Wow, I can't believe it! My first online journal entry. I've now been doing my food diary for 10 days! I can't believe how much I eat sometimes and at other times so little! I think I'm going to journal about my weight loss and one day, weight management. It's so exciting. Last time that I weight myself I was slightly over 170 lbs. But, of course, that's been a while. I know that I haven't flucuated though, much since last year.
On a different note, Pre-Calc is so difficult, my mark is 47%. I only need 56% though on the exam to pass. Then it's finished!! It's finally getting warm outside which of course is a welcome change!
At this rate, I think I will never babysit again!! It bothers me so much!!��I mean you can't honestly only need your babysitter for February and March every week and then be done with her and not need her till you feel really bad two years later!!��It actually makes me really sad because I love the boys so much and more time spent with them, the better. Oh, well! It's not like there's anything I can do about it!
I welcome your suggestions, comments and notes and would love to reply! Thanks.
xD coolest week ever
Tuesday = TH on TRL, String Ensemble playing for AARP
Thursday = Mama Mia
Friday = TH on Conan O'brien
been very ill,now i have to figure out how o change my lifestyle,i slept all day taking medicne that knocks me out ,i have shingles now and heart problems� im learning life is short,worry stress is a luxiery i no longer have this habit or way of coping has to change samsons asleep on the sofa hes had tuna today so hes happy� the nest has hatched i think one bird passed on but other tow seem to be doing ok� there adorable im better at taking care of others now i have to learn to take care of me,this is a diffucult lesson� any segestions pleas let me know
May day...on a beach.
A lot of fanny things, a lot of playing volleyball.
We have won about 8-10 setts. And we plaied for an hour wothout having rest.
Cool!)
I'm crazy...But I love volleyball...Very much.
May 10, 2008
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Wow, what a great day yesterday.� I had my interview at the Jeff Gordon School of racing and I also made contact with someone at Lowes Motor Speedway.� The lady I spoke with is looking for some additional help with clients that will be in the Speedway Tower during the race. .http://www.lowesmotorspeedway.com/speedway/the%5Fspeedway%5Fclub/. �Looks like a fun place to work.
I will be working both the weekend of the All Star Race and also the 600 weekend.� The job situation is looking much better than I thought after just 7 days.
Now things with getting a new drivers license are not so great right now.� Did you not think you just walk in and get a new license?� Well not in North Carolina.� I actually have to go in and retake the written test.� So now I am studying the 115 page manual so I can pass the test.� Fun Fun.
Its beenso long! Like seriously! Wow. Oh well I am back again. Alot has changed these past few months. Sam and I broke up for good. He has a new gf now. I must admit I am a little jealous. But hey what ever happens happens for a reason. And I will tell you now I know the reason: I am engaged! Yes engaged! I am so happy and the guy I am to marry is amazing! His name is Cody Hughes. So I am now Heidi Hughes. Call me Heidi Ziegler and I will be very mad. Lol. So ya he lives in Texas and I cant wait to see him. We met online and we plan to meet for the first time in August. I cant wait! Well�I am off more later.
�Well today is my first day to a new start of finding myself and kicking all those quirks I have.� I am a sensitive person, who will cry all types of tears.� Sometimes it really gets on my nerves, but there� is no controlling them when they start to flow.� On the other side of me, I am controlling to people I shouldn't have any control over, the ones I should just love and respect.� Then there is the other people in my life, who I give no control and respect, who should get it from me.
So I am on a mission to change things around.� Here goes....wish me luck!
our relationship are getting nearer and i like this~^^
but since all these happening.........there's some problem keep happening......
like now, my mother are keep talking and quarrel about me........say that i pak tor pak tor........
but the truth is not like this! i am inocense!! me and song, both of us are inocense!!
these few day....i just cant concentrate in study no matter we are in exam or not......i just cant.........cant stop thinking.......
it is sorry to let song worry about me........so i wun show out wat am i thinking........maybe he will find it out when he see this..........
after he knows tat my mum is talking about our things..........he started to keep a distance with me......
it is so weird and i just cant accept it.......
he is affraid of my mum.......and i am affraid that he will leave becoz of my mum........
i hate it!! y can my mum spoilt all my�things?!
on another hand........i am very sad and sorry.......
sorry that i din keep my promise......
i promised u that not to tell anyone but then i told my mum......i am really sorry about that.....
u must be very dissapoint�towards me........i know it.......
i know that i need to pay for the dept......the dept for not keeping the promisses......
u must be very angry.....but i know u din show it out........just like�b4 when u r angry with bao er..u din show out and just keep it in ur heart.........
i am very bad........sorry........i know after this time......u won tell me�any secret anymore.......oppurtunity knocks but once.........
i am so sorry.........
i can do nth with it.......i hope that u can�show out ur anger more than keep it in ur heart..........but i also wil affraid that u might leave me alone after�scolding me..........�
besides......i think my characteristic are going to appear.....the bad faces of mine.....
i really affraid to see the angry faces of him.....affraid he will angry and scold me....becoz that represent my useless............
he scold me becoz of my useless and stupid........
and yet, he will definately dislike me becoz of all my bad habbit or my peronality..............
i really affraid to see this happen.......
all this reason making me concern and nervous.......concern about our future(is tat really a future after all the things i did)
i dunwan to lose u.........dunwan..........
everyone is talking about me and him........say that we are couples or wat ever.......
actually.......i know......i really know tat our movement and the feelings between us really like others couple......
we made fun of each other, we hug each other, we even call each other baby like that......we stick together everyday......
all all these are the things which will happen between couples.......
but the truth is, we are not couple!!!
no doubt, we like each other very much more than anyone........
but wat we want is to be like this, we can do wat we wan........when we need hug.....we will hug each other........when we need comfort.....we comfort each other.......
we no need to cares about others.......just be like wat we want to be........
i got only him......only him to be by my side.........so i will share everything with him.......
is tat really a problem?i dun think so........
just to do wat i want.......
no matter couples or friend........as long as we r together.......right?
(for me, i think that friend can be the one who always there for u.......but not boyfriend nor girlfriend.........thats why i choose to be friend with him..............maybe this thoughts will change one day....but definately not now......^^)
hope that things will become better after all~^^
luv u~muackssss~~^^
May 9, 2008,
So I’m already a couple of days behind on my diary.� Not really off to a good start.� But I’m not going to give up.� I will just get back on the wagon.� I might just have to give in to the fact that I can’t do it daily.� So Crystal told me about a volunteer opportunity with the NASCAR Foundation.� She said it’s a good way to volunteer (item # 3) plus get out and network.� So I signed up to volunteer at the Telethon that they are having coming up on May.� It is held at the Sam Bass (famous NASCAR artist) Gallery.� It should be fun.� The event is in conjunction with NASCAR day.� Yesterday, I went over to Lowe’s Motor Speedway to inquire about work.� Did not have great success but I got a name of someone to call.�� We have exchanged several messages but had not connected yet.� After Lowes’s I stopped over at the Jeff Gordon School of Racing.� That was much more productive…..I actually had an interview today.� They are going to get back to me on Monday.� Keep your fingers XXX.
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