Today was a good day. I decided that the art institute isn't the best thing for me right now. Maybe next semester or even next year. Besides that I have this nervous feeling in the pit of my tummy not sure what that's about but I hope it passes soon. Oh yeah I just found it may be to late for me to sign up for classes this fall. When my parents find that out I won't here the end of it. I guess it's my fault I always wait until the last minute to do stuff. Work was okay besides the fact that we are short handed and instead of my dad doing every thing he can to help he waits for me to do it but then he stays around me all in my way getting on my last nerves. Thankfully tomorrow is Friday and the weekend is right around the corner. I'm not really looking forward to Saturday but I got to be a woman face this and go get my stuff. I talked to my brothers ex today on myspace. She is really reaching out for us to have a relationship which is cool she's a sweet girl. Other than that life's is cool.
My Crush
Okay so I know I'm not suppose to be focused on guys right now but a girl can have her eye on someone right? Well I'll start with our first encounter it was like May 2007 and we (cb, j nelly, & I) decided to go see Nas the rapper at the Rave. We got free tickets and backstage access because cb & j nelly's mothers 2nd husband happens to be Nas's first cousin. Cool right so we get dolled up for the concert. I was pretty fresh if I do say so myself. So we at the show I'm not expected to see anyone of interest there because it's nothing but lames in the mill. But as I'm enjoying the show through the smoke crowded club this caramel skinned fly ass dude comes through by his self. He was looking so good. His outfit was on point he was my type of man well dressed, cute face, I'm sure he smelted good. I was speechless but just as quick as he appeared he was gone lost in the crowd. So I kept my eyes open for him through out the show and after. After the show before we went backstage we had to wait till the crowd in the club cleared. We were the last people in the club along with a few others. While waiting me and my friends ignored lame ass dudes trying to get us to kick it with them that night then I spotting him. He was in front of us talking to his friends I watched in amazement I know I needed him. I never been so taking back by a guy in my life. So I contemplated going up to him but I didn't have my phone so I used that as an excuse not to go up to him because what if he wanted me to take his number. I just stared at him trying to maybe catch his eye. When he made eye contact with me I almost melted. It seemed like he was lingering around with his friends for whatever reason. They moved from in front of us to the side of us a couple feet away. As I stared in his direction he kept looking but it was clear I wasn't going to move and either was he. When I finally worked up the nerve to go up to him me were being called back to meet Nas. Damn I fucked up & felt stupid right away. I talked about it the rest of the night feeling dumber & dumber cause I knew I would never see him again because the type of crowd that would be at a Nas show hung out on the eastside & I was off the north side. Plus I had never seen him anywhere. The mill is small but some people did slip through the cracks. He was one of those people. Any who 3 months later I'm on myspace looking at my brothers friend tony's friends list and I see a picture of this cute caramel skin boy wondering who he was I went to his page looked at his picture's and there it was him with one of the guys he was with at the concert with. I froze, then smiled from ear to ear. I found him now I have a way to reach him but now is not the right time in my life. I did however learn his name, learned that he is a college grad, 25 years old, not in a relationship, and is into graphic design. So I'm sure I'll put together some sort of plan to get him. One thing about me is I get everything I want. If one way doesn't work there is always another. I think he could be what I need but I learned through experience NEVER put all your eggs in one basket or get your hopes to high when dealing with people. We shall see what happens.
Add comment
