I REMEMBER THINGS
i remember� the words...
i remember how it felt, how it hurt...
i remember the pain afterwards.....
i remember crying...
i remember hating myself...
i remember regreting...
i remember seeking for help, but couldn't say a thing...
ir remember almost everything....
but i want to forget EVERYTHING.
i want it to be nothing...
Im going crazy I haven't listened to my chemical romance in 24 hours I am literaly going to kill people if I dont get to soon�My friend justin is acting weird his girlfriend made it so me and him couldn't be friends now that they are broken up he wants to get together with me but I don't know how to tell him I have a boyfriend�I don't want to brake his hart
I'm really starting to annoy myself. My mind's always on him. I don't understand it. By now he probabaly, if anything, thinks I'm some creaper. I don't understand why I feel how I could like him oh so much. Is it due to the fact that he reminds me of those in my past? Or could it be just because of his qualitys? I mean hell, how can I even think I like him? I've never had the courage to even say a word to him. Oh gods, I'd love it if I did. Imagine how things might be? Oh gods, this is horrible. I've never regreted anything in my entire life so far. But I think I might be regreting, maybe hating the fact I don't have the guts to talk to him. It makes me feel so inferior. Sad thing is I know that if he'd talk to me first I wouldn't be having any problems with any of this.� I guess this all is the joy of being a teenager, in highschool, of all places. It makes me wish I could fast forward time all the way to at least my twentys. Just throw away my teenage years, please.
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dont yuu ever wish that yuu can change this world around, or yuu can start yuur life again.
i just want to move out of my house to start over, event though i would leave people i love, it would be harder if i was with them. i dont know what to do. should i or shouldnt?
~letters start with "ABC" numberts start with "123" music starts with "do-re-mi" and love starts with "yuu and me"~�� i think i love my best friend
Christmas can be very depressing for some people, when there is no money, no family, no one to share anything, it sucks, what to do????,
This has been an odd week compliment wise.....last night I was out on the porch and our kind a weird neighbor guy was out and I was chatting to him about his birthday and then he started asking me if I had a boyfriend and I said no I wasn't seeing anyone and he asked it if I was looking I said no agian (its half true) and he told me I was perfect and didn't understand why i was single......after a super awkward pause I changed the subject but it was really sweet.
This morning I say Laura on facebook and so I said Hi over chat and she was like Emily is here we were just talking about how much we love you! awwww I heart her!
Then this afternoon I get a flickr email from this guy I met Saturday night at roses holiday party and we had chatted and maybe argued about photography espeically nikon vs cannon and he wrote me a nice note that my photography was amazing! and he though I was kinda joking about it when we talked but he was very impressed......so nice to hear!
Lots of love this week even if I'm not loving myself that much this week......
Listening to a lot of hot chip today!!�
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