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Ask yourself whether you are happy and you cease to be so- John Stuart MIll

HUH Translation PLEASE?

Come on Keonya You can do it.

Ok

Keonya are you happy?

Yes why yes I am

You stop to be so.

Okay

I get it now. Keonya You need to be happy. Take a break just to smile. I you are to busy to laugh. You are to busy. Take a deep breathe and find happyness in it you can do it I know you can.

You happy yet.

Yeap a do, happy as can be.

Love you bye

Bye keonya

清明时节雨纷纷

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无计划地在街上游荡是我和敦敦这个周六下午的节目, 清明时节的细雨淋不湿衣服, 路上人流稀少, 手拉手走在朦胧的雨雾中我和敦敦都有不现实的感觉, 我们先是鬼使神差地跳上公交车游车河看浦东街景, 8元钱两个小时, 这大概是最便宜的旅游巴士了. 下了车我们流浪进街边的一个小公园, 眼前一片雨洗过的白桃花, 让我们无意间来了个雾里看花. 我们走了很多路, 踉踉跄跄地拐进浦东书城, 敦敦捡了一本漫画书纳头便读, 我顺手挑了一本女人书来瞧. 没想到主题出奇地对我心思 ‘女人可以不漂亮, 但是不能不聪明. 聪明可以赋予女人美丽, 聪明能让美丽持久, 聪明能让美丽有内涵’. 敦敦一向认为他的老妈不够漂亮, 但承认她的老妈够聪明, 这回好不容易从理论上得到认证二者可以相互转化, 我忍不住指给敦敦看书的精彩内容, 弄得敦敦很不耐烦.

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走了5个小时, 我们跟着饥饿的感觉撞进一家广式 ‘汤’坊, 叫了一例原味黑鱼汤. 彼此吹嘘一番后, 饭足汤饱摇晃着出门. 2008 年春天, 我们娘俩漫不经心的一个下午, 无计划, 没目的, 但是很自在, 很享受. 难怪上海出了很多有名的文人墨客, 这个城市的四季真的会给人带来无限的灵感和冲动.�

Wats up today Its a good day for me so I want to�(smile) at you

So.. he made the police academy.. kudos to him. Very proud of him.. hes moving to Linkhorn Bay apts.� Which i picked out with perfection..� while we toured the apt. which he insisted I see too.. (for some odd reason.. since what do i know?) he kept saying we.. we can do this we can do that.. has a sudden future become clear that included he and I? He even made reference that I could fill once side of the closet with all my stuff.. as he was beaming with excitement. Im not really sure about this though.. I mean.. some people do better when they can go to the opposite ends of the polar earth. Cool down zones.. and he still has a ME complex though he would cite me to be of that issue.. He has to be way more considerate... i mean think about me for once. Not that he dosent.. just not in the capacity that I need him to.. that he should. I should not have to think about both me and him.... it should go like this.. if i know he needs something I get it.. if he knows or thinks that I need something he gets it. Its about completing the missing piece of the puzzle..

for example.. on friday.. walking from the car.. he left his cell phone... i knew hed need his cell phone so i grabbed it..

he took 6 steps away from the car.. turned back.. and in that instant i handed him his cell phone..� puzzle complete.

thats what i mean.. there to back eachtother.

hi it's quiet some time since i have been on here so this is what has been going on.my son had his op and has been off school for three months he is now well enough to return to school.the council have started to modernise the house i have a brand new kitchen and bathroom at long last they knocked down my bathroom wall so the only privercey you had was a dust sheet hung where the wall once was we had no bath or shower for 4 weeks so had to go to my mothers house every day for a wash it's now six weeks on and i'm still waiting for them to fit the new fire my house looks like it's been hit by a bomb and i cant wait till it's all done and re-decorated� ah well life could be worse so thats my lot for today bye

I strongly believe that before I start looking for "the one", I need to figure out what I want in a man. I want a guy that finds it sexy when I spit out random sports facts. A guy that thinks of me more that just one of the guys. Someone who will take care of me and will be my rock. A guy who is strong and only shows his emotions when necessary. He must be tall and won't mind that my hands sweat when I am nervous. A guy that will spend all day outside with our children, even when he is tried from a long day at work. Someone who thinks I am perfect just the way I am now. A man who can laugh with me when I am in a giggly mood & can sympathize with me when I am down. A man who will love me unconditionally, no matter what.

Hopefully you are out there somewhere. I will wait as long as it takes....

Umm...I can't get over my ex. It has been almost a year. wow. That's so odd to say. Just a few more months and im right back to the day when I found his journal from SA. I'm still so broken up over him...and I miss him so much. But I don't want to be with him. Not yet. One day, though. Because I do love the boy...despite his shortcomings. I hate feeling this way...and I was doing so well!!!

This weekend I had my friend over and thinking that I wouldn't feel like shit and still I do. This really sucks and I don't know how to get me out of this mess. My heart breaks more and more. I cut my wriste to help with some of the pain that is my heart because I admitte it I fucked up. Everything is my fault I try being nice and calem and it just back fires in my face. I want Joshua Noel Martinez from Yonkers, New York. I just want him I don't care how I get him. I can change for him anything I have to do.

I will even kill myself if he doesn't come back since I am about 7 months with his kid and he know.