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    darkraven  51, Female, United Kingdom - 7 entries
18
Jul 2008
6:17 AM GMT
   

Tired

So, I have been up all night.� Again.� I really should be going to bed more.� I live with the most wonderful man, that I love more than I know how to say.� Yet, most nights he goes to bed alone, and I stay up.

I could go to bed now, but I know I'll just disturb his sleep.� So I postpone. I'll wait until it's nearly time for his alarm, then I'll go and cuddle him - and then I'll finally fall asleep.

In a way, it's better this way.� I know he sleeps better when I'm not tossing and turning and fidgeting next to him.� And I sleep when I would otherwise be on my own here.� And then we get the evening together.� So, it's not all bad.� It's probably for the best.

Except, that isn't the reason I don't go to bed with him.� I stay up because I'm terrified of going to bed, and trying to sleep in the dark, and having nightmare after nightmare, and lying awake in the dark full of anxiety I can't dispell.

So tired.� So very damn tired.

If only being tired was enough to enable me to sleep.

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    tusiva95  30, Female, Indiana, USA - First entry!
18
Jul 2008
11:51 AM EDT
   

First entry!!

Ugh! I am madly in love with a boy who has a girlfriend. He is soooooo cute! I think he knows I like him. Anyway I am on summer vacation! WAHOO! I an totally out of the USA! I really want to make good friends on here so I accept all friend requests!

LOL and madly in love

ALeks 4eva

1 comment(s) - 02:48 PM - 08/09/2008
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    mommasbrat96  31, Female, Illinois, USA - 2 entries
18
Jul 2008
1:48 AM A
   

i hurt my ankle

i hurt my ankle
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    coraline  55, Female, Arizona, USA - 59 entries
17
Jul 2008
2:35 AM PDT
   

Thursday 7/17/2008

Today is someone's birthday and I can't remember who it is.� Happy Birthday whomever you are.

- More problems with LDAP in portal dev, but they should be fixed at this point.� The problem only appears on RHEL3/u9 boxes that use Winbind for SAMBA mounts _and_ authentication for users against LDAP/AD.� Turned out to be userID numbers.� Hoops wrote it up and dropped it onto the wally share.

- Back and forth on the date format issue again.� Explained to everyone my understanding of the LC_TIME flag in locale.

locale -c LC_TIME shows how the LC_TIME settings were compiled using localedef for the specific locale. (In my case en_US)�

If you set a variable LC_TIME in /etc/profile, you set it to something like LC_TIME='dutch' or LC_TIME='en_US', or LC_TIME='en_UK',

then whatever program is calling the LC_TIME variable to find out how to format something, it goes out to /usr/lib/locale/en_US/LC_TIME and reads the formatting orders.� But that affects the entire system.

12:00 - Talked with a couple of friends and organized a jailbreak for Saturday.� We're going to go north of Flagstaff and hike a few miles around some extinct volcanos.

- Mon-Chi-Chi still has 'turnstone' on a list someplace even though it was decomm months ago.� Informed him as such.

- back and forth with Pooh over Delphi phys and Oracle.� Looks like my simplest solution is to rebuild the machine and then P-to-V it.

000 - Maintenance window tonight

-- Some MOTHERFUCKER shut down VDI while I was in the middle of working on giant,titan,pine.� Editing sd.conf and lpfc.conf to set up the new dmx3.� I almost fucking came _unglued_.� Called and talked with DC, he says there was a change ticket open and that's the proper notification.� Fine.� My solution?� I'M NOT FUCKING USING VDI ANYMORE.� If they can't send a shutdown warning prior to ripping the systems down, I'm done with it.

-- The same assclowns who took down VDI took down Dilbert too.� you BASTARDS.

-- Issues with the disk grow on the cluster.� More to the point, issues with the cluster.� All notes marked private.� After portal came back up, Pooh tells me the DB isn't open and I have to recycle it.� So I hagrp -offline the group and then bring it online again, everything worked fine.� Didn't even interrupt WAS, but probably because nobody was using it at the time.� Biker Babe was happy.

- DMX cutover was a fucking nightmare.� Mac and Margie worked on it while Chops kept interrupting and making everyone nuts.� I just tried to listen and learn.�

- Talked with Cartman and finally got him to admit that Grandpa Simpson is fucking incompetent.

- Talked with Slick ~midnight.� He'd gotten a few calls from The Thug.� Incredible.

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    Sep  47, Female, Canada - First entry!
16
Jul 2008
8:05 AM EDT
   

My nightmares

I really don’t know what I should do. I see nightmares almost every night. That is why I don’t feel good every morning. It does not matter if I had a good day or bad day. Last night I saw something terrible in my dream. Someone killed so many kids in front of me. The other night I saw, I was drawing in a river.
I wish I was like other people who sleep deeply and wake up fresh and happy.
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    janewisniewski  58, Female, North Carolina, USA - 54 entries
16
Jul 2008
6:56 PM EDT
   

July 10, 2008

I had a great time back in WI for the 4th of July weekend. Thank you everyone who came to dinner at Jud’s on Wednesday, it was great to see everyone. We had a super weekend up north at Braun’s Haven. The weather was great and I think a good time was had by all. My trip to and from Charlotte was pretty uneventful. Trying to leave the airport in Charlotte however was a different story. I knew when I left for WI that I was potentially going to have some problems as I totally forgot to check what parking lot I parked in at the airport. When I got on the shuttle bus to the parking lot the gentleman driving asked what lot I was in. I literally did not know what to tell him. I could tell by the look his face that he did not think this was a good situation. He started to ask me some questions to try and narrow down the area of the lot I might have parked in. He dropped me off in the area I “thought” I might be in. He said he was going to drop of the other lady on the shuttle and he would be back to help me. With suitcase in tow I started to walk the isle hitting the unlock button. By the grace of God I found my car after only 3 isles. I was incredible grateful for that. It could have turned out to be a very long night. When I was leaving the lot I asked if the parking attendant could radio the shuttle driver and tell him that the gray Chevy trailer blazer with Wisconsin plates had found her!!

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    coraline  55, Female, Arizona, USA - 59 entries
16
Jul 2008
3:42 AM PDT
   

Wednesday 7/16/2008

10:10 - First chance to update this morning.

-- Mandrake server has issues.� Have to reset the VM because I can't get logged in.� After it's back up, Biker Babe says the app won't start:

could not connect to demeter on port 27135
couldn't bind port 20080, 20081

found /var 100% on demeter.

-- Team meeting - discussing the DMX disaster

-- the E drive on ntqua02 is full, talked to Thug about it and he's trying to get the right people on it.� (it's a windows box, and I don't do windows)

-- IWS perf test for today - delayed - they want me to check out and chart Thyme LM 215 but I haven't got time.� Too many fires so I bailed on this today.

- Staph Meating healthcare stuff pissed me off.� Made some phone calls but nobody gives a damn.� feck it.

- Sitescope is yelling about mountpoints for WICK systems.� PM to Tequila to check it out.� Tell him to df -h then mount -a and it'll probably fix it.� He said it didn't change when he did it, so it was already mounted.� Dunno.� Told him that a good PR move would be to call CarrotCake and ask if the servers are working properly because we're seeing an error in monitoring.� She'll love that kind of attention.� He took my advice.�

(always heed suck-up advice boys and girls, customers both internal and external like to know that their highly paid engineers are paying attention to their needs.� It's good for the career.) ((and I can bet Tequila didn't open the conversation with "Coraline said there might be an issue with your servers..."� But I don't mind.))

3:30 - Went through DEV and straightend out the final LDAP issues.� Changed the DN's and put the sudoers file into place.� With the root password changed, users are accessing the systems via admin accounts.�

Got the OK to do SWT on Friday.� Hoppy is out in a training class but he'll VPN in tomorrow and stage the ED systems.� After 5pm on Friday (Dark Weekend anyway), I'm bouncing the SWT env and verifying connectivity.

- Working on setting up marriott and hilton

- Pooh Bear couldn't get into phys Delphi but I got the IP from Mr. T. and gave him a new password.� He can't find apps, but I think it's at hda13 which wasn't mounted.� The /u partitions are most likely mounted wrong, so I need him to look at what we have and just tell me which goes where so I can fix it for him.

- Mandrake has been fucko all day and reset multiple times.� I finally got some time to look at it and found webseal had run away and was bleeding the system to death.�

ps -ef|grep webseald|awk '{print $2}' |xargs kill -9

-- By the way, Becky is back to work.� She's doing w@h for this week but will have a presence in the office next.� Mr. T. never did give me her address so I'll have to make a trip in next week to give it to her personally.� Also want to get something for Chez, who got back from Vacation today.� (I'll probably give her a new laser pointer so she can play with Smalls.)

3:50 - Mr. T. took the DMX migration off of Slick's plate and mine.� PD2 and ESX Remediation are top priorities.� Margie is on her own, and if it breaks in half THEN it's ALL HANDS ON DECK.� I probably owe some thanks to Skipper.

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    coraline  55, Female, Arizona, USA - 59 entries
16
Jul 2008
2:04 AM PDT
   

Tuesday 7/15/2008

-- This is a recap note for yesterday and is post-dated

--� Morning started slow with a BTI meeting, but my afternoon schedule was quadruple booked.� I had :

- my '1-1 meeting' ; EMC Lunch; EMC Presentation ; PAM/LDAP Meeting ; Communications ; DMX Migration Test ; Blackbird ; and IWS R3 Perftest

all scheduled from 1pm - 5pm.� I knew there wasn't any way I was going to do all that from home so I packed up and left for the office at about 10:30 and arrived onsite at 11:35.�

-- Highlight notes:

- Communications issue with Fick.� He keeps getting prompted for authentication on Pan and Athena.� After looking at the problem I decided to do two things:

- Abandon the Redmond Washington authentication system completely.� It's old, it's outdated, and it's needed to be decommissioned for a while now.� From now on we're going to use Athens Georgia or Pittsburgh Pennsylvania, with a preference for Georgia.

- Re-arrange the nsswitch search order for authentication to: winbind ldap files

� After the changes were made and the perfunctory 10 minute propagation period, all was well.� Sent this info to Dustin in ST.

-- IWS Perf test showed Thyme LM 215 tank again.� I don't know what they expect, it's lab mangler and they're beating the piss out of it.� Wonky code made it start swapping even with 3gb of ram and I have to do charts and diagrams today if I can find time.

-- ROOT PASSWORD in Dev has been changed.�

-- DMX Migration test was a fucking nightmare.� Slick and I stayed until 7PM straightening it out.

� -� Hook up SAN to okoboji and change the HBA firmware, but on boot we get unable to load an aicXXXX driver and a kernel panic.� Slick has screenshots from Raritan.� We're going to talk with Thug, KennyB, and Otter to get clarification on the HBA documentation we have.� Then we're going to try the cut over again (the copy may have gotten fucko), and if all else fails, we're calling for Vendor support.

-- Kibbles N' Bits needs an admin ID.

-- Squirrelface doesn't know how to change user pw's on apollo.�

-- Grandpa Simpson totally fucked his workstation VM install by copying RHEL3 binaries to a RHEL5 system.� He's going to have to rebuild.

-- There is an issue with mail on Killian & Guiness in LM

To be continued.

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    gurlassasin  43, Female, Philippines - 4 entries
15
Jul 2008
8:56 PM EDT
   

Im Pissed

Im so much pissed on my office mates they make my day hell.... but im in the process of learnibng to accept what ever trials come my way
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    dia87  38, Female, Oregon, USA - 14 entries
15
Jul 2008
6:34 AM PDT
   

wow.....

ahhhh i just want someone who wants me of me....

1 comment(s) - 12:56 PM - 07/23/2008
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