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Dear diary, i guess it was more than 2 hrs befor i wrote this diary entry. you are reading the days of an avrage girl life: by charley m. today while i was in science mrs. weikel was handing back papers. she is so mean!!!!! the only time i ever like is in summer WHEN I DONT GET TO SEE HER!!!!!!!! but this summer i am going to summer school WITH MRS.WEIKEL UGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!! .I am sick of katlinn b ofr any els like this they ask you if you like this person or if you like that person it gets realy annoing. just that part, she is realy nice and funny my whole class is my bff. my super best freinds are caleigh d, kelley f, chalsea w,and last and sertantly not least brooklynn d. brooklynn and i have been best friends since 1st grade and we still keep in touch. and of corse my family. that whasthe story of the days of an avrage gril life

Well like i said i was gonna go im not i found my mom's laptop so i decided to bring it over to my sister's bed and type. This journal thing helps me so much. I've been through so much and i ask myself why i keep holding on? Why dont i give up?

But i cant my mind understands what my heart doesnt want to. I have to help everyone in my family i act like im ok but inside im sick of crying sooner or later im gonna run out of tears. My mom is sick with soemthing called anxziety and my sister just has her attitude problems. I miss my dad he always helped us and he always made me feel safe and that he will always be there cheering me on. The baby finally fell asleep and im finally free to type without a baby trying to type 538614890161 gdfbg. That kinda annoys me.

My dad left us when i was 5 or7 i dont remember because it's been a long long time. Im so sad and broken and none understands not even my closest friends.

i tell myself people who lost everything pretend they didnt and i who have lost nothing feel like im gonna burst into zillion pieces.

Thank god i dont let out the pain in cutting and sometimes i have to think b4 i start to think i should but i barely think of that. Anyways i've been having a tiredexhaustiondepressedhappy day. I just dont know whar i should do anymore.

Before i die of Thurst im gonna go get a drink PEACEE

have a good night!!

SWEET DREAMS OHH SWEET DREAMS

FOR ILL SEE YOU IN THE MORNING SWEET DREAMSS OHHHHHHHHHHHH SWEET DREAMS DONT LET THE BED BUGS BITE.

Hey All you bloggers it's me Beauty. Today was a normal day except i found out that one of my bffl was talking behind my back and thats the only thing i dispise in the whole world. it's not fair im the only one in that school that doesnt talk behind peeps backs. Besides, she talked behind my back because im friends with everybody. I mean middle school is where people hate you for the stupidest reasons. I never knew people can be so evil. I mean im a very social person i cant help it.....im a chatterbox. I talk about random things at random times and i think people should do the same and not stay quiet. Being quiet is showing that your not a social person.

I was writing a song about how a girl cant stand being her crush's second choice and it reminds me of who i like John. I was talkign to him and when i see his face sometimes i think Cupid has struck me [({again})]. He's so ADORABLE i luvv him!!!

The whole day was fine. My Aunt got surgery because she has an ''egg'' in her stomache it's not a baby though. I've been babysitting since 3:00 and it's 8:50.

I have to go watch my favorite show but b4 i go i want to tell you all i will be glad to be your friends.

We went to Keyhole Thursday night (24th) with the new camper. We set it up and even had a little help from T and C. Then I went to my mom's for a late dinner and shared with her my true feelings about her loser boyfriend. I see him using her and I think it is really sad he hasn't had a job for over a year and is junking out her property! She knew all this but doesn't seem to care! I think she is scared because she is in way over her head!

THEN we stayed the night, 1st night in the camper, then Friday AM headed to town for work!~ I took the boys to Janes and even had time to get Starbuck! I was a happy camper!

FRI, Sat, SUn nights were at Keyhole with CN. It was a great time. jay and San got a spot right next to us and we all had a wonderful time. I cooked meals and everything worked well except for the battery on the camper! Linc charged it up for me. I guess he has to be good for something,,, then he actually rigged it so it would work till I could go get a part replaced!

It was kinda chilly so I didn't get in the water but everyone else did. Thars came out and they surfed! I guess I will have to try it sometime! Did I mention my inlaws actually watched the boys Monday, overnight and Tues. as I didn't have a sitter! I guess things went okay but I doubt they will offer anytime soon! I bet they wore them out!!!!

This week has been good except I have vertigo and had a messed up left shoulder! I went to Voodoo Paula and she seemed to do wonders on my shoulder but my vertigo is still around I don't really know what is wrong with me! I think it is combo of motion sickness from the boat and stress! I need school to be over so I can just CHILL for a couple of days!

This weekend we are going to Spearfish for CN's powerlifting meet! I need to get my camper back from the camper place in rapid and then get some yard work done!

"Today, I love you more than yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow."

The first week of class was interesting! Breakfast is at 8 am and class starts at 9:20. My first class is Grammer and it last until 11:00 and then my next class starts 11:20 and is over at 1:00pm. Monday and Wednesday i got to a two hour pottery class, which seems like fun but after and hour i am ready to leave,

LastMonday we all took a bus to Walmart where i gotsome walking shoes and a few other things. Takening the bus is a lot cheaper then taxis but it is a rough ride! I was so tired after that. that night Neal, Ross, Tres, Jessica, and I went to a lounge bar called Utopia. Its really cute, it has white leather chairs, everything is white with black lights. Its but one drink get one free! So we figured that would be our regular place.

Tuesday we went to a bar called Tiki, where our friend Kyle was haveing a going away party. He had spent the last pring semester at ULDA, and was leaving that following morning! We played a game called Buddy ears,,,its a really fun drinking game that i will surly introduce to all my friends back home! We also found out that Tiki had a great drink special, 10 leters of beer and six appitizers for 300 pesos. (30 bucks) Between the eight of us its great deal! We finished the night at Utopia, were i got a margartia! yum yum yum

Thursday was crazy! It all started off with me busting my ass at the dorms on the tile outside. It just so happens that we were leaving to go to the bars! It had been raining and i sliped and rolled my ankle. It hurt so frickin bad, so i was like i am still going out, and I am going to drink alot so I wont feel how frinkin bad it hurts! We started with beer at Tiki, then Utopia for some Sex on Beach drinks. Our bartener gave us all free shots of tequilla, Jessica didnt take hers so Luara and I split it! then a few guys i knew from class walked into Utopia, and Cody (from Mississippi) grabed my hand and started Salsa danceing with me! HELLO with me broken foot! its was OK i couldnt feel it! lol Then we deiced to go to a dance club! OH MAN we had to walk like a mile, by then the tequilla was wearing off! Tres Carried me some of the way! We got to Club Bling, and started drinking Vodka and sprite! I think we broke a total of 3 glasses, because we were so far gone! lol Jessica met a cute guy from...

You want me to feel guilty for saying that i cant love you so

You try to walk all over me

You are the one who i dont know

You are the one that makes me scared

You are the one who makes me feel safe even when im nott

You are the one that tells me that you love me

You are the one that i love

You are the one who made me learn something

You are the one that showed me that all men cant be as perfect as you

You are the one that doesnt know me

You are the one that i feel comfortable talking to

But just because of all these things doesnt mean i can love you

Which i do.................................

But you have to earn my love just like i have to earn yours

So trust me when i say this i want to meet you

I want to be with you

And the worst thing is i dont know if you want me or not..

Love me

You know who u are....