当小猫见了小鸭
记得在我十岁时，到金州干校看望爸爸，干校养了很多小鸭子，那成百只毛茸茸，唧唧喳喳，活泼可爱的小鸭子长久地留在了我金色童年的记忆中，两个星期前我上街看到有人叫卖小鸭雏，我花十元钱，冲动地为十岁的敦敦买了三只小鸭子。
听人说要喂小鸭泡饭，可无论我如何悉心照顾，在一星期之内，两只小鸭就因水土不服先后不幸仙逝，还只剩一只小鸭含泪告别同伴，坚强地活着，我从心底佩服这只小鸭的顽强的求生意志。敦敦告诉我，一只小鸭太过孤单，一定要再买一只小鸭。两只小鸭子可以相依为命。
不知是出于嫉妒还是炫耀自己是这家的宠物元老，小猫乐肥有事没事就往这只孤零零的小鸭的笼子跟前靠，小鸭一看见不怀好意的带毛大哥走近，就恐惧的惊叫个不停。乐肥一反其懦弱的性格，仗着自己属于体形大的哺乳类，一直保持着对禽类小鸭的卑鄙兴趣。为避免凶多吉少，我总是把乐肥踢走。真不能怪乐肥的德行差，这世道确实是有弱肉强食的潜规则。我痛恨以强凌弱，盼着有一天，小鸭长成大鸭子，将小猫的尾巴叼着玩，报了这一箭之仇。
美国当年看中国就像小猫看鸭雏，牛气烘烘，凶神恶煞的，50 年后，一不留神，发觉这只长大了的鸭子在能量和质量上与自己不相上下，只是她不但高速成长还出奇地年青，小猫后怕呀，我应该早知有今天，痛定思痛，眼下还是跟她搞好关系，求得共同发展为妙。
wow life can be sooo confusing at times, i like this guy and yet i cant just open up and let myself give in to having fellings for him, and yet i found that the reason that i think i cant just let go is because there is no chase, the guy is just so nice that he isnt fun to chase after, he just lets me have him and i dont like that, i like to have a chase in the beginning of a relationship, i dont know why but i do, im not sure if he could handle someone like me if he is like this all the time, i think i might be tooo wild for him!!!!! i dont know i guess im going to have to wait and see!!!!
well if you have any ideas on what to do let me know!!!!! ~till later!
I was kidnapped yesterday.. obviously i'm fine now.. but it was a terrible experience.. i was with my boyfriend, he was dropping me off at my house. when i was about to go inside two men came infront of us and told us to get in the car... i got scared so i went quietly..my boyfriend asked them to let me go and take him butthey said that if we stayed calm nothing would happen to us because all they wanted was the car which was a bmw 530... i quickly sent a text message to my dad and put the phone on silent... then they told us to give them our cell phones.. so i did. then they asked for our papers, my boyfriend told them that i didnt have anything on me so i didnt give them my wallet.. they took us around town for like an hour.. we prayed quietly most of the ride.. and the guy who was driving kept getting calls from his fellow theives and he talked about sending us to another car... they suddenly stoped and one guy told us to get out and walk through a small mountain that was there. when they left, my boyfriend started yelling at some cars to please help us.. one woman stopped and gave us a ride and let us call my parent since his were on a trip.. my dad picked us up and thankfully we are fine..
从十五到七十，从志学到从心所欲？
今天跟敦敦重温论语，'吾十有五而志于学，三十而立，四十而不惑，五十而知天命，六十而耳顺,七十而从心所欲，不逾矩'。敦敦听了第二遍，就发表了他的灼见。妈妈，孔子在这里讲的是特指他自己，越老活得越明白。实际上，我们一般俗人从年轻到老一路是走下坡路的，不要以为人们长大后学习了许多东西就是更加明白了，实际上，学习到的东西也会给人们带来更多的困扰和彷徨，这就是为啥人越长大并不是越加轻松快乐，上帝安排人类从出生后就开始进入一个不可逆的老化的过程，尤其到了老年阶段，身体也越来越差，头脑也越来越糊涂。因为，人在这样的状态下，才会比较容易接受死亡。
我的乖乖，对敦敦这段'奇谈'，我茫然且不置可否，敦敦今夏跟我到伦敦拜访了我的一些年老的老师和朋友们，他们大都在耳顺和从心所欲的年龄，曾经多姿多彩，风光无限，眼下都不得不淡出事业搏击的沙场，还要饱受疾病的困扰和折磨，很难'从心所欲'，实际上是即便心从，身也从不了了。敦敦来上海这一年来，风雨无阻，每个星期六都要按时拜访他身体欠佳的爷爷奶奶，我记得五年前，五岁的敦敦大声在他老爷的病榻前背诵刚学会的'三字经'，眼看着宠爱自己的老爷一天天地衰弱下去，敏感的幼小心灵留下了无法抹去的创痛，耳听为虚，眼见为实，这段无奈经历带来的顿悟对一个十岁的孩子来得真实而自然，所以他毫不犹豫地质疑圣人的高论。如孔子所论，是少数贤士活到的致高境界，悲观点讲，当今的中国普通老百姓，'吾十有五而志于'被灌'，三十而'俗'，四十而不'乐'，五十而知'天限'，六十而'耳背',七十而'从儿所欲，不逾矩'。写到这，我觉得真是对圣人有些不敬了。孔老夫子，请别怪我，时代在变，人也在变。
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