2/23/07-Woke up at normal time, freeplayed until breakfast. Had breakfast, made smoothies and drank w/straw. Had him help me vaccuum living room/hall/bedroom (pushed the vaccuum back and forth). Played with floor pillows in living room (built towers, house, etc). Played games at table for 15 min., followed by 20 minutes of arts/crafts (stickers, coloring, stencil/tracing, etc). Watched Calliou (1/2hr) followed by freeplay for about an 1/2hr. Had lunch, ate well. Did legos in the living room for 20 minutes followed by wiggles game. Then read stories for about 20 min., followed by trains in living room. Went down for nap, didn't sleep but rested somewhat for about an hour or so. Got up, watched Toy Story (1.5hr) and then strung beads and played with mini legos at table for 15 min each. Ate dinner, finshed it all. Then painted at the table for 15 minutes, cleaned up. Got ready for bed, cleaned up living room and then stories and bedtime. Asleep within an hour. Total TV for day: 2 hr. Total TO for day: 3. Brushed every 3 hours w/o problems.

Okay I can make anyone smile and i love to be out with my friends and my "guy" friends! I geuss that I have a great life Oh My who I am trying to fool I hate mylife my boyfriend bet the crap out of me and i dont know what to do and i love him and dont want to get him in troubel or anything and i told one of my friends and boy did she want to kill him but yeah oh and i am in love with an really hot guy but i dont think it will ever happen i am just to hidious and even my boyfriend agrees with me that i am ugly so yeah and i think that i should just die its not like anyone would care i get hated for being bi i am bi get over it! All my friends dont know what to do with me anymore i am just in hell right now and my life suxs! I wish that i could find just one friend that just could be there for me no matter what i do or what happens i just hate mylife i fell inlove and then i ancedendly told them that i was in love with them and so now i dont know what to do with myself i want to die and no i do not have depression its just the truth i think that life is just hell at this time in any girls life! so yeah my life is just hell in every way and i dont want to feel like this i want to be happy but i am just not i am just sad all the time well except when I am with him! (lyle) he brings all the light i have ever needed to my life if i am cryin he could make me laugh and just smile forever but he isnt around much so when he is gone my life is hell but when he walks in i just begin to shine like i never have before and then there is chrisco the worlds greatest guy in the whole world he never leaves my heart i love him soooooooooo much all i do is think about him night and day and i dont know what to do i have no clue about anything anymore I just forgot how to do anything i just dont want to make a big mistake because i want to do things with him that i dont know if i am ready for but i also dont know if he is ready eather i dont want ot rush him because i dont want to be a slut or anything but i think that everyone already thinks that I am i dont want to lie any more i dont want to hurt anymore but i geuss i will forever!