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uns3ttl3d 38, Female, New York, USA - 57 entries

Dec 2006
11:03 PM EDT

"Love me when I least deserve it, because that’s when I really need it." – Swedish Proverb fight. don't focus on winning. just fight. don't focus on losing. just fight. as long as you are fighting you know you're doing whats best. fight. don't focus on the pain or the weakness. just fight. don't focus on sorrow and loss. just fight and keep on fighting until there is no need to fight any longer. fight until you die. fight. fight until it is no longer necessary. fight. dont trust others. just fight. fight their lies. fight their deception. fight their intrustion. fight their desire to fight you. fight their desire to ruin you. fight their desire to fight your ability to fight. fight their desire to end your battle. continue to fight. fight until you die. pick up the sword and swear upon all the truth in the world. go get your guns and shoot off into the distance that will forever intrigue and confuse you. hold up your fist in resentment of the unjust ways of man. fight. gather your weapons and fight. fight against the world. its me against the world. i am fighting. i will lose. but i will fight as long and as hard as i can because its the best i can do. it gives me meaning and purpose amongst an empty life. an empty world. full of empty promises and false hope. empty people and false relationships. dont let them ruin you. dont let them touch you. hold yourself together. gather the pieces of this shattered puzzle and fight for your life. run like hhell.

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Journal4Jackson 49, Female, California, USA - 48 entries

Jan 2007
6:27 AM PST

1/01/07- Woke up a little bit later than usual. Played for awhile, ate a good breakfast and did normal morning routine. Watched one short video, then played for an hour or so with sister and Daddy. Daddy played burritos, dominos and cars with him. Ate a fair lunch and then played again, mostly independently. Took an early nap, didn't sleep but rested. Woke up and went to grandparents house for dinner. Acted up quite a bit, wouldn't listen to directions or stay out of areas that he was told to. Had to go in a time out for not listening to Mom. Calmed down afterwards and played at the kitchen table for awhile, then started acting up again so he and Mom played together. When it was time to go, had a major meltdown and had to be carried to the car. Went home, storytime and straight to bed (about 20 minutes early). Fell asleep within half an hour. Still brushing in 2 hour intervals, so far he's doing ok with it and it seems like he is starting to drool less.

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elizabee 35, Female, Canada - 22 entries

Dec 2006
8:56 AM EDT

Are my feelings difficult to read or do people just ignore them?

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aini 58, Female, Singapore - 4 entries

Dec 2006
11:39 PM EST

Hmm.. what is the finest moment in my life?? I guess it would be overcoming my depression that was triggered by my colleague's comment and also my high expectations of myself. Being the perfectionist that I am, I tried to be the best teacher, best mom, best HOD, best wife, best muslim and sometimes ...or rather most of the time it is really hard to fulfill those roles as much as u tried. And.. when things turn out to be otherwise than planned, I get very upset and tend to blame myself for whatever happens. This is turn leads to depression and low self-esteem. For the new year, I planned to let bygones be bygones, live for the present and let the future decides what's in store for me. I am going to smile more and make each day counts... so for all of u out there, happy 2007 and may the year brings much happiness, success and luck in whatever you do!! U all will be in my prayers....

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kmkakimmy 55, Female, New York, USA - 5 entries

Dec 2006
6:26 AM EDT

today boering as ususal i wish i was with ma friends espaecialy matty(matty=hotty) he is so cute i wish he would ask me out sooo badly but i dont want to ask him out because im afraid he will say no i know all my friends say that i should ask him out because nobody could say no to me but still i dont know what to do!!!!! ----------------------------->mrs.lonely

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x3ncroyle1236x3 37, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 33 entries

Dec 2006
6:25 PM EDT

happy new year everyone.. well... January 8 is coming SO SO soon, but so is January 21! : ) birthday and christmas went great. so...

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madhousewife 69, Female, Michigan, USA - 48 entries

Dec 2006
5:46 PM EDT

The first day of the new year is almost over. I didn't do very well. I let me emotions get the better of me. I did have to laugh. One of my co-workers said they were asked if I had a dual personality disorder. I admit yes I do cssp "can't stand stupid people". It is a little disturbing to have people notice I have had an issue. My stress level has been bad as has the depression. I feel so weary. I am still hopeful. It is only the first day and I am not giving up. Baby steps, and one day at a time. I can do this!!

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VCS 50, Female, Texas, USA - 37 entries

Dec 2006
5:45 PM EDT

To Everyone on Inbox Journal, 12/31/06 Have a wonderful and a safe HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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madhousewife 69, Female, Michigan, USA - 48 entries

Dec 2006
4:59 AM EDT

To be honest I can't think of three good things right now. I am trying this to help myself change and analyze things in my own life. I want 2007 to be a stellar year in my life. I have heard keeping a journal can help so wanted to try. My problem was not wanting a paper trail my family could read. They want to fix me or take my feelings and turn them into something about them. I suffer from depression, anxiety and low self-esteem and like all others I just want to be happy. In some ways I had a miserable childhood because of painful shyness, and constant critizism from Mom. I lost my youth in a too early marriage and motherhood. Don't get me wrong, my kids are my heart I just wish I had been older because being so young I wasn't prepared. I let them down in a lot of was because of my age. I didn't always like my kids, their friends, or choices, but I did always love and support them. My goal was to not be like my own Mother. Anyway ..I am hoping to work on myself and stop trying to rely on thers for my own happiness.

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madhousewife 69, Female, Michigan, USA - 48 entries

Dec 2006
4:53 PM EDT

Time for resolutions. I'm not going to waste energy on the ysuals, as I know I won't keep them. I don't want to get carried away making un-attainable goals, that I will once again feel like a failure for not keeping. I will take each day as it comes trying to live in the momment. No getting stuck on what could have been, and no obsessing about what come with tomorrow. It always sound simple, but it isn't, it is very hard. I want to live my life without feeling like I should apologize, or worry about others getting mad. I want to become more spiritual, and find some inner peace to help me find patience. I will try to control the urges to go after rude people,and tailgaters, smash cell phones, and point out ignorance when I see it. My fingers are crossed for this new year!!

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