i lost myself when i had him and now i feel its finally my time to be me again, but better.  i now know my limits and i know what im capapble of.  my experience with keegan has made me so much stronger and weve only been broken up for 2 days.  it was a depressing shock at first that i actually believed we shouldnt be together but now its only something that makes me confident.  i believe i made the right decision and i know what i need to do to get over him.  without lying to myself it is going ot be extremely hard but its something i have to do for myself, for him.  when i think back we had alot of good times but too many bad ones.  reading my old poems i realize how much he hurt me and how hurt i was before i met him.  yes he brought me happiness but he also showed me how to love and how to forgive yourself.  i dont regret keegan one bit, he was my first love and i'll have other ones too.  i dont love him anymore... i must admit it to myself.  i miss him but not love anymore.  its over and i cant go back, only in time will i completely heal.

Hero Heroine - Boys Like Girls

I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time
Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming
I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And its so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and their skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lock-down
And then you turned me around
And I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

Thats What You Get - Paramore

I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore
It's your turn to take a seat
We're settling the final score
And why do we like to hurt so much?
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities
Well I was wrong
That's what you get when you let your heart win
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating
And that's what you get when you let your heart win
I wonder
How am I supposed to feel when you're not here?
Cuz I've burned every bridge I ever built
When you were here
I still try
Holding on to silly things, I never learn
Pain, make your way to me, to me
And I'll always be just so inviting

Love Song - Sara Bareilles

You made room for me but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or breaking this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

Rock Your Soul - Elisa

I don't let myself down
just wanna be one with you
wanna be one with you
The more I think, the less I do
when I'm able to talk
I'm queen of my world
I let it rain on my skin
I don't ask myself why
I don't ask myself why
I wanna be one with you
wanna be one with you
and all I want is to rock your soul