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�Tell the truth, who are your�family and who are the people you are close to. who is gunna be there and help you get through. give you a light when you lost yours and just dont have a clue.�The answer is nothing really means shit, your family is the people you choose to be with , and love even if for only for a minute. A message after a half decade can possibly be a start. try and find the ones you were trained to stay apart... from, and in the end youll see that words like family and friends really have no inbetween, It all just depends on if you wanna play and whos game. But keep your mind open, and never let it be taimed, youll find your so called family is�like a fire in the rain!

Well how can I say this, guess it's no easy way to put it. I kissed Mia, again. Except it was more intense...in the bathroom, the bathroom stall, at school, 5th prd. We were both out of place but I dont think neither of us cared. I dont know why, what, how but I know it happened. It was so fast, so weird but it was so, so real! OMG I cant believe myself I really hate this girl, well not now maybe, but I do! She slept with my girlfriend, this bitch is the enemy..has been for 4 years now..Aint no way I could possibly like her. We fought twice, she beat my ass twice! DAMNIT! I hate this bitch!!! She is so the enemy but whoa did she really have me hooked. Not the bathroom session but her sweetness && niceness that came after it. I dont know what to do, let me go think about this, it's such a mess. I have to think about Pig, am I gonna tell her, No-yes! How will I, When will I...am I gonna tell her

0MG, g2g i'll keep u updated

Hello its the 2nd to last day of skool!!~~My classs is watching lords of the ring and im just on the computer typing this i guess?!?! antiways im bored just wanted to let you guys know!! Bye!!!!

I went to my favorite resturant/bar today for lunch which is a usual spot for me...the down side is it's a usual spot for Adrian too. I walked in and saw her today. This is the first time I've seen her in nearly two weeks. We were the only two people in the whole fucking place. As soon as I saw her I stopped (thought about turning and just leaving)but then Terri my fav bartender said "Hey Klenk, what's up?" So I greeted her but not Adrian and then sat behind her and not at the bar as I normally do. It was wierd.�Sat there for a few moments, ordered my food and then she did it: "Hey Klenk, what's up?" My heart sank. I wanted to spill my heart out and be like "I love you and am miserable without you. I want to spend eternity with you." But I didn't. I kept it short and not so sweet. She just got a "Hey" the I resumed drinking my cranberry vodka. She got the hint that I wasn't into�talking to her but I wasn't gonna let her ruin my steak and drinks. A few moments went by and I recieved a few texts and I don't think she could stand not having my attention. She turned and said: "Is your wireless working? Mine's not." Again, I wanted to say something sweet to make her smile or say something that only me and her would find funny. But I didn't. I didn't even look at her. I just said "Yep" and resumed eating.

I knew that if I gave in I'd be putty in her hands again. As much as I love her and want to be with her I just keep telling myself that she'll never change.

Damn,wtf people need to get over their shit and mind their own fucking buisness.This group of kids was pissing me off so I slapped the girl (sasha),and then she slapped me back,and her friends are mad and getting everybody else (strangers included)�invlolved because they can't face the music and fucking solve their own issues.DAMN.One of the girls (Andrea) told me she was going to get her older brother to come over to my house and beat me up,shoot me,idk because I called her a whore,lmaoooo.Well what do you think I'm gonna do?She wears friggin cameltoe hip-hugger jeans,jordans or heels,halters or�glittery ghetto text shirts that say a bunch of shit all over it.And sasha is just a little cock eyed bitch who doesn't know how to respect people.And her brother acts like he's high all the time.It may seem like I overreacted to the situation,but I've had too fucking much going on in my life and I was having a shitty day,and this little hoe just comes up to me on the bus showing me a picture of Whitney Houston or somthing and yelling out "HEY EVERYBODY LOOK IT'S CASSANDRA!!!".And she kept on going after I said to stop,so HELL YES I'm gonna slap her.Well,tomarow is going to be hell,but whatever,Sasha is ugly,masculine, and cockeyed and Andrea is HIDEOUS,she's got no personality,she is also cockeyed,and she smells like fish.

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