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they tell you i mis you tonight, but the next day you'll hear they're with somebody else.

tsk tsk.

when will this ever stop?
can somebody show me that i'm living in a lie?

it was late 2011 when i started thinking of a plan.
i have to quit, i have to let go, i have to move on. that's what i told myself.
so when i was convinced enough, i reapeated to myself,"don't let it happen again. don't let him or anybody hurt you. you are strong and you'll make it."
i thought i was prepared for the days to come.
i was certain.

but come the first day of 2012 and my plan was broken!
my new year's resolution came in a blur.
huuuuuuuuffff....

i never imagined it would be that hard.

i hope it's not yet too late to start all over AGAIN.

sigh.

lately i've been wondrin' what to do with what i feel with no one to share it with. Not that i'm afraid of being judged, not that i'm afraid of being the subject of laughter. it's the fear that no matter how i try to explain it, nobody would understand.

so i guess that's why i created this page.
this would be my own place,
where no one needs to understand why.
where i need� not to answer any question.
where i can be JUST ME.

sigh.