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TrulyMe88 37, Female, Colorado, USA - 188 entries

Feb 2007
7:18 PM MDT

the love i have for him just won't go away. with every step that i take and every move that i make i proceed with caution cause i feel i pursue in the wrong direction. pain is love ... that's what they told me and all of my suffering has definitely proved thee you make me feel so brand new like this is a different you someone to get used to the time we shared is so special and so real i can't let go of what we have and the way that i feel yes i know my situation but love doesn't just fade so my feelings for you simply won't go away hearing your voice brightens my day and the little things you say take my breath away we do things all backwards but it worked out this way and if i could go back and change things, i wouldn't, i want them to stay stay in your arms on those nights that we slept hold you close to my heart all the nights that we wept laughing and talking and all the great sex fighting and making up, our routine was the best i know i did a lot of this but it was my heart that you bared and spending time breaking those walls showed me that you cared now it's my turn and although i'm not standing still i'm still waiting for you with patience and determination cause no one can have what we do as i lay here thinking about the way you say my name all the priceless moments that we shared and that we made the smile that crosses your face and all the things that took place i can't help but wonder if you feel the same way am i making a mistake in trusting you with my heart cause at one point in time you caused a lot of pain, and left me distraught there i never want to return i want to stay where it's safe but after all isn't it true that true love is deep pain kelvin is the love of my life at the moment but i can't leave angelo in the past. kelvin is making things hard for me so i am beginning to regress back on what i had. yes it was dyfunctional but it worked. for us. no i don't wanna do that for the rest of my life but i don 't want to do this either.

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jazzsoulp 40, Female, Rhode Island, USA - 32 entries

Feb 2007
7:17 PM EST

Thursday...went to QB's crib and watched greys anatomy...great show by the way...Ok, I know in church they tell us to speak positively about our lives like when your down with the Flu, you say you are well in Jesus name?!?!...Well,...I am RICH IN JESUS NAME..u get my picture...I graduated from college and am yet to find a job. I mean, I could be working now with some Agicultural sumn sumn...but the lady old me it's $12 AN HOUR...hahahaha...AM SORYY WHAT???...na B...I have a Beachelors degree in Biology with a ,minor in Chemistry with an alrite GPA, 3.56 to be precise. I got paid $10 as an undergraduate researcher and now u want to give me food packaging job for 12 bucks...Hello,..some HR peeps do not know wussup...I felt insulted,..I'm sorry if it makes me sound shallow...But I know I deserver more...Got a 2 other offers on the table tho...20 buck an hour but I havent gotten the main call for the compnays hiring manager...i think it is a test of faith, and this is one test I know well right that I am not failing...Personal note to GOD,...I trust in you and believe you can do it for me Lord...Please give me the Job with CH. It would really make my mum so happy cos sometimes I think she Loves me more than I love myself...And please heal London Buki and Yellows mum...I've been thinking about her a lot lately,...I tried to give him a wake up call this morning but I guess he dint find it amusing and he has finalling given up on me cos I decided not to be the friend her wanted...I think it would be good for him and me both, but Lord help him understand and not resent me. I know my capabilities and I just can be there for him like dat...The trust is gone and he cant really get it back because I wont,...no I cant let him! My face is still ringing from the slap you see. I have completely let go but I dont like to be used and I now he probably doesn't know it, but he is indirectly and unconciously using me...that's what happens when you're in Love...u dont care about anyone else and after the fact. All you care about is you and the person you Love, so I am protecting myself and guarding my Mind, Soul, and Heart from the selfishness of the world...I mean, he is no different from the other girls I stopped talking to cos they tried to be friend with me because of my cousin LB...It is just a bit more complicatedf bcos we were friends b4 all this and now we've just fallen apart. He has tried to mend it, but I'm not one to be fixed...U brake it, just throw it away cos fixing means it might work, but not as good as it used to, put some tape around it and it might look alright but not as beautiful as it should be...Just throw it away and get a new one.

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debbie1970 55, Female, Austria - 6 entries

Feb 2007
1:30 PM ACST

I had closed the door upon my heart And wouldn't let anyone in, I had trusted and loved only to be hurt But, that would never happen again Then you came into my life And made me change my mind, Just when I thought that tiny key was impossible to find That's when you held out your hand And proved to me I was wrong, Inside your palm was the key to my heart ... You had it all along

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debbie1970 55, Female, Austria - 6 entries

Feb 2007
1:18 PM ACST

Your love is a lantern That lights my way, Uplifting my spirits, When skies are gray. Your love is a wave That lifts me higher, Into a sea Of tender desire. Your love is a flame, That can never die, For always and ever, It will be just you and I. Your love is a rose, Moistened with dew, Touching my soul, With the beauty of you

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jazzsoulp 40, Female, Rhode Island, USA - 32 entries

Feb 2007
3:49 PM EST

Today....I woke up at 11...looked for schools to apply to and applied to UNiversity of Houston...deadline March 1st...God help me..I have to take the GRE's soon...external exams are not my forte..O well....I guess I have to do what I have to!...Me n DB went to drop of her car at the dealership cos her door was bad...The shuttle took us to the mall down the street and never came back for us untill about 4hours later...crappy service mehn. So we were both hungry and couldnt wait for the car...Barned n Nobles was too cold so we left after freezing there for three hours...we walked in the damn cold to Chilis...crazy...we ordered our food and the dealrship calls that the car is ready and thy'd found the shuttle driver...great timing ey?...DB went with him while I devoured my food. She's gone to swimming class now, so am here alone....DK called me earlier today,...apparently Nigeria and Ghana were playing...I've decided to hold my emotions in and quit this whole public romance thing I had going on..I used to be tuff u know...Now my bestfrend tells me she's proud cos i've let go...Bu it's about to be back on..NO more Mrs. Soft guy...heheheehehehe...Hi, Hello, How was your day, good bye..straight to the point...No more random calls a night or the wee hours of the morning...cos i think he's taking the piss....plus it's almost Valentines day,...Isn't that when couples fight to avoid giving each other gifts???..lol...I couldn't even if I wanted too...O well,...BUt it's only for a while....I'll get back to smuthering him with affection sometime this year....YAH!!!

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tealprincess18 35, Female, Virginia, USA - 88 entries

Feb 2007
3:31 PM EDT

hey... i am going crazy... my mom is starting to come between me and john.. she is taking away all my privleges and i already dont get to see him.. she is tearing my life apart... i am only aloud to be on the computer for twenty minutes a day now!!! this sucks... i am grounded for the next month or so i cant do anything!!!! she is about to take away my job and that is how i get my momney and that would be bad!!! i hate that i can never talk or see john... i miss him so much...

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KaityGirl214 32, Female, New York, USA - 30 entries

Feb 2007
1:15 PM EDT

Today I realized that my BirthDay is in 8 days!!!! 14 14 14 14 14 14 14 YaY! So yeah, um I kind of noticed that no one really blogs everyday like I do. If you correct me and let me know because I didn't want to false state anyone! ooh I'm #2 on most blogs and # like 20 for most viewed!!!! thxx guys

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itsjustme 46, Female, Texas, USA - 37 entries

Feb 2007
9:34 AM CST

Ah, so its the end of the day and I am getting ready to go home. I felt kind of good today. Nothing really exciting happened, kind of a noneventful day. Sometime thats a good thing. My dad went to the doctor today, they set his surgery date for 3-9. My grandma isn't doing to well apparently. I really hope she gets better. Really. I know she's having a really tough time though, its like she just crashed. One minute ok the next not at all. I go see the ENT on Mon. Hopefully he can figure out whats wrong before I drive myself crazy. But, OK, enough ramble for today. Bye!

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KaityGirl214 32, Female, New York, USA - 30 entries

Feb 2007
8:49 AM EDT

Ok sorri I haven't written in like forever my life is wayy to demanding now, between friends ,school, play practice and basketball everythings hectic! I feel like my life is being used so much and i need a break. Do I get one??? Yes its called a weekend, but every saturday I have a b-ball game and sundays I have to get up and go to church @ 9 then curch class @ 10 then I teach a church class @ 11! Then I get a break! Phew! Write me a little ~Kool Yo~ Kaitlyn :)

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jazzsoulp 40, Female, Rhode Island, USA - 32 entries

Feb 2007
4:06 PM EST

I finally got my GRE book...I learnt about 30 words in one day...and i think am done for life...So, we went to Queen B's to meet up with our daddy...DY...To have a family discussion about the unborn twins...I sent him a text saying I needed to give him a hug, but it was for Me..lol...DY's so cool..I love him like he were my mothers child. So, Queen B wasn't back from work and me n DB were waiting patiently for him to come, so he came, and it was like he couldn't look at us at first...It was understandable!!!...Well, we bounced princess O to the room so we could talk..and he started....WOW..It was a lenghty but healthy conversation. I got my hug from him. Then he said it was DB's fault cos he tried to toast her....OMG...I almost died when he said dat...I literally ran into the cold with no shoes and no jacket on cos we'd all been joking about it, and he finally confirmed it. So QB returned from work and DY told her dat he couldn't tell us cos he couldn't deal with it...The rest got their own hugs from him...Queen B cooked and we were a happy family again...We made fun about how when we go on road trips this time around, we have to rent SUV's with two baby car seats at the back, and when at the hotel, we cant share beds anymore cos 'THE BOY'S' have to sleep comfortably and we will all take 4 hour shifts at nigth....hahahahahaha...Our family is so cool and suportive...I'm gonna buy him diapers and baby food once a month for a while...cos he's DY, you know...And his baby mama who is omo Ghana hates us cos we are so close to him...Well, she can eat do-do for all i care..As long as she takes care of herself and delivers our homeboys kids safely...The babe claims she used birht-control pills...First of all,...it's all so dodgy bcos we know she's been trying to get DY to propose but he already told her he cant marry cos he cant maryy for pity...he wants to do it for love...thats why they broke up in the first place...I hate that chik right now...I believe she trapped him...It sucks mahn...we need to control our urges...Thank GOd am celebate...Dats right y'all,...I AM CELEBATE TILL I JUMP THE BROOM!!!....hehehehhe...Think am crazy yet?...Peace.

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