ok.....� so it hit me that there was something else i need to get out today.....so i had this "friend"....� and i thought that she was a normal, wonderful girlfriend.� She has breast cancer.� we went through a couple of scares since i have known her but she has been very blessed and has been healed of all the inoperable issues that she was told she had.� My kids were friends with her kids before we were friends.� our daughters were best friends and my daughter would spend days at their house. even after her son and my daughter became bf/gf, i trusted her enough to still allow my daughter to spend the night there.� her family and my girls all went to the same church.� that is how they met.� due to circumstances unknown to me, she decides that its in her families best interest to change churches.� she lets me know that they are changing and that in her opinion i shouldn't let my kids go to that church any more either.� that she would be happy to pick them up and drop them off if they wanted to go to her new church.� i told her that i didn't have any problem with them going to church with her if that's what they wanted.� so one night she decides that she's going to take them to church with her.� only they have already been dropped off and their church.� because of our previous conversation, she comes to the conclusion that it will be ok for her to go to their church and pick them up.� which she does and in the process causes a huge scene.� but she didn't take all my kids and she didn't just take the one that is friends with her daughter.�� she takes the one that's friends with her daughter and my youngest.� who is still in a car seat.....� in a car that is not made to carry that many people and that does not have a car seat.....
ok� they are yelling at me to finish dinner.....�
to be continued.......
so to continue...� she was able to take my oldest and yougest from the church to her new church...� my oldest had no idea what was going on and only went with her because she was told that her dad told them to pick her up.� being this was the day before i was supposed to have surgery, she was afraid that something was wrong with me.� and she chose to take her baby sister with her because of the fact that she had her with her at church and thought she was doing the right thing keeping the little one with her.� but somehow in all this i have been played out to be the crazy bad guy.� she has deleted me from all her social networking sites and cut off our friendship.� so now this is a person that at one time i considered my friend but now would only refer to her as an acquaintance.
as far as friends go, after my surgery i had a surprise delivery of groceries and odds and ends from a mystery friend.� I had another couple of friends bring me ice cream and movies.� I had a visit from a friend today with a dp and necessities that we need.� These are friends.� the ones who at the very least post on�my facebook every couple of days checking on me.� I have learned from this that i have the best friends ever.� and that really i don't need anymore friends.� the ones i have a more than wonderful and love and care about me more than i probably deserve.� So i will live my life with the beautiful, wonderful, loving friends god has blessed me with and everyone else from now on will be acquaintances.�
She looked into his eyes,
time after time,
to now believe that she would never,
again,
See those eyes,
that always made her smile.
"So remember,
it's never Good-Bye;
Just see you in a while,"
he said as he spoke,
about the dead.
"Remember,
it's the smiles,
that mean so much more,
than tears.
Let God unsurpress all of your fears."
She smiled and bowed her head,
as her eyes turned red,
because of tears she's tasted,
knowing this time,
they weren't wasted.
KL
She woke up,
and turned off the alarm.
No blood,
is to flow from this arm.
She looked out the window,
cold and shallow,
She held her hands.
"When will you come back again?"
She asked as the stinging tears,
swelled behind her eyes.
she couldn't believe it.
You're gone for good this time.
Wow, I can't believe it! My first online journal entry. I've now been doing my food diary for 10 days! I can't believe how much I eat sometimes and at other times so little! I think I'm going to journal about my weight loss and one day, weight management. It's so exciting. Last time that I weight myself I was slightly over 170 lbs. But, of course, that's been a while. I know that I haven't flucuated though, much since last year.
On a different note, Pre-Calc is so difficult, my mark is 47%. I only need 56% though on the exam to pass. Then it's finished!! It's finally getting warm outside which of course is a welcome change!
At this rate, I think I will never babysit again!! It bothers me so much!!��I mean you can't honestly only need your babysitter for February and March every week and then be done with her and not need her till you feel really bad two years later!!��It actually makes me really sad because I love the boys so much and more time spent with them, the better. Oh, well! It's not like there's anything I can do about it!
I welcome your suggestions, comments and notes and would love to reply! Thanks.
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