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Omg has it been long since i've wrote in this! this is so weird now!

Once again I'm welmed up into confusion. Which way do I go? This past year in school, I told a boy that I had feelings for him. He also had the same feelings... and you get what happened. But he wasn't ready to 'ask me out' yet. My friends were suspicious and nudged him to talk to me once n' awhile. He never did. I just thought he was shy. One night when talking online, he said it. He said "I love you." This caught me off guard. Did I feel this way too? I didn't say it back. Again, about a month later, he said those words again. "I love you." I said it back. I meant it. The day after the last day of school came. We had a dance and lock-in in our school. It was time for us to finally get together. Nothing was happening.... the dance was cut short (no slow dances) and we went straight to the lock-in. During a hide n seek game thing, I pulled him aside and asked him why he wasn't talking to me... more of ignoring me. We held hands as he "explained". Our first moment together. And.. our last. About a month into the summer, not seeing him, he decided to say we were 'over.' What I don't understand, is why. We were NEVER together, we BARELY talked, but yet he kept telling me that he LOVED me, and that he was so happy that I liked him.... Things just got messed up. My friends pressured him too much. Now I'm left. Confused. Who cares though? It's just my life. Just my dream. Gone.