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There we go, I've suspended it until December 31st 2010. I'm aparantly gonna be away for that long but not really. I'm awesome.

i belive the bible and in times of trouble i want to follow it im asking for the publics help to pray for candice d who has� given up her faith and turned atheist,for jim riley who just had heart surgry and for myself that god will make me strong and fotify me in his word, i thank god for anyone who is willing to pray for me about these situations� i am a firm believer in the miriacles of jesus christ and what he does im a firm believer that if taken to him properly jesus christ will answer these requests� pleas pray for me sincerly� cindy dublin

This computer is pissing me off. I had almost this whole damn thing typed out and the internet connection dropped!� This journal entry won't be as long the second time.

I got my blood work done today. They got me on the second stick.� I weighed myself at publix again and i lost a few more pounds...yeah....

My blood sugar has been low today again. I am taking less insulin. It's� weird how now for two days my sugars are low. I am waiting for the spike.

I got�a nap today but then wanda had to get here and make so much noise that she woke me up and pissed me off at the same time.� Well, I can't think of anything I want to type. I am annoyed the internet keeps dropping. I got the wireless modem...I will just have to try and install it tomorrow.� Ok...good night. I tried to dye my eyebrows tonight to make them darker since they are blond...and I look funny.� Great! lol....

Guess who's ba-ack!

I had a very interesting conversation with my mother yesterday. She informed me and my brothers that if, by the age of 21, we did not drink, do drugs, smoke, or engage in risky or illegal activities, she would reward us with a large sum of money. I know that is a kind of�maybe not-morally-acceptable way to deal with problems like drinking or drugs, but it's guaranteed to work if it's my brothers we're talking about here. I'm great with it. I know for sure I'm not going to do anything stupid anyway. I mean, take a look at me. I hate hate hate and DESPISE the taste of alcohol (so that's out), I'm afraid of needles, I cannot swallow pills, I choke whenever I smell smoke of any kind, the idea of snorting ANYTHING repulses me (so there goes smoking and drugs), I'm not ready for a boyfriend (risky activites is out) and what on earth would I do else? I generally...�usually... essentially follow the core of rules set. I don't want to get involved in illegal things. That leads to trouble and time away from reading.

Seriously, if someone offered me a lot of money to do something illegal, even if it was�a situation I was ok with, or a cause that I believed�in�(I have zero examples for something that falls into those two categories.... hmm....) I would not do it if it meant that I would miss, for example, the Breaking Dawn party. Never. Which is pathetic, but it would help keep me on the straight and narrow ; ).

Another thing. I had a loong conversation with Charlotte about true�love (see?! This is what happens when cynics read Twilight. Or rather, one cynic... me.). She�has been trying�to convince me there's such thing as true love for everyone. It's not necessarily that I don't believe in true love, it's that I think that I don't think it exists for me. Wait--this sounds familiar. Have I whined about this before? I do believe so. Well, what it boils down to is that Charlotte and I disagree about the availability of true love to everyone. The end.

Song recommendation of the day: I'll Keep Your Memory Vague, by Finger Eleven.��It's so sad, but really pretty.

I'm going to stop here, because I have to go to swim team. Hooray. This sucks.

~Annabel

OK it's Friday. Wanda got dressed up and went out and it's almost 11pm and she's not back yet. With her b/f...again, she needs to get the hell out of my father's house. She uses the truck and doesn't put gas in it...but when I mentioned we need to put gas in it if we barrow it...she said she put gas in it...Yeah right! Did it just evaperate??? Give me a freaken break!� I wasn't born yesterday!

It's been thudering out and I am not sure if we will actually get a storm or not...I got a new wireless internet modem...but need to put it together tomorrow. Hopefully it will work.

I woke up low this morn. I needed to drink oj. I was suppose to go and get my blood work but I needed to be fasting--so I had to re-schedule for tomorrow morn. I couldn't chance not fasting for the one blood test that will show which diabetic type I am.

I was sick again most of the day. I didn't take any insulin at lunch and had to have more oj. I went to sleep till around 3:30pm then got up and went to best buy to by the wireless modem. I went to starbucks and to my sugar free/fat free drink and got by eyebrowns waxed. then I went to the gocery store and then back to dads. I watched a movie and then some tv. I am tired and my stomach hurts a little but not as bad as it was today.

Nothing else I can think of typing. I need to get a new picture of me and send off to my grandma to show her my weight loss.� Oh well, another day tomorrow.

Well no one responded to my other entry, but what ever, I don't really care. It is finally summer and it is so exciting. June and July is filled up but August is completely empty. My dog tore his acl AGAIN, but this time it was the other leg. He has to get another expensive surgery, less money for college!

It's funny how people come into your life. I think we meet for a reason. I try to see and realize the value in people.

Everyone has a purpose in this life, if we meet then I become a part of that.

I met Evelyn almost 3 years ago. She was new to Petaluma and had called the public service organization I had just become a volunteer for.

She needed a variety of resourses and thought that I'd be of use to her. I was introduced to her as someone that would come visit her on a regular basis.

So we started out that way, I'd come see her every Thursday afternoon and we'd talk, get to know each other. She'd usually ask me to take her to the store or some kind of errand.

At 90+ years old Evelyn finds herself in a an unfamiliar�vulnerable position. In her younger years she'd always relied on herself, disliked having to depend on anyone. She'd married as a young woman but as she told me, she had "no use for a man telling her what to do". Today�she finds herself�alone, she's bought a home in a town she's not familiar with and at times her body sabotages her efforts to move through her day. She gets frustrated easily. Like a child she's not able to�control her anger. She'll raise her voice, once she even raised her hand to me. I've had to talk to her (when she's calmer of course) about that type of response to me and that I wouldn't tolerate anything less than respect towards me, while she agrees I think she's just an old gal that's done things a certain way and that's that. I don't believe she means me harm.

There's been times when I feel I'm a bother to her, and times when I think she appreciates me, lately, I'm in her favor. Our visits are pleasant and I find myself thinking fondly of her.

Yesterday she wanted to cancel our visit because she needed to take her quilt to a laundrymat at the time I usually come see her. I reminded her that I wouldn't be able to come for the next couple weeks so perhaps if she'd be up to it I could come later in the day. She sounded open and even a bit happy about that.

So I did see Evelyn, she had me trim her nails on her right hand, help her retrieve a message off her answering machine, put the tarp back on her car (which btw I can't imagine how she does this by herself!). Then just as we were saying goodbye on her porch she realized that she had locked herself out of the house! Don't panic, there's�a hide-a-key hidden on the porch, so as I reached under the railing for the box all I found was a magnet - no box, no key! Still she's cool, I on the otherhand wondered where this was going and when I'd be on my way, back to the chores of my day. But in a flash I managed to find the box, it had fallen between the garden rocks below and was covered by leaves.

It's always an adventure with her, I hope to know her for a good long time. I hope I'm of�more use than bother to her.�

-- Due to the power failure yesterday, I came into the office this morning.� Been doing cleanup in various environments.� PFF dev is fucko.

-- Exchanging laptop today at 1:30.� Appt.�with Bukket!

-- PAM/LDAP MUST be implemented next week in NON PROD per Skipper.

-- Call Chez when you're out of the office to go to happy hour.

1:45 - Looked at pffdev.� Remembered that I brought up the apps before the db on centaur was 100%.� (Corrupt disk, needed to find replicant state db's to rebuild from.)� Once I shut down the app on petrel & restarted it, everything was fine.

-- Talked with Matt T. regarding the date issue.� We're going to address it with SS on Monday.� He needs to take java coding lessons or something.

2:30 - Discussed PAM/LDAP with Hooper and the crew.� We're going to do dev Guinea Pig systems on Monday.� Tues & Wed are devoted to SAN work onsite.� Thursday is reserved for work on/setup of LDAP/PAM in all of QA provided the Dev test on Monday works well.

-- Exchanged Laptop.� Bukket gave me a backpack with wheels for this sucker, it's HUGE.�

-- Mr T. is going to get me Becky's address so I can send a card.

-- Talked with Stewie Griffin about various items of business around the env.� He's all hands and ready to go.� Wants me to change his nickname from Stewie Griffin to something more appropraiate like, Chops.� Because we're always busting them.

- Chez cut out around 12:30.� I was hoping she'd hang around till 4ish, but I guess she's ready to get her vacation started.� I don't blame her one bit.� Planning on calling her around 3ish & hooking up around 4 maybe for a drink.

09:30 - Been up and at it a while.� downgraded libaio on delphi for Pooh.� Had to go pull it off of telstar manually because it wouldn't up2date even though I specified the exact package.� Weird.

-- Talked with Grandpa Simpson regarding the DMX2->DMX3 move next week.� Grandpa is out for the week so Slick and I have to be onsite to experiment with a 2.5 and a 3.01 ESX conversion.� They also want us to test a physical boot from san Linux box so Gpa volunteered one of the NSint machines.

-- Matt T. wanted to discuss the date format issue on PFF dev.� Explained my reservations about that to him again, but he wants an email for the record.� Get that out today.

9:50 - Pooh says no luck.

9:55 - Accepted invites to Margie's work next Tues & Wed.� I'll have to duck out at 11 on Tuesday for lunch with our CIO.

�1:07 - Fixed the zodiac server accts for Brett.�

2:20 - P3 datacenter lost power.� We are proceeding with Emergency shutdown.