Day 2..... this day counting madness will go on until the day Eddy decides to ring me :). I want to end it ASAP.
God i'm so fuckin hungry..my brother that cow ate everything up. I'm 17 years old and i had to wake my mum up so that she could take me to mcdonald's!!!(its PATHETIC) She was busy snoring and refused to take me�
My God my stomach is growling i could eat a whale rite now. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
I'm off to cause some mischief maybe that will numb the hunger.
First Contract
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��上周末保姆请假10天, 家务总要有人做, 我本着付出-酬偿理论的精神，开出了职责清单和薪酬, 庄严宣布开始家庭竞投, 重赏之下必有勇夫, 敦敦小眼一眯, 妈妈, 这活我干了。敦敦在车上跟他老妈签下了生平第一个张劳动合同: �
��������������������������������������甲方: �妈妈 ��������乙方: �敦敦
����2008 年4月19日至4月30日 （共计11日）, 乙方放学后, 承担清洁地板和洗手间的家务活. 在4月三十日, 由甲方付乙方660元RMB 为报酬。此合同自签署之日起生效，若中途毁约，需付费百分之十违约金共计66元整。
��������������������������������������甲方签署：------------ �乙方签署：---------------
���我反复检查了合同内容，看有无违反劳动法的地方，我知道目前国内法定最低月薪是
1，500元。按小时计这份工的工资不低，对于小孩子给自家做家务，没有年龄限制，不存在雇用童工之嫌。为了省下公证费用，我诚邀敦爹以律师身份做了见证人。
���可别小瞧这经济干杆的作用，敦敦发扬了优秀的港人传统，信守合约精神，放学回来放下书包，二话不说抄起拖把大干社会主义，两层楼的地面擦两遍，清洁完4个洗手间，小脸通红地说了一句，“妈妈，这么容易的活，以前为啥要请人来做”。我这才意识到，早点签这份合同就好了。
Sometimes you put walls up,
not to keep people out,
But to see who cares enough to break them down...
I thought that was a good one.
Ok, i dont understand! I dont see why people think that they have the right to treat others like shit!!!! I often wonder if it is because they are not happy with their life... When someone sends you a message at 7 in the morning just to be an arsehole & make you feel like shit, it makes you wonder just why you waste your time talking to them at all! & there u have it.... my little outburst for today!!!
睡得少和睡得多
�� “GDP曲线与睡眠之间有着惊人的关联, GDP走高, 睡眠值走低, GDP走低, 睡眠值走高. 20世纪六十年代的美国, 70年代的日本和八十年代的亚洲四小龙都曾由于经济的飞跃而兴奋得睡不着, 现在轮到我们了.” 这是经济学家吴敬琏评价财富对中国人生活方式的改变时说的一段话. 从宏观上看, 睡多睡少不是人们的一种自我选择而是社会发展的选择.
� �记得02年夏天, 我给崇基书院的4千多学生们做过一次演讲, 告诉他们, 他们找工作不能只盯着工资和 “名声”, 在他们选择职业的同时也替自己选择了一种生活方式, 生活方式决定了你的健康. 也就是说你在选择工作的时候也选择了自己的生活质量. 职场竞争在某种程度上也是精力体力的竞争, 知己知彼, 在决定为了自己的未来拼杀之前要先考量自己有多少粮草和刀枪. 演讲归演讲, 我心里明白, 大部分中国的年轻人都有从众心理, 一般是依照周围人的活法来决定自己怎么活, 很少根据自己的特质设计自己的未来, 在得知别人都睡得少时, 即使躺在床上也会睡不着.
�� 几年前我在香港曾搞过一项调查, 与在政府部门打工的人相比在私营企业工作的员工罹患高血压的概率高出6倍. 我的一些能干的学生从公立医院跳槽到私立医院寻求发展. 工资高了, 工时长了, 压力也成倍地增加了. 他们还没想到十年八年后, 他们的病例本也会变厚, 他们离婚的机率也高.
��� 如今大陆也跟香港当年一样, 以金钱论英雄, 大陆的经济的起飞也要靠着人们对金钱追逐这个原动力. 如今中国大陆的创业者们都在比谁睡得少, 因为在别的条件不相上下时, 谁睡得越少谁成功的机率也就越就大. 回国后跟一些30多岁的职场新贵们聊天, 得知他们的同龄人中壮志未酬身先死已不再是奇闻了. 用一句话总结, 历史证明, 社会的发展驱使着各阶层的社会成员为长期的经济利益付出健康和生命的代价. 钱到多数, 睡到寡数, 死生, 命也.
Couldn't sleep last night.� Not sure why, everytime I drifted off I had a weird dream & would wake up within ten minutes.� this happened several times.� I should be going to bed now, but not sure I'll be able to sleep again.��� This happens every once in awhile.� Its probably just some memories that can't seem to be put away no matter how old they are.�� I need to try anyways-need to be able to function at work tomorrow.
I have no idea what i am doing. I have signed up for this thing (which i will probarbly stop using after the first few entries) I dont know but for some reason this seems a lot more safe than keeping a diary on paper.
Ok so life seems to have hit rock bottom at the moment. I have lost my job, and the guy that I had fallen for just told me that he only wants 'sex' & 'to be mates' i feel like it is selfish for me to want more. So i am in a desprite attempt to end it all to save hurt feelings (mostly mine). Believe me I suck in the 'love' department. I dont think that the man for me exists :) lol...
Other than that life is pretty alright i guess... I dont know if this is how this thing works... & i dont know what happens now.... After i submit this but here goes...
Yep i've come this far without having a fix of Eddy. There's no turning back now. He was like a drug to me u know...i couldn't function without him. It was intense, i suppose that's�how it feels like to be foolish,young and in love.
I have learnt a great deal from Eddy. I intend to use�this knowlege to exploit men and make them do things for me. I've learnt from my mistakes and i don't�plan on making a MISTAKE EVER AGAIN.
Eddy will call. i know�he will, when he does i'll let everything go under his terms. I'll be a good hostess.�The relationship� needs to go out in a bang!
I intend on having no communication at all with Eddy*�He honestly is a great guy(although he�can be a �dog @ times)� Iloved him once and i hope he gets a woman who loves him as much or even more than i did(QUITE IMPOSSIBLE)�
I've changed Alot...i'm same person but this whole Eddy experience has�brought something out of��me. i reckon i�have grown older� and a �new side of me has emerged.
I now look @ men as objects that can fulfill my desires be they physical or most importantly financial.�(�*sings*�i'm the man eater, man eater....lalala�)���LOL
住家精神导师
� 6年前，敦敦5岁的时候，看到爸妈因为工作压力大，关系有点紧张，无奈被迫地充当了一回父母的精神导师，在他认为恰当的时候，小家伙分别找我们个别谈话，，爸爸：“妈妈虽然不太漂亮但绝对聪明，你要坚信你的选择是明智的” (Mummy is not so beautiful, but she is smart. Believe me, you made a right choice. ) ；妈妈：“老爸不是十全十美的男人，但做你的丈夫已经是富富有余。”(My Dad is not perfect, but as he is more than good enough to be your husband), 他奶声奶气地教导他的父母在结婚若干年之后还要弯腰歪头从各种角度想法看到对方的优点。听幼小的孩子讲这些，弄得我们俩老很惭愧，都知趣地收敛锋芒，一般不敢在‘导师’面前率性而为了。
那时候，每年的假期不多，我和老公在为如何安排假期这个问题上常常有分歧，有一次敦敦看我们双方的争执已经进入白热化，在饭桌上刚能露个头的敦敦出奇地冷静，对我们说：“爸爸妈妈，我知道你们都很爱自己的爸妈，所以都想让自己的爸妈看到我。你们都没错。 可是。。。” 5岁孩子的话，语重心长，掷地有声，像一面雪亮的镜子照着他爹妈自私的灵魂，我们瞬间觉得自己很渺小，真想找个地缝钻进去。
� 6年后的今天，我让导师给他爹娘的婚姻一个动态评估，我恭敬地请他用一个5点量表： 很差，差，一般，好，完美。结果，我话音未落，‘导师’马上说，“妈妈，请去掉最后一点，因为这世上没有完美的婚姻。我对此没准备，楞了一愣，连忙照办，导师目光深邃，轻轻地说：“就目前来讲，你们的婚姻算‘好’。”
� 我说:“能不能具体一点”。 导师说:“我以前觉得你有一点欺负老爸，但是现在我发现你们其实是刀子嘴豆腐心。比如爸爸本来跟猫不对付，还容忍我们俩疯狂地爱猫。尽管你有时发点牢骚，但你并没有阻止爸爸去做他喜欢的事情”。然后他从容地加了一句，“爸爸很爱我，你应该认识到，这是他爱你的一个重要表现。”我恍然大悟，今天导师教我，爱，包括让他（她）爱他（她）所爱的大道理。好孩子的灵魂是透明的，做大人的精神导师才真正是富富有余。
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