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Well its been awhile since i have wrote one these its time for an update! Well its kind of been boring the last week and half.

Two fridays ago i went out with Emily, Sarah, and Dina. I was really tired and i didnt feel like going out. So we went to dinner in down town Puebla. the place that we wanted to go was full so we went a little resturant down the street, next to an amazing salsa club. We sat down at a table out side but the misquitos were crazy so we moved inside. We ordered spigettie (however you spell it) but i got mine with meat suace. The rest of the girl just got tomato sause. After dinner we went walking around called a cab and went back to the dorms. It was around Midnight and i see the Laura and Jennifer are in the TV room about to watch a movie. So i eat popcorn and watch a movie with them. I went to bed right after that. I woke up around 6am with a horroble tummy ach. I was cursed with a bad case of food piosoning. After i was done throwing up my face, i called my mom. She was like "honey just go to the pharmacy and get this that and some of this" I had to explain to her that it was not the easy. First i would have to hobble ( if you remember my foot was messed up) to the front desk and some how have her call a taxi, then once the taxi got there to pick me up i would have to argue with the cab driver ( who speaks espanol) to take me to the nearest pharmacy. One i got there i would some how describe my symptoms to the spanish speaking pharmasist. I told my mom just make me feel better now and last on tonight i will go to the store. After i got off the phone with her. I feel right to sleep. From the night before till later the afternoon, i slept a total of 16 hours. Not counting the hour i was up and being sick. I had Neal go the Pharmacy with me. And i was right i had to act out throwing up in order to get the right meds. She said oh Dramamine! When she said that, it was like in slow motion music to my ears! I was so happy. We took a cab back to the dorms, i popped a few of those sleepy pills and i was out for anoth 14 hours. So last Thursday we took a day trip the the Pyramid of the Flowers and it was boring. That night i went out with Sarah and Emily. We went to an awesome cantina with a Mariachi Band! The margarits were the best ever! It was a great dinner beside the fact that i ordered something and got something totally different then i thought. I flirted with one of the Mariachi Band members. It was great! Then after dinner our friend Jamie (pronounced 'Hym A') took us to a near by salsa club, and this is wear it gets sticky. WE were haveing a great time. Emily was danceing with Jamie, Sarah and I were crowd scoping and chating. Laura, Jennifer, Ross and Neal showed up. Laura was so cute she had been drinking and she was haveing a damn good time. After being there for an hour or so, and old fat man asked me to dance. I was like oh it wouldnt hurt to dance a little. So after the first dance i sat back down and five minutes later he asked me to dance again. so i did trying to dance as bad as i could so he wouldnt ask me to dance again. I sat back down and sure enough the old scarey man asked me again!!!! I said i was tired and he walked away...FOR ABOUT TWO SECONDS! He would not take no for an answer! So i got my happy ass up and danced with him again. After that song i was like GIRLS WE HAVE GOT GO! i felt bad makeing the girls leave, but i was afriad that the man was gonna ask me to go home with him! AHHHHHH! That next day i went to the pool around 11 and i was alone for about an hour untill Sarah and Emily showed up. It was nice to be alone for that hour. But i was excited the Sarah and Emily showed up. I enjoy their company! then the other girls came and we spent about three hours at the pool gossiping and what not. We left and went back to the dorm. I changed and met Sarah, Emily, dina and Crystal in the courtyard. Our plan was to find a place to eat lunch and go to the Cholula town square. We walked to a place called Karma Begals! It was so yummy. While we were there it started raining and HAILING! it was crazy so we waited till the storm was over and said we will go to the square later this week. We walked back to the dorms. I bought a few braclets along the way! That night i decided to not go out, instead Sarah. Emily, Dina and I watched the movie Chocolate. I think i found my new favorite movie! It is my new favorite movie! After watching that we wanted chocolate so bad! So we called a cap and went to Walmart! He got some mexican hot chocolate, popcorn and M&Ms! We got back made the hot chocolate in Dina�s appartment, talked for quite a while and i went to bed. The next morning i woke up and went upstairs to see what Jessica was doing! O hung out with her for a while. I decided i was going to Cholula that day. The only person that wanted to go was Luara! So we showered and went shopping all afternoon in Cholula�s town square! I bought a poncho and bracelts and a ring! YAY. Around 5pm we decided to go back to eat somewhere around our dorms. So we hoped on a bus that we thought was the right one. NOPE...we ended up on the a different side of Cholula that was have never sence before..It was a little scarey but it was all good..it was still light outside! We got home dropped our stuff off and went and grabbed a burger. WE came back i finshed a movie that Emily and Sarah started. It was in spanish and i couldnt stop watching, it was really good! Laura came and found me and told me that she was going to have a few drinks with Ross and Neal i was welsome if i wanted! I was like heck yes! So we had one drink at Arrachera�s and then went to Bambooka�s were i can get huge margaritas for 4 bucks! I told myself i need to be in bad by midnight because i was going to Teotiauhcan in 7 am in the next morning! But nope that didnt happen. After Bambooka�s we went to Club Bling to have a beer. Then we went to El Tigr� and had another beer. I saw my classmater there. One of the seminaries was there named Mike and then Christina! i talked to them for awhile untill Luara was ready to leave! We then we went to La Corcholoata! This place was awesome,, they were playing American music! the even play YMCA in spanish! lol how crazy is that! That place has a chiar that is hanging from the ceiling and you spin in it after a few drinks. Luara got in it twice. I get dizzy really easily so i did not even tempt it!I told laura that was the best night i hd since i got there...it was so much fun,,,i think becasue we werent in a big group, and the people meshed well together! I made it to bed around 2:30 and 6 am came all to soon! lol

Seven Deadly Sins- 1

Avarice or Greed

Definition-Excivive Desire

Do you know anyone with greed?

Are you that person?

Do you want more and more and EVEN MORE?

Do you share what you have?

Do you know anyone like this?

You can never have enough in that wallet of your's. Can you?

Do you really need all of it?

I mean really that money is just paper andthings will perish! It has no REAL value when your dead and gone.

Hey Sup?

Today was cool i had 2 finals 3rd period and 10th. My hair looked awesome even though my hair is major curly. And...My mom got better the anziety didnt all go away but her doctor got her major workin pills. Im so happy!!=] Also my dad gained some pounds back and his health is almost there.I think my prayers actually worked thank you god!<33

I went to sleep last night with the sound of thunder and rain pouring at 11:15 not 2 shabby right??? I watched the movie She's The Man the 17th time in my life lol. Ummmmmmmm i had no eye contact with my love we just talked about the final.

Tomorrow is last day of school and he hasnt hugged or kissed me. Tomorrow im gonna march up to him and hug him so passionatly all his friends will feel pleasure.

Wake up John i wanted to tell you that im ready.. im ready to fall into your arms.

BITTER SWEET<3

For the one i love: It makes me worry when i dont know that you love me

Its makes me sad when you say im HOTT and what i really wanted was you to say i was beautiful!!

You act like im just a joke you call me ur babe and then turn around and dont even talk to me.....

For my"BEST" friends: Most of the time you back me up on stupid things but when i need you the most you dont back me up.

There is a "NEW" meaning to "best friends" it means "GREAT BACK STABBERS" !!!

Love yall

For my AWESOME Family: Sometimes yall embarres me but what kind of family would you be if you didnt!! I could ask for anybetter family!!!

My cuzin is the best even though she always always has way to much drama!!

Love yall

For my TRUE SISTERS AND BROTHERS: Yall lift me up when i need you....... if i tell you something you go and backstabb me so thank you all my TRUE SISTERS AND BROTHERS!!!! Yall are the bomb!!

Love yall

Love all yall just in many different ways!!!

Poem- Little Name Unknown

You don't know my name

You don't where I am

I'm scared and I'm hurting

There is blood on my clothes

There is blood on his hands

I remember the night I was stole from my bed

Three men came in

And I thought I was dead

One pulled a gun and told me to move

To shut up

And if I made a sound he would shoot

Mama didn't know I was gone until morning

Is she still looking?

Are YOU still searching

They think I'm dead but I don't understand why

If they would just look for the clues I left behind!

I'm violated and raped

And then I am beaten

You still don't care

I'm just another missing

You sit in warm houses while I'm left here to suffer

What if I was your son or your daugther?

Would you be worried

Would the rules change at all

you want to find the

dead and the gone

but im still here

alive and alone!

you see I'm giving up on weather you'll find me

Ill just lie here now and pertend i am safe

but really im in a whole other place

i cry softly

the pain is getting worse

I won't die yet

But I will die lost.......

Because I'm just another name unknown....

Wow, I need help. I'm so out of it right now.

Steve's not here, and I feel lost and incomplete. It's getting insane.

It's going to hurt as hell when he's gone for longer.

I guess it will be interesting to figure it out and then put it out in front of others.

On top of everything the nausea from the b c pills aren't helping.

I started out great this morning. That's cause I could talk to him on the phone.

I guess once he's gone for long, there will be emails and phone calls. That should soothe things down a bit.

I just feel so out of it.

Today at work I was so down. Customers came and went and I just wasn't myself. Corrine was alright, I'm sure it affected her too.

Then at the end of the day her bf came over to ride their bikes together. Oh boy! That just made me feel worse.

I should really try to be happy for them and be happy that I have someone to think about.

So let's try that a bit...

Steve might not be here all the time. But I don't have to search him out of a club or a bar anymore. I already have him in my life.

Plus, now that I have all these personal projects ahead of me, he can be an object of inspiration and motivation.

I just feel old now that I'm not clubbing as much as before.

...Maybe it's not old, just calm. And I'm not used to it, that's all.

So I gotta learn the feel of this new ocean I've plunged into. And plunged I have, by myself, no one's forced me, it's of my own freewill and choice.

Well today is Monday, I've had Steve-overkill so right now it feels dull as hell and poorly as shit.

The good thing is I might get an email from him. The other good thing is I only gotta ride it out until the end of the work week (that's not even 7 days).

Plus, tomorrow and wednesday will fly by. It's entire 12 hour days.

Then once thursday comes I can see... Maybe go to the library and get some books on fractions and other stuff to read. I need to read. That's what I'll do, if I'm not at work I'll be a bookworm.

Maybe if I feel ok I'll go swimming on Thursday too!

Of course I'll call Summer and see what her and Tammy are upto. I think it will be good to hang out with them. I just gotta stay focused and not let the fun in friendship ruin my career.

Then there's Dean and his silliness. He's cool, I think we could be good friends. Plus he knows me a little more then most people, it could be a good friendship.

Steve.. I miss you. But I'm alright now. Just needed to get some stuff out of my system.

This relationship really works for my situation.

And I intend to enjoy it all the way.

We don't always get what we want. But if we're smart we can make what's been given to us work to our advantage and push us towards that goal of happiness.