Back to just me and the dog again my son's girlfriend is back off holliday so we did'nt see him for dust and my other half i sat work bless.So it's me the dog and the internet it's so much better with a new computer goes so much faster.i still have cold and my op is on wednesday so i am trying every thing to clear it up you know hot drinks paracetemol menthol you name it i'v tryed it it seems to be working so you never know i might just be fit enough to still have the op .i hope so as my arm cause me so much pain dont think i've had a full nights sleep in 3 years so fingers crossed i might sleep tight when it done .
You would think that taking the kids to the beach is a good idea.� And you would be right.� However, feeding the kids while at the beach is another beast entirely.� My penny pinching wife, who didnt want to just get everyone a pizza or two to share on the boardwalk for all of $20, ended up spending $100 for food.� Albeit it was good food, my kids had never had good Greek food.� But still, Damn!!� If I had asked for a few extra bucks to buy ............Hell anything really the answer is NO.� I so need to set up a secondary account so I have a few buck stashed away for things that I want.� Even if it is to buy things for the kids for Xmas.�
Well, at the beach, VA beach BTW, the waves were huge.� Maybe not California huge or Hawaii huge, but huge for VA, thanks to the tropical storm off the coast.� The kids and I had a blast.� Of course I am hurting like a bear in a trap.� But somethings are worth pain.� Life is full of pain, my life especially.� So if I am going to hurt, I might as well try to have some fun.
The "Boys", my youngest nephews, were going to come with us.� We had made this trip especially so they could come with us.� Well, wen it was time to pick them up, we found out that there other uncle, the pot smoking unemployeed asshole uncle, grounded them.� Why are they grounded you ask?� Because they didnt turn off the TV when they went to bed.� What the fuck, you have got to be kidding me.� They are 7 and 5, thats what kids do, they fall asleep watching TV.� Then being a responsible adult you come along, tuck them in bed, turn off the tv and shut off the lights.� you dont ground them from going over to there favorite Uncles house when I am taking them to the beach and sacrificing my health, time, energy and money.� It was selfish of him to do that I think.� Any other opinions?
I got to view the last episodes of season 2 of Dexter this past Friday. Really cool. Doakes dies and that kinda sucks but Dexter and he have a couple of short conversations that I think were revealing. I think that�they showed how much Doakes and Dexter have in common. They both had traumatic childhoods and they both are very violent people, but where Dex was encouraged to use his cravings to serve outside of the law as a vigilante and was told he was a monster, Doakes channels his rage and violence against enemies of society and considers himself restrained by the rules of that society. Doakes was in the military learning both how to release and restrain his violence. Dexter was taught to channel his cravings to give in to them and encourage them (as shown in what he's studies: martial arts, blood spatters, etc.)�on an orderly basis that would make use of it's immorality to provide a "service" to society. Doakes learned to serve by releasing his "monster". Dexter learned how to hide and feed his monster so it could "serve" society.
They both kill, but they have different focuses in their outlooks, which is something� Dexter hasn't really thought about. He's more concerned with justifying his actions than with the actual implications. He really has never dealt with his monster. Ultimately it is control of him. Harry is responsible for that. Dexter was a relatively good kid. He wasn't rebellious. He didn't have a problem with authority. he knew right from wrong. Dexter could have learned to deal with his urges but Harry came along, labeled him a serial killer and a psychopath, and then taught him to use his darkness to do what Harry always wanted to do, namely get rid of criminals who slip through the cracks in law enforcement. The very fact that Dexter has so many moral dilemmas with what he is doing attests to the possibilty that he would not have become a serial killer if left on his own.
In the�end�Harry gets a taste of the horribleness of his crime when he walks in on Dexter at work. The realization of what he's done causes him to kill himself. It should be noted that he doesn't kill Dexter. Perhaps because he realizes how little Dexter is to blame for what he has become.
right. ive been thinking, again. what do i want from my life..
what are the things that if i died now, i would regret i never got to do or achieve. i might go all my name is earl style on it and cross things off my list!!
i want to play music, properly!.. i do want ot travel see a few things. i want to be confident, be a real part of the group for once in my life! i want to do something that im not embarrassed about 2 days later for once.. i wanna be a doctor. i want to be someone who can discuss "issues" like they really care.. i want to shed my awkwardness hell ya.. i want to live my life to a soundtrack.. �i want to write a kick ass book and turn it into a kick ass film.. hmm i want kids that surely has to be a great thing. i really dont want to worry about this kinda crap
and you guessed it scrap all that, i just want to be in love.
ughhhh i just need something to inspire me badly.. something to be excited about
im such a sad ridiculous romantic bastard..
Call from Cartman:
Problems with NTP in nonprod, he's locking firewalls and sees some strange calls.�
Investigation / background
- All of nonprod syncs ntp with a vip named 'ntp' in DMZ and 'time' in CORE
- CORE/time vip points to NW for time
- DMZ/ntp vip points to non-prod server skylla on mage
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With the dmx migration Slick and I shut down NTP on all vms and instructed them to sync time with their ESX host.� All ESX hosts were pointed to 'ntp' for their time, under the mistaken assumption that the 'ntp' vip also pointed to NW for time.
We also shut down ntp on skylla.� This effectively left all of nonprod without a timesource.� It will drift.
I asked Cartman this:
"If it's a known issue that Virtual Guests don't sync time properly using the NTP protocol, did it ever make sense to use a Virtual Guest as a primary time source?"
He agreed that it does not.
Cartman volunteered to assign NTP duties to our nonprod Cisco switch and to point the ntp VIP to it.
That means all of our Virtual Guests will sync time with their ESX host and the ESX host will sync time with the 'ntp' VIP, which will use the nonprod Cisco switch as its time authority.
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Cartman will get this set up "sometime next week" because he's "busy".
Meanwhile, time on these machines will drift.� I ran through today and punched it down for all of the nonprod boxes and found them all .5 sec off.� Apollo was 15sec off.�
To be able to spend life my own way..........I cant imagine how quickly I would...well I have a few minutes, eased my previous smart ass remark and thought about a response.� It seems as if it is a worthwhile endevour.� Something to reach for.� But life my way sounds so contrary to my nature.� I am a pleaser.� I try to please all the kids, the wife the parents everyone.� This doesnt mean I dont please me.� I would say I am who I primarily work for.� Anything I do is usually about me.� Me the father, me the Son, me the Holy........wait wrong line.
I just wrote out a great entry, described in great detail what amounted to not much.���Then the Gadget from�Gmail shorted out, so in recap.�
Thursday:� Aside from the mundane house work and childrearing I played Civilization for the Xbox 360.� I took the kids and my nephew to the midnight release of Death Race.� Did it warrent going at midnight?� No, but the kids always think it is cool to see a movie at the midnight realease and its easier to get a parking spot.� Ange was at a girlfriends after work do Girl Scout stuff, so no fighting.
Friday:� More dulgery, Civilization and running Kids to the pool.� They stayed at the pool for 12-10,�� Nice!!� After Ange came home, we made dinner together.� It was a very nice to do that together.� Then while the rice was simmering, we heading to the bedroom.� Also nice, a bit too onesided, but I will take it when I can get it.�
Well that was it for my weekend, Now I am back at work, and I am bored shitless.
"Too many of us are not living our dreams because we are living our fears." - Les Brown
Wow, I haven't written in over a year, a lot has happened to where I feel I'm a bit more insightful than last year. I picked this quote because once again it is sooooo true in many of us. I'm guilty of it. I'm not living my dreams out to the fullest because I'm too wrapped up in fear. However I'm learning to push past my fears as I have lived some of them. I'm no longer afraid to tell someone that I love them, whether they give me a weird look or not, I'm also no longer afraid to speak for myself to possibly get somewhere in the world, and I'm no longer afraid to be happy. I've found out that even though life is rough and not going to get easier, it's a lot easier with friends and family along side you. So today, just remember that even if you are going through a rough patch in your life, know that it will get better, maybe not at first, but in time it will, and don't be wrapped up in fears, it only ties you down as if you are drowning in your fears. Live your dreams, life, and love to the fullest extent. You won't regret it, life is full of ups and downs, mistakes, love, but that's life, and everyone has to go through, but remember some go through it alone.
At last we have a new computer and just in time the old one did go bang it nearly gave my son a heart attack poor kid glad it was't me that pressed the on swithch cos i would have had an heart attack lol.only a few days till my op and guess what i'm full of cold so they might have to cancell it if it doesn't clear up in time that would be just my luck wait five years to get the treatment then end up with a cold thats sods law for you but if thats what happens then i guess a few more months wont kill me never mind worse things happen
Friday Slick & I cut over the DMX from 2 to 3 on nonprod portal.� We had an issue with Mage kernel panicking on reboot so after much troubleshooting and consideration we decided to do an in-place upgrade from ESX 2.5 to 3.02 and migrate it over to Madison and off of Fairbanks.
This worked pretty well.� We had a couple of outstanding things to do:
- Full Patch load
- New Kernel Load
- Set clock=pit in kernel and shutdown ntpd
migrate DMX
- ntpdate (lockdown time)
- recompile vmware tools & restart networking
- remove gcc & kernel-source
- remount nfs & smb shares
- visudo (add satellite acct)
- chgrp & chmod /bin/su
- ntpdate one more time
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