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ciancasaje 32, Male, Canada - 2 entries

Feb 2007
11:02 AM EDT

Here I go again... After months of recovery, I am again hurt... Why? Why does this always happen to me? Is it because I'm a love addict? Is it because I look at things differently? Why is it so wrong for me to love? I give myself into it... I give my heart, my soul... I am sincere... Honest.... Loyal... But what do I get in return? .... Rejection! Oh I hate myself... I know it's not their fault... It's mine... I'm the one who kills myself piece by piece... Every little time I spent for myself gives me nothing but pain... Am I selfish? ... Why would I be? I give everything I could and do all my best for my love....And still I'm the one who's selfish? That's insane! This world is so messed up... Wait... No... I mean I am the one who's messed up! I can't get a hold out of myself... I feel I'm going crazy... I just need someone... Someone who will stay with me... Who will love me the same way I do... But heck! Shame on me... I always screw up!

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alicia 59, Female, Kansas, USA - First entry!

Feb 2007
2:44 AM CDT

I have in the past to be pretend to be something I was not. Maybe even in my current life I pretend to be something I am not. However, in my past, it was intentional to do so. For fantasy reasons. I was trying to "find" myself. I was bored with my life, and wanted to created some sort of character that I felt was exciting and fun. (my character was a blast). I picked a time in my life where I had felt it was perfect. So I created an on line person to relive that.

In the present, I feel that I am trapped into to something I am not happy about. But, I try my best to be happy or at least act happy as to not make any waves. I have a lot to be grateful for, however, sometimes it is very difficult to pretend to be happy, when my soul is hurting as much as it is.

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beckyleigh 32, Female, Florida, USA - 6 entries

Feb 2007
7:38 PM EDT

o yea... i haven't been on in a while now but i have resently found out that my best friend cuts herself...i don't know what to do...she got therapy for it but she is still cutting and she does not want to go to a hospital...she doesn't understand that she is hurting herself!!....it is getting rediculas...i wish i could help her...but i don't know how to....later*

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chelsealynn15 32, Female, Maine, USA - 3 entries

Feb 2007
2:06 PM EDT

so yea i broke up with my boyfriend before valentines day. yea i know. mean, but he was an ass to me. IDK if you read the entry when i said that i was going to get my hair done, but i did and it's two toned. well he pretty much told me that it looked like shit and i should NEVER do it again. he was always dissin' me and i was done with everything. My friend is more rapped up into her boyfriend know and i no longer exist. O and i found out that she lied about a lie that she told me haha figures. what a great friend right?! w.e i guess; i am totally pissed

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bumblebug64 28, Female, New Jersey, USA - 4 entries

Feb 2007
10:43 AM EDT

Hi no school yes but the thing is i am a little bored i bet all of you are too.� Ok so i ate lunch went on the computer not much i dont know what to do i mean its almost my brothers birthday and i guess i could make hima card , but he didnt make one for me on my birthday and he let my mom wright his name on the card so i shall do the same yet i really have nothing to do i will be home with my brother most of the day today because my parents are going out to a concert and my brother will be hogging the tv or computer but lets hope he outside or exercising if you are wondering my brother is a health fanatic all he does is eat fruits and veggies sometimes junkfood , but only on speical occations and exersises he really needs to learn how to lay low on the health who knows what could happen to you if you are really all about the healthy

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Juicy Juice 35, Male, California, USA - 9 entries

Feb 2007
5:38 AM PST

Welll i see that lots of people have introduced themselves to the world and i guess its only fair if i do tooo ........
My name is Hugo and i am 18 years old. I like to do many things, like play guitar, play video games, and i like to play baseball. I love to listen to music, my favorite band is Between The Buried and Me, and i listen to Rock... all sorts of rock .... thats about it.... my perferred type of music is Emocore, hardcore, and metalcore. i like to play war games ... or shooting games. i also like to take pictures ... not of myself ..but like a photography kinda thing....ummm i am very racial... not to be confused with racist .. cause im not racist ... but i critize stupid people .... not people who were born mentally challenged .. but people who were born normal and are just plain ignorant. im violent. im also not afraid of telling you how i really feel about you.... im sorry if you got offended by that.....ummm thats about all i have to say

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vikinggaijin 42, Male, Japan - 3 entries

Feb 2007
5:39 PM CST

OOOOk, here's another point to ponder. There is obvious "team grouping" theories on the National Coach's plate. Check out the numbers of players that are on the NT right now...kinda pathetic.

Reds: 6

JEF: 4

Gamba: 3

Frontale: 3

Sanfreece: 2

Ryutsu Keizai Univ.: 1...whaaaaa???

Marinos:1

FC Tokyo: 1

Antlers:1

S-Pulse: 1

Trinita: 1

Albirex: 1

Jubilo: 1

Granted that those teams are good teams, but do they all necessarily have good players? Can these guys get together and get along like the Brazilian NT? I REALLY REALLY REALLY don't think so. This guy from friggin whosajiggawha university is relatively unheard of. Osim should've taken a look at all the players in Japan and not just those who hail from Kanto and kinda Kansai. Seems like a real shortsighted man to me. Eh.

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katherine1769 48, Female, New York, USA - 11 entries

Feb 2007
2:26 PM EDT

okay so today i was soo excited it is a snow day!! and valentine's day i still didn't get a change to tell him i like him but i defently wanna do that soon. but i had 2 do a few chores but that's okay. because i had funn doing other stuff to. and there is only four more days untill the cruise!!! i went shopping before and got a pair of roll up pants 2 pairs of flip flops pink and brown a tang top and a totally cute head band from foreva 21 but anyways sry the last few days i didn't write anything i was just sooo busy. with school and etc. homework and everything tomorrow i have 4 tests and one mid term!! ughhh defently not my fav. but its okay its in math and everyone said tha it is really hjardx os i kinda dont wanna do it. hah, but anyways yeah i have nothing to do and lately this girl rachel has really been bugging the heck out of me so im kinda mad at her. i just didn't tell her yet.okh yeah and kate going to KB she had a really bad injury and she is not in school for this WHOLE week hah. and im talking to DUMB BAILEY right now she is very very so totally annoying hah. but i just can't stop thinking about my cruise it will be off the hook!1 and hot yo! hehe i am so dumb for the cruise grace is going to colorado and we are both getting each other something like a gift or that. hah but i am just so excited i can't wait to eat swim shoping candy coffee shop tons tons tons tons tons tons tons more including gold bingo club rokclcimbing wall spa and totally toms more. k well im gonna go look on the website for my cruise i will tell u if i got anything

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kittenwok 33, Female, Canada - First entry!

Feb 2007
1:10 PM EDT

hey this me! I am a girl and is very nice.I like to play lots of things like soccer,hip-hop,and lots more.I have lot's of friends. I make friends very fast.

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godumbplease 49, Male, California, USA - 3 entries

Feb 2007
3:48 PM EDT

Where is the wind, Is it in my soul? No, it's just the devil messin' with my bones. Or is it the Holy Spirit tinglin' me

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