There will never be another September 22, 2008.� I want to seize the day.� I want to make the most of my day as if its my last.� I want to love those around me even if they are not accepting of it.� I am responsible for me and my actions not some elses.
Today I will love.� I will grant forgiveness.� Today I will not harbor or hold unto negatives because if I am able to live one more day..then I will do it with�a whole heart of peace.
We decide our attitude, we decide to stay angry, to hold onto bitterness, and a ill heart, and today is a day of releasing.
Today I will look pass all the negative stereotypes and treat my brother and sister all the same and with the same love and care.
Seize your day.
Follow peace with all men.
My first entry!! I'll try to write a minimum of 3 entries per week. I've never been a journal person even though i really really wanted to have one, they never lasted more than 3 entries before I gave up.
I saw an artical the other day about people in South Africa maming and killing their children because they think them to be witches. Now I understand Africa isn't America, but it is on earth right? Persecution of witches ended long ago, or so I thought. But�you get these fanatical Christians and Evangilists who think everyone has to see things their way, they send missionaries over to Africa and The Goddess only knows where else and they fill these peoples heads with pure nonsence and evil, it chills me to the bone.�The Bible teaches that�you should not suffer a�Witch to live, and at the same time preaches love and forgiveness. More evil,torture and death has been�done in the name of Jesus and the Christian faith than anything any Witch has� ever done. �The Bible also talks of the Fall of the Great Harlot, I believe The Great Harlot to be the Catholic Church, (The Goddess see's what they are doing to her children, and she is pissed), I hope I am alive to see them fall. I will cheer and dance skyclad around my circle.
It's here! Fall! I Love Fall in Cali, it's so perfect! Every year I think I'm going to pay better attention to each day to make them last but they go by faster than the last. I remember when I was a kid, days could feel like they would never end, how come that doesn't happen anymore? Time flies, my most favorite time of year will fly no matter what I do to slow it down.
I will celebrate this morning's sun rise, it's clear, chilly, the air smells clean, the ducks have been flying north over my roof - honking the message that only they understand.�
The ordinary chores of this morning will be less bothersome, I will open the windows and let the Fall in, it will be my�houseguest for only a�short time so I must enjoy it's company everyday.�
Monday 6:43
Hello Diary
YAY guess what? I GOT A NEW PORTABLE DVD PLAYER! It was on sale for $99.99!!! 50 DOLLARS OFF MAN. OKay .okay oaky oaky okay okay okay. but sears didnt have it so i have to order it and i don't get it till Friday .. thats a long dayss away.
ehh. friday is so long away. why cant it come faster.
ASRITOAIHSGO i'm trying to burn all my anime onto dvd before i get it so i could enjoy all my episodes on my bed =D yay
AND i could bring it anywhere i want. YAY YAY now i just need to make more money and buy a cd pocket AND earphones so i could watch and i'm all ready and yea...
or i could buy a kit. which would cost ... $20.00? i dunno. i just need to earn more money and i'm all set! yays
I cant seem to save up money =( i keep spending all of it. thats why i'm going to give mom my bank card. and my money. so that i could save up! cuz what if i need to use it for something important and i have no money? yea...
Gosh.. i'm burning my anime right now ... and its taking SOOo long. THERE'S STILL 2 HOURS AND 37 MINUTES LEFT. -sigh- well i hope it'll be worth my time. cuz if its not. i'll cry my eyes out. LIKE... scenerio: i burned for 3 hours straight and it DOESNT�work on my dvd player. yea i'd cry�
I have this urge to just watch my anime all on tv. but what would all that time go to right? i intended to watch it on my new coming portable. but yea... i have to be patient.
GUESS WHAT THOUGH? i have an ortho apt. on wednesday so i get to miss HEALTH AND CHINESE! thats the coolest thing ever.
WOah .. you cant really read what i'm writing can you? good .loL. ach now i cant see.. it burns.. -.-
is this better?
�no�
there. much better. i went bra shopping the other day.. and i saw this really cute bra that had monkeys on it. ( yea i know its weird to call a bra "CUTE" ) ... i wanted it so bad. but it was either too big or too small for me.� which made me all frustrated. SOO i finally decided that i would get a bigger one so when i get older. and HOPEFULLY they grow. then i could wear it y' know?
Jacob likes this girl. who i dont know. but i wanna know.. .sorry to say. . but i think i still like him.. even a little like.. i dont even know myself if i do. but sometims i say yes i do.. sometimes i'm like NOO. So i'm getting myself confused. BUt there's this feeling inmy heart that wants him to like me. yea ... i know .. kinda stupid right?
I have gym tomorrow. i gotta remember to bring my gym clothes.
and i'm gonna go now. maybe i'll type more later
love
janette�
Let me start again, I started this journal then someone got on my computer and messed things up. Daymon just showed up at my door but when I pulled the same thing it was a big issue. Such a hyprocite is all there is to say abut the matter.Heard that my brother went back to prison, not feeling any empathy for him. Have no plans to visit him in his current state. He has done over 17 years in prison one would be inclined to believe he is tired of that life. Wade's girlfriend has been sticking by him, why oh why.Oh well, on to another subject: Walt. Saw him last night, not sure what is going on. We have similar personalities both strong willed, assertive also driven. What draws me to him I cannot say. Beauty and the beast is an adequate depiction of us. He shared I shared, then came to the conlcusion not to define this. Were not officially exclusive, but he is the closest thing to having a significant� other. It feels like a relationship though. Just dont want to go through any drama. Despite my rudeness walt has been very kind to me. Was surpised to hear he"s been watching me for awhile! Something indescribable is lingering between us. Would'nt say it's love, too premature for that.(Wonder if he feels it as well.)
Perhaps lust,or could it be that I have been out of circuit for so long that my emotions are guiding me rather than reality? If he never put into words how he feels for me or about me it's all good. Walt reveals alot without being aware of it. Everytime he kisses me, hold me, I sense a longing or is it my own.
Daymon hmm what can I say about him? Yes he's handsome, this isnt enough to satiate me. He seems to want to hear and judge. As if his life is so pristine. Being held, cuddled isnt easy for him, always has to take it to another level. I prefer intimacy over sex all day every day. Just holding me, chillin', kissing makes me feel wanted.��Walt's genteel manner penetrates the shield worn to protect, it has many holes in it. Who can resist being treated well? Not I.
well i said i would let you know if any one rembered my birthday and i have to say yes even though he was a day early getting my pressies but he is at work all day on my birthday but i still think some one else tipped him off .any way at least he rembered thats the main thing .
Hah! Once again I join the realm of the living dead...er...I mean the awake...and semi-joyfully show up at my place of torture....um....work.
Actually, as I tell most people, work is not so bad on the weekends here. It's pretty slow and I usually can take a break. It is hard to wake up in the mornings though.
Elias and I had a little bit of a fight last night. Mostly I think because he was completely bored with what we were watching and then Cathy called and we basically had to wait around while we finished our conversations with her. He decided to go home and then came back a few minutes later having gotten gas and realized he still needed more to be able to get home. I leant him a fiver. I'm not sure if he's going to be home when I get out of work.
Sleep is a beautiful thing. When I got home yesterday I was supposed to wait until David called and then we were going to go over to his place and play some games. I fell asleep for two hours instead. I guess I needed it, because this morning I'm much less grouchy than yestermorn.
Also I find that if I get too tired I start getting rather depressed. It's interesting how much rest affects my disposition. It just means I pay a lot of attention to my sleep I guess.
Okay, that's enough for today. :)
home alone yet again my son is away with friends for the week end� and my other half is at work again.So that leaves me and the dog again my life has become so dull since i retired i dont know what went wrong .I realy do need to get out more but thats a bit hard when your nearly blind and need some one to stop you becoming a hedge hog on a� car tyre ah well never mind another day nearly over and i'm nearly a year older I'm waiting to see if any one remmbers it's my birthday this tuesday no one has mentioned it so lets see if they remember i will let you know
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