that I need for me as well as for my family. I just have to figure out how do to this.