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Fate.... the all seeing power of the universe.

Ridiculously pushing and pulling everybody in Life and Death. Fate can give us good in Life, or take away everything we hold dear. The only thing Fate needs to do is to is to keep the balance of the world. Fate may make the world wealthy for one century, and make it completely deprived the next. Only to keep the scales of everything in balance. Fate has others to help maintain balance; War, Nature, Satan, Love, Poverty, and many others. Overall, it is fate who watches over and makes everybody's decisions in life. When Fate becomes old or bad at her job, a new Fate is brought in to replace the old one. This is a position that is always filled. Though the shoes may be big to fill, everybody who is supposed to fit them does a good job.

Personally, I believe in Fate and that everything happens for a reason. The Fate who lives and watched over this generation is a good Fate.

That was my continuous writing paragraph that I did in English. I liked it so much that I thought I would start this journal off with it.

}Y{- Nichelle

Welcome to Review #5 of the Texas State Parks reviews. I want to talk about Lockhart State Park this time. This is a nice park. It is nothing fancy but the people here are awesome. This will be one of my top three favorites for Friendly people up along side Lake Texana and Goose Island. It's a pretty tight three way race. A lot of people come here for the golf course. Not us. We come to... what? Fish. Yes, you can fish here. The water is pretty shallow in some places but you catch a few.�There is also some great trails and I love to go to the top of the hill to the pavillion or rec hall they have. It has a great spread of picnic area behind or to the side of it. The back has a huge space to use for dancing. Inside has a kitchen and a couple small rooms/bedrooms and a huge dining area with a fireplace. This is a nice building with lots of space for a party or even Thanksgiving dinner. It's better than having to be stressed when everyone leaves your house in a disaster. There is bathrooms too. From the back patio/dance space you have a clear view of the basketball court by the park. People don't realize that is the park when they see it. You get turned around going up the hill/mountain. There is a nice hiking trail behind the building and more all around in the wooded area. Watch for snakes. This state park also has a swimming pool to use. It does have a fee but I'm not sure how much. In the very back, go across the little bridge by the waterfall and take a left. Follow it to the end, there is a nice trail that goes along the waters edge. You can also see various remains of the old part of the campgrounds. I assume this�was used for primative camping. I'm not sure if they still allow it because there is usually available space in the front along the water. The playground area here is very nice and while you are there look for the alligator tree. My children gave it that name because it has branches that come out and look like a head on an�alligator.�Watch for snakes. We have seen them here, both in and out of the water. Also be prepared for poison ivey and such. My son usually has a problem with this in the late spring and summer months. If you have a severe allergy don't go�on the trails that are more over grown and remember, leaves of 3 let them be.

This is a great park. I go here a lot. If you get a chance you should too. Just my opinion.� :)�

I tried to kill myself on March 20th, 2008. Obviously I failed since I'm writing this. I overdosed on hydrocodine, tylenol pm, and tons of sleeping pills. After an overnight stay at the hospital they transported me to a mental hospital, where I have been for the last 15 days.

I wish it would have worked. I wish I could go back and take more than I did. I hate feeling like this. I hate my mind thinking of ways to hurt or even kill myself.

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父亲的肖像

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�� 今天是清明节, 我们全家清晨起床后的第一件事就是给父亲的遗像鞠躬上香. 父亲离开我们5年多了.

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�� 因为没能飞回家给父亲扫墓, 我只能用我独特的方式来寄托对父亲的思念. 打开画箱用心画一张父亲的油画肖像,

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� �父亲年轻时有一米八的大个, 很是清瘦英武, 晚年的父亲腰板还保持挺直, 斑白的头发下面有一张忠厚慈祥的面庞, 浓密的眉峰里透出山东人的耿直, 布满皱纹的肉眼泡和眼袋间细细的双眼闪着慈爱的目光, 鼻梁不是很高但很正, 肉实的鼻头中透着敦厚善良, 双耳服帖忠诚. 严肃的嘴角下镶着一副军人特有的坚韧下颌.

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���用几分钟勾出基本轮廓后, 我拿父亲的遗像作参考, 凭着心中的记忆, 用手指和软布, 一会就抹出了一个父亲的肖像. 蓝色的背景衬托出父亲黄褐色的呢制将校服, 柔而坚定的目光凝聚在一张饱经风霜光明磊落的脸上. 军人和慈父的神态兼具 老公说, 看你画这幅画的手法就能明白, 父亲是活在你心里的.

慢动作 ( Slow Motion)

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� 敦敦的毛病是干事慢吞吞, 为娘的我经常催促他, 还时不时大声叮嘱他要有紧迫感, 因为很多事情是不能等的, 慢半拍就会失掉很多机会。没想到今天的晚饭前，敦敦正而八经地对我说, “妈妈，如果我有机会做一个个人音乐专辑, 就叫 ‘慢动作’. (Slow Motion) Slow motion, Slow motion, don’t need to be fast, cause time will pass. 他边唱边跳太空舞，很陶醉的样子。

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� 我一直在研究敦敦这不落俗套的‘信念’，在他最近的一个中文读书笔记里我找到了答案，他读了，谢尔希尔弗斯坦的绘本 《失落的一角》 ， “它缺了一角。它不快乐。所以它动身去找它那失落的一角。因为它缺了一角，它滚不了太快。所以会停下来和虫儿说话或者闻闻花香，这是他最美好的时光。历尽千辛万苦…….它终于找到了它那失落的一角！它又开始滚动越来越快，它完整了，可它却连歌都唱不了了。于是，它停下来， 把那一角轻轻地放下，慢慢地往前滚动，它一边滚动，一边清亮地唱着，我要去寻找我那失落的一角。”�

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�� 读书体会中，敦敦发出了小大人的感慨 “因为生活是要慢慢品味的，过快节奏的生活容易使你忘记生活的真正的目的。”众里寻它千百度，豁然回首答案就在读书笔记中。

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�� 谢尔全书不到六百字加上简单到不能再简单的线条，读完花不到十分钟，但确实够我们咀嚼一辈子。生活中我们多多少少都有缺憾，我们每个人都在奔着自己的完美。实际上大部分人一辈子都未必能搞明白，生活的意义是‘体会缺憾’。

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hai. haha. gud day! just wanted to�tell more about myself. hmmm. just a simple junior student. well, my life isn't too hard coz i have�many friends out there. and�of course i had my family.�.�at this very young age,�many trials and problems has come in my life. problems on friends, family. haha.�but proud to say i overcome it all. well i just do�the things that�can make me forget and overcome it. haha.�...to be continue��

Well, im trying to study my brains out for the GED. And im having trouble getting a good laptop and money for college, maybe this journal will be my college journal, the life of a student/ young adult trying to make her way in the world.. That's sounds so much better.
Also some other troubles of a older teen are: driving lessons,paying your insurance and vet bills for your pup, finding housing and scraping cash together for a life. Actually kellena my friend is doing a little better than me she already has a car and is starting her driving lessons, hopfully i'll start next week or the next! :-)

haha. i really dont know this website. i just found this while searching the best website for online diaries. ii's my first time to write and i dont know what to say. haha. well. i just really want to express my feelings and thoughts with other people. but i'm a little bit shy talking about it now. haha. this is ol for today. haha. maybe next time. i can write more. bye bye.�