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I was waiting,

by the phone,

today,

waiting by to hear your voice.

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the phone did ring,

now i have no choice,

because she said,

"He did last night, just like you said, by 3:03 am,

he was dead."

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Now I'll hold tight to,

the memories,

that you will no longer be here to make with me.

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I got up today,

dressed in what I wore yesterday.

Tears pooring down my face.

I opened the blinded today,

and did not see the blue sky,

only gray.

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I went to your house today,

and it felt so empty,

and it was o so painful.

I packed up,

what you left to me,

and went on my way.

asking God,"�Why today?"

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We went and we burried you,

today.

And yes Grandpa Apple Jack Kunkle,

It rained today...

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IN MEMEORY OF

JACK EARL KUNKLE

October 18,1937 - May 10, 2007

I realize she has problems and I do too but I'm still very hurt I can't eleive she was crying cause of the jaw breaker dust on her pants she just said that to cover up that she is upset he is their and I am sick of this I thought we would both be the same but I'm all the sudden playing 2nd fiddle

but at least I got out of school early for the dentist my teeth are so clean feeling but I've got to floss more I really dont want to get a cavity he said it might just be a shadow on the X-Ray

dear reader,

im currently have sent one of my poems to a free poetry contest. please tell me on a scale from one to ten, ten being the best one ever, if the peom "love and sorrow" is acceptable. thanks.

KL

so far I've run three miles and walked up hill for 30 minutes. machine said I burned 500 calories. I was going to go to boxing, the easy girl workout, but it was closed today. I guess I'll try to due 40 min eliptical in the basement while I watch biggest loser. My calorie count is at 990 and I'm made a great healthy cinco de mayo dinner with edamamin guac and chicken quesodias, I've even got a low cal pomaganit margarita, hope it all turns out good and I don't eat too much.

im at� school again but its lunch period. today has been good so far and i hope it stays that way. my weekend was kind of weird but alot of fun. i got sunburnt but now its turning into a tan. yay!! ive been pale for to long

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You cant see the pain behind the mask,

As she takes another sip from that piousness flask...

All she wants to do is cry,

But the time has come to say goodbye...

As she runs in her sodden night gown,

Waiting for the pain to die down...

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She stood alone underneath those frothy willows,

As she watched him dissapear into the shadows...

Some people say she died of a swollen heart,

As they watched her fall apart...

-Sportygirl15

I saw him again! The elf that lives in my room and follows me all the time!! I'm so happy.

Here's how�it happened�went:

� I was staying up really late working on a Psychology Journal Review for Barbara, my college professor. Every one was asleep, and the only noise I could her was the ticking of the clocks and my typing. I was getting into my second to last paragraph when I felt movement behind me. Startled, I turn around quickly ( I do my work on my bed) and I almost fall when I felt a pair of soft, feminine-like hands stealthilly grip my arms and pull me back onto my bed. " Are you alright?" , asked the stranger. Immediately, I recognized that deep, silky voice. I turned around and, sure enough, it was my elf that was there. I was so overjoyed, that I basically had to hold myself back from hugging him. I guess he read my mind because he smiled at me, leaned in, and kissed my forehead. I hated myself for letting him do that because my face gets hot and pink every time I'm with a boy. But, I couldn't let that get to me because I finally got to see him again. I asked him why did he pick now of all times to come and visit. He said that he would have visited me everyday but I was always busy, and he didn't want his brother getting suspicious and following him. And he told me that he wanted some alone time with me to talk for a while. So we talked endlessly about our lives and stuff like that. He seems to have such a nice family. I wish I could meet them all.

At my Bffs yeah!

no one is here she went to go get her sister from school.

*sigh*� lonesome sould have went with her oh well� I need to start writeing more it feels better when I get it all out and you don't ignore me.

This upcomeing exam is so stressfull man I kinda wish I never sighned up for it but its colledge credits thats good.

it just adds to my stress. God i forgot about her cats

i think maybe I should work on getting� Boyfriend soon I mean i am getting lonelyer now that like all of my friends are paired up...

and their are a few boy who are kinda cute at school my as well before we never see each other again

may be its the end of school that depresses me so much I need a distraction, someone besides the computer who will listen to me... my friends have proved they won't listen to me all they see is their problems and expect me to see only that as well

their are noone in my classes and i wish i had more friends in them i dont like sitting alone man I'm glad i skiped AVID today it woud have been bruteal like Chem was...I dont feel like anyone cares for me really cause they want to but because they have to I know this is kinda pathetic but Ireally don't see what others see in me whats so special about me� like the ubushi(fruits basket) on your back i guess...

I thought maybe shoping would make me feel better but i guess that was only temparary i was thinkin maybe ill go to TRU next year� cause their oviously isn't anything here for me but this lonleyness and ill make new friends ... i need that less needy ones

I've fallen into my own personal prison

Drowning in that midnight ocean

Locked away deep inside

Waiting for the pain to subside

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����������������������������������������������������������� And then maybe�I�wont feel�so blue

�����������������������������������������������������������Only if I could find the right path

���������������������������������������������������������� And escape your wretched wrath

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I�never ment to let you down

When I�took my last breath at sundown

You'll regret it once Im gone

Dissapearing like that� mysterious fawn

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������������������������������������������������You dont know what its like to be forgotten

�����������������������������������������������������������You dont know what its like to be hated

����������������������������������������������������You dont know what it feels like to be�numb

Because you dont know....