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I am 25. Never had a boyfriend. Never been kissed.Never had sex.

All day long, I just soak myself in my own dream world.In reality. I feel miserable.

I have high self esteem I believe.But why, do I feel so empty inside right now?

I don't hang out with OTHER people, all I do is stay within my comfort zone of familiar friends and family.I ain't going to know any other new friends. My life is so lonely.

The only thing that occupies my thoughts are negative right now.How I missed Raj, how I hate Raj, how I hate myself, how I hate etc etc etc.

God pls help. I need a GREAT guy and find happiness in an intimate relationship!!

Raj, I miss you so badly. My world is still stuck in the year 2008. How can I ever move on ? I am so scard. I am so scard like shit that you will leave one day.

I have not seen you for so long.I need my pride, so badly,and this is the only way for me to do it. Yet now six weeks have passed, and I feel like seeing you again. These six weeks have seemed eternal to me,isn't it?

I can imagine, maybe a year from now, you could be a father of someone's else child.You could be the husband of someone else. What aBOUT ME??�DO YOU EVER THINK OF ME? DO YOU EVEN MISS ME?

Have you totally left me?�I still think about those early days when we first met.You would do silly things to gain my attention, you were so sweet back then.Why didn't u continue and follow your hearT?�Raj, I need you.

please, call me. i ask for god to unite us. pls.

Again, same day, two years later, reunion.

This is going to be a fucking blast.

$32

This has been a busy week attending the sweet little daughter's events. She is graduating from High School soon and I am sad. Fortunately, she is turning out surprisingly well and may soon become an asset. She has recently acquired a job and even though she will not have a high salary, I can charge her room and board. If I take a percentage of her take home pay, I will have an extra $3.45 to squander.

The good thing about "extra" income is that it can be used multiple times. If I see a little trinket that I must have I can say "Well, I have that extra $3.45 to spend, so I can treat myself." I can use that same reasoning when it comes to dining out and running up my credit card and making frivolous purchases on e-bay. So you see, $3.45 really does go a long way!

Oooh I�just noticed today's thought provoking question "Where are you not demonstrating integrity to yourself" Hmmmph, that is none of my business. My lack of integrity is safely protected from my conciousness by my subconcious if it is doing it's job correctly.

i dont get that question

im at school so i cant really write anything right now but i will later

buh-bye!

Dear you,

where's home,

am i safe from harm,

locked away in your arms?

Dear you,

am I missed?

Where's my heart?

Oh, wait, that's right,

you threw bricks,

at it.

Dear you,

why am I not enough for you?

Why do I hurt the way i do?

Why am I upset?

O please,

don't give me that.

Dear you,

always thought that I was safe in your arms,

now every time I think of you,

I'm ready to vomit.

because of what you did to me.

so,

dear you,

enoughs enough.

I'm done.

and good luck,

because you jsut let go of the best thing u ever had!!!!!!!