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XxOctoberxX 35, Female, Kansas, USA - 6 entries

Jul 2007
2:58 PM MST

my life totally suck...god y did i have to love him of all people...now that it has been awhile, i kinda hate him for it. But how can i regret something that once made me happy? man i want to be held...my best friends brother set me on a blind date... i dont know if i should...forgive me all of u that love me, my life is miserable, i need someone real, and here. i do love you back, i really do, but im so alone. i hate it and every thing i do and every thing i dont do. i ask myself oh god, why me?

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BAdams 38, Female, Kentucky, USA - 2 entries

Jul 2007
12:44 PM EDT

When Gregory and I split up, I wasn't that dpressed I felt a little remorse, but nothing like losing my children. I felt my entire life was ripped out from underneath me and there was nothing I could do or say to stop it. I felt I was in a hollow existence to fake my way through life as best as I could. I was mad at the entire world for everything bad that had happened to me in my life. I've yet to let go of the past completely, things that have happened will still get me down, but I will eventually persevere.

One day everything will be fine again, matter of fact they will be great and I know that. The unsubstantial nonsense from my life will no longer exist. Friends that I thought were my friends will no longer be in my life. Patty went to court last month to testify against me, someone who I thought was my best friend for almost seven years, and someone who sort of guided me through life, let me down tremendously. She told everything she knew on me, which after seven years was quite a lot. My secrets were out and there was nothing I could do to hide anymore.

Once day my kids will be back with me where they belong and I will inevitably have my life back. It's going to take time but it will happen. I understand now more than ever that I may need help with my codependency on drugs and alcohol. I am very impulsive when I drink, uncontrollable, and often suicidal. I knew death in only the most abstract of senses; I never knew it would be something I would arrange or seek.

I burnt you a few CDs, they all say something about my life or someone in it. Your smart enough to figure it out. Hope you enjoy. YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO THE WORDS!!! PLEASE, OF COURSE.Also I didn't get a chance to put it on any of them, but that song, "Big girls don't cry" By Fergie, that song absolutely kicks ass.

Brittany

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confusedgirl101 30, Female, California, USA - 12 entries

Jul 2007
4:59 PM EDT

omg! well yesterday after i posted i went crazy and decieded i wanted my hair blonder so i got comet(w/ bleach) and tried to bleach my hair! u know its that stuff that u clean sinks w/. well i know im crazy! anyways im not supposed to use chemicals on my hair and my mom noticed it was blonder but i told her it was lemon juice! lol! well ttyl! l8r Belle

Tags: MORON!!!

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kaymiller 65, Female, Louisiana, USA - First entry!

Jul 2007
7:57 AM CDT

I have been following the progress and I am so happy for all of you. May you continue to improve along this path. My thougths and prayers are always with you. Love Kay Miller

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cahearn40 62, Male, Colorado, USA - 6 entries

Jul 2007
9:51 PM MST

Once we value Christ above everything else, we will learn to love our family with a deeper and healthier love. But until our ultimate loyalty is determined, home-grown affection will do in our hearts what fire or German ivy will do in a forest.
This is such a hard concept, and put so starkley can take you aback, but it is something we have to do. God help me to understand and do this principle

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cloud 30, Male, Utah, USA - First entry!

Jul 2007
12:46 PM EDT

Me:

me what about me im not that exciting i play made up game with my frinds i play video games all day i have a boring job but at least i get payed i love any girl it kinda wierd

Tags: gaiaonline.com

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SimplyChelsey 30, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - First entry!

Jul 2007
6:32 PM EDT

Hey people,
Ok so like me and my bff swore we would be friends forever and like we did ever thing together like we would say stuff at the same time. But like she went off to camp FOR LIKE THE WHOLE SUMMER! and I'm stuck here. And wee told each other everything Likw we had this book that we would like write down our crushes, rate how hot guys, make popularaity list, plan birthday partys, plan normal partys, plan trips, and alot more. The thing is I always told her my crushes and stuff and now I have like a huge one on this kid from school but I cant tell her because she is at camp and I dont have the address. And I really like this kid but he says he does not date. But like at school he would always flirt and stuff but now he does not talk and his cell is always off.

Man my summer is not going right.

Tags: Bad star to summer

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EroticBehavior4u 56, Female, Louisiana, USA - 5 entries

Jul 2007
9:40 AM EDT

Wounded But I Can't Let Go

The more i sit and think, the more i hurt. Knowing that i stand in danger of losing the best thing that ever happened too me.The worst part is i have no one to blame but self. But i can't help feeling like my heart is engulped in flames. It;s like i can barely hear your vioce anymore, It becomes faint day by day. How do you pick up the pieces of a broken heart that resemles a jigsaw puzzle...I struggle to keep my head above water...yet the tides of a broken heart carries me under, I gasp for air...my breath is shallow, wondering how could i breathe without oxygen? The oxygen that shes filled me with all this time...She was my air, The only way i know how to live, my means of survival, Afraid if she spreads her wings and fly will she soar so high she'll forget the one she left behind? Or does it matter that her wings are clipped and she's wounded and can't fly, feeling like a bird with 2 wings but can't fly...Longing to soar again but theres no wind...She was my life. Now that the wind has come to a standstill, no wind, no air, no breathe, no life...struggling to regain my composure...staggering, stumbling, wondering...How do i getthe rhythm of my heart back in tune with my love for her?

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taylor 30, Female, Indiana, USA - First entry!

Jul 2007
3:49 PM EDT

HI! I AM NEW HERE SO EMAIL ME!!!!! NOW.... WHAT RU WAITING 4!!!!!

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charleyrojo 27, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 7 entries

Jul 2007
11:17 AM EDT

hi its me charley iwont be writing on here anymore i have a neww blog if u want to see it just go to http://charleyanaveragegirl101.blog.complease look at it and send a comment BY

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