I had a good day. I've had a good few days of keeping myself busy and NOT dwelling on "poor me, I'm a poor widow who just broke up with her boyfriend and is NEVER going to find the RIGHT MAN!" Actually today I was busy,,, I did stuff around the house this morning and then I took the boys to Pam and Matts house,,, Matt watched them so they could play with TY and then Pam and I went spinning, at noon,with several other people,, pretty much a class! It was a Great workout... THEN I orgranized a movie night with the church girls... we saw PS. I LOVE YOU and it was pretty sad and sort of hard to watch,,, makes me wish I would have found a note from DWB! and while I was watching it, it made me sort of want CN back but now that I am home and thinking clearer I can know that was just my crazy emotions being drug around by the movie! BUT, I sure enjoyed the popcorn and MandM's that I starved for all day today!
THEN we went to Applebees for a drink! (didn't have the points left for that but oh well!) That was great, just chatting, Stacey T and I had a few quick heart to hearts in the car, to and from,,, she's a good friend. I just wish she had more time to enjoy life,,, she needs to learn how to slow down but I was just so glad she was able to come out with us tonight and it was nice Shaylee could watch the boys! LOVE EM!
When i woke up this morning, I called PP to make any appointment. Monday @ 2pm. The sooner the better, definitely!!
Steven came to pick me up around 5ish and of course leave it to my mom to embarass me... she's crazy, but i guess thats where i get it from! We went to Oggi's to watch the football game and enjoy eachother's company. We had a good time even tho jacksonville totally fucking lost. damn new england..
We sat next to eachother, cuz i said i didnt want to sit across from eachother, and he thought that was totally cute!! I wanted to be close to him, not with some table in between us. Oggi's has a bomb Hefeweizen!!! It was good, got me tipsy! He kept telling me that i was absolutely beautiful.. it was so sweet. I absolutely love looking into his eyes.When we left, we totally made out in his car for a while. We were just enjoying eachother. When he dropped me off, we made out some more. i just really wanted to keep kissing him forever ... feeling his body next to mine, his hands thru my hair.. mine thru his.. it just all felt so fucking good... i havent felt this way in such a long time.
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The purpose of this journal is to document the progress of Group 23 throughout the Spring 2008 semester of Pharmacoeconomics. Please feel free to update it whenever you want to!
Haven't talked to CN in a few days now, since he was sick, other than a few texts just to let eachother know the other was okay... I was glad to know he made it home from Montana. He says he misses and loves me... I do miss him too, some!
I had Tom over for supper, then we went to his parents house for his brother's birthday cake. The boys had a blast running around their 13,000 sq. ft. home!
I think the stupid scale at the rec. says 124, THat is good but I need to be down about 6 more pounds to notice pants fitting better. I am hungry still lots but I am trying to just learn to enjoy the hungry pains! I want this pretty bad! I am working pretty hard at the eating and the working out part too! I've really been pushing myself in the gym! I will go spin with Pam tomorrow (Sat).
OH, something weird,,, I am spotting 5 days before I am expecting aunt flow! THat makes me wonder what's up and pisses me off! THat's why I am on the pill, to be regular! I better not be pregnant!
Okay I better get to bed!
年龄错位症
最近, 我把博克集成两本书, 发送给朋友们, 做他们节日阅读消遣. 之后我接到很多电话, 大家不太费劲地喜欢上了我的小文章. 我把前言翻成英文, 至少让不懂英文的朋友们知道个大概. 没想到竟有两个大教授对我的用词有非议, 他们觉得我不该用 '老妈' 这个词来称呼自己. 应该改成'母亲'或者'妈妈'. 原因有二: 第一, 你并不老; 第二, 中国孩子管母亲叫 '老妈' 显然是不敬.
我得尊重我的老外读者群, 改过文字之后，我不得不向他们解释这个有点意思的'文化差异', 在中国， '老妈' 是大一点的孩子对自己母亲的 '昵称' , 敦敦从去年开始叫我'老妈'或者 'my dear old mom' , 这并不带表他不敬，只是他自己认为他不仅是我的儿子还想成为我的朋友。我非常喜欢孩子叫我'老妈' 。这并不代表我真觉得我自己老，而是意味着我的孩子跟我很亲近。
话又说回来，中国女人，对讲出真实的年龄并不十分地忌讳，有孩子的女人一般都很坦然，当我们看着自己的孩子一天天长大就无法否认我们在生产的那一瞬间完成了从姑娘到母亲的蜕变。等女儿生了孩子，女人就变成'姥姥'，就是对老女人最亲切的称呼了，一个'女'字，加一个'老'字，字面上再明白不过了。老外就比较虚伪，parents （父母） 前面加个 grand (大，重要），显然不如中国人实在，老就是老嘛，承认也就没负担了。
我了解，西方国家的人是不敢在女人面前提'老' 字的，孩子说母亲'老'那更加万万不能。实际上人一生下来就在变老，这是个铁的生物学事实，但是有些人不愿意承认这个事实，用心理和视觉错觉来麻痹自己和别人，所以我们经常看到很多40岁上下的'青年'艺术家。如今活到80岁不稀奇了。但我们搞统计的人都知道，40是80的中位数，40 岁以上的人，可自己装着个18岁的心，但挖空心思外表装嫩就大可不必了。
刘德华在当爹的年龄上还被人叫做'华仔'听起来就不那么自然和轻松。实际上华仔倒是应该大方地承认自己是仔仔的爹了，小粉丝们并不会有多失落，反而会更喜欢他，可惜这天皇巨星，不够自信，面对不了那份承认长大的失落。
我刚上大学时还未满十六岁，在班上是小的，班上最大的同学是32岁，同学们都宠着我，把我当小孩，我自己就觉得自己很小，这个经历造成了我一生的年龄 '错位' ，我在毕业后刚开始教书的几年里，跟很多老三届或差过队的毕业生做同事，待人处事方面我明显地嫩，我也总觉得别人不会跟自己一般见识，说话做事都不会太在意后果。多年来，我就是凭着这样的傻妹妹心态为自己创造了很多机会。
这'年龄错位症'让我的心理在青春期里晃了三十年，值得庆幸的是，在4年前的一天，在不经意中我的毛病得到了彻底的纠正，办公室里来了个中大的毕业班实习生，我们聊着聊着，她告诉我，' 许老师，您跟我母亲是一样的年龄'。我恍然意识到，我是眼前这充满青春气息的小姑娘的长辈。我还真得谢谢这个同学，是她让我从此跳出了青春期心态，踏踏实实地长大了。
The time has finally come.. tomorrow is FINALLY friday. I've been waiting for this day all week long. I get to finally see steven.. Is it weird that I'm feeling this way? It's like a school girl crush but yet.. I just so want to be with him and am looking forward to it.
I found out that he's going out of town next weekend so since i was already planning on it, but now i can definitely do it- i am soooo going to vegas! Its gonna be my mini vay-cay before i start school on the 22nd. Spend some time with my missy.. Things are going so good for her right now, i'm stoked for her. Envious.. lucky bitch haha
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cancermoonchild 45, Female, California, USA - 32 entries
