Is my loneliness my fault?� I am so tired of being single. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong. Granted...it hasn't even been a year. But I still think�about Connor all the time. I'm supposed to be
this mature, strong, independent college student. And I guess I am...in a lot of ways...but I have a long way to go.
Umm...I can't get over my ex. It has been almost a year. wow. That's so odd to say. Just a few more months and im right back to the day when I found his journal from SA. I'm still so broken up over
him...and I miss him so much. But I don't want to be with him. Not yet. One day, though. Because I do love the boy...despite his shortcomings. I hate feeling this way...and I was doing so well!!!
I HATE MEN! I FUCKING HATE THEM! im so sick of this. im. so. sick. of. connor. i dream about him, i think about him and when i talk to him i want to kill him for days. do i still love him? can i?
this is so stupid...and you can't fix stupid. i feel disgusting and i want out of here. this is just too much.