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It is now 2:10 am in Burien Washington and i'm totally bored.... so after the whole episode with my mom, everything turned out a lot better than i hoped. she woke all excited and wanted to go the mall... thats about the greatest reaction to tears i have ever seen lol... although, i still feel guilty for it

Well thats the good news. the bad news is i feel like crap. theres those times where girls feel ugly, fat, and their self confidence just goes down the toilet. I dont know if its that time of the month (excuse me boys) and i dont know if every girl feels like that every now and then but thats the way i feel.

Now i've been spending the week with my nieces Jenina and Jazzy. they're my cousins kids who were taken from him and his wife for certain reasons that i dont like to talk about much. but lets just say theyve never had a stable home. I just love having them over though. theyre amazed at almost everything our family does. It almost makes me feel a little too fortunate. i wish we could adopt them. but im not sure thats ever coming true.

I've also been thinking about my ex a lot more than i should or like to. i just want to smack him out of my head if it were possible. but if i wasnt mistaken, hes thinking about me too. i actually hope it tortures him! well... never mind. i should never wish for pain on someone. well anyway.... it is now 2:20 and i think i should head to bed.... good night everyone... and God Bless

The below is NOT my own blog writing. However, this is EXACTLY, EXACTLY what my heart says to God. This is so amazing. So beautifully written. I have to honestly mention the way I came about this blog writing: A lady was murdered near Gwinnett Place Mall over the weekend. She stepped outside of her car to pickup her daughter from work at Red Lobster. She was shot multiple times and died at the hospital. I was just reading her story on AJC.com which gave a link to her Myspace page. She had just written this blog on Friday, July 11, 2008. Her life was snuffed out one week later on Friday, July 18, 2008. I would presume from this writing that she was optimistically anticipating, prayerfully and patiently waiting for LOVE. She may have never received her heart's desire on earth. However, I know she's experiencing love beyond compare with the Father and His son Jesus, in heaven.  Enjoy eternal life MS. GENAI COLEMAN and thank you for sharing your heart. It echos mine.

A Man From God----

I asked God to send into my life, at His appointed time, a man: A man who fears God more than any man or any thing;a real man who knows how to pray and leads his family in prayer, devotion, and study concerning the word of God; a man who is intellectual and full of wisdom-both naturally and spiritually; a man who is passionate about the things of God, longing to follow after Him and to demonstrate His love toward mankind; a man whose ministry allows for my gifts and anointing to work beside his; a man who loves to make love and in so doing, understands that this pinnacle of pleasure comes from unselfishly desiring to please the other person more than self; satisfying to the fullest every sexual desire in the beauty of the essence in which it was designed to fulfill; a man with whom I am totally comfortable-especially physically; a man who is clean-cut and knows how to dress to impress; a man who takes care of his outer being, which is evident from his very nice physique, while never neglecting the inner health of his body by being willing to eat a healthy diet; a man who totally understands and loves me for everything that I am, not wishing he had anything more or less, just me; a man who senses mood and atmosphere and adjusts accordingly; a man who will be my greatest earthly joy because I am his; a man who adores me in every way and calls me his queen, as I, without hesitation, because he is all that I have ever desired and more, call him my lord. He already holds a special place in my heart and will find me through the heart of God because that's where I'm hidden, and only he, who is close to the heart of the Father, can find the treasure

that's awaiting there!

Quote of the day "The mother of excess is not joy but joylessness." - Friedrich Nietzsche Universe entry of the day The funny thing, Ed, is that in spite of the euphoria one feels upon entering paradise, cloaked in miracles, surrounded by angels, love, and unimaginable beauty, it gradually becomes all they know, commonplace, ordinary, and then, shockingly... invisible. Yep, I'm talking about life on earth. Yippee Kai-Ye, -The Universe- Journal entry of the day Love, love, love, da-da-da, love, love, love, etc., etc. Famous and great song. The longer I ponder it the more I relize and believe that the root of God and all things good is love. God is love is a Christian concept and the only religion on the planet to make this proclamation. Dr. Wayne Dyer quoted someone who said, "The only difference between good and God is "o" or nothing. There is no difference. We are all capable of God like qualities if we share love.

I am very grateful for a sound mind and the ability to discern harmful people and situations.

yeah. Sorry im tried I will write 2morrow. bye

Ugh! I am madly in love with a boy who has a girlfriend. He is soooooo cute! I think he knows I like him. Anyway I am on summer vacation! WAHOO! I an totally out of the USA! I really want to make good friends on here so I accept all friend requests!

LOL and madly in love

ALeks 4eva