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        lmm27295  44, Female, USA - 15 entries
    09
    Oct 2006
    8:37 AM EDT
       

    Well, it was another weekend of me wanting to put a gun to my head. We had T this weekend. Sat. I went wedding shopping with my mom and realized something. My best friend J was engaged onced and she would tell me stories of how when she went wedding shopping she would get sick. She said she would feel sick on her stomach. She felt like the marriage she was getting ready to go through was all wrong and at the end, he left her and they never got married. I realized this weekend I am having those same feelings. I felt so sick on Sat when went to Concord and it did not help any that we got into it when I was trying to WEDDING SHOP. Its not that I don't love him or want to marry him its just that things are so bad that I am so scard to do it. We fight all the time and I am so miserable. We got into on Sat. and he talked to me like total s*** infront of Tyler, over the ph. I was so pissed, but in his eyes he does nothing wrong. Oh, and ofcorse, I was over reacting b/c of my period. He said I'm sorry on Sunday after we went to church and we went and took T home from church he told his "grammie" how he wanted to go to the church again. She said she would take him. I am not going to church with her. The only reason why we went in the first place was so B can look good to his father. We have not went to church in forever, and all of a sudden B's dad has been taken his parents to church so B feels the need to go. Kind of funny he only wants to go when his dad is going, plus it is in A. And one of the reasons we moved to L was to get away from's B's ex and now he wants to go to church w/ them???? Makes no damn sense. On the way home we stopped by to see K and the baby in the hosp. and when we were leaving B asked me if I wanted a baby and I told him no, not right now. I told him we could not afford one right now. He got so pissed telling me it was fine w/ him not to have kids and that he did not ant to put $ into another child. and accused me of not wanting kids which I never said!! I just said not now b/c I am not ready. He told me that there was no reason for us to wait to have s**. Which has nothing to do w/ why we are waiting. He said "why wait, not like there is anything else special." Another reason is why would I want to bring a child into a bad situation. A situation like we are in right now where we cannot even get along. It would be the same thing as R&C. 2 fighting parents. Things have been so bad between us that I don't have those kind of "lovie" feelings anymore. They are gone. I am so hurt and have no clue of what I did wrong. I cannot take this anymore, I am so miserable at work and it is to the pt I hate even getting out of the bed. He doesn't want to try or make things work b/c he would not contuie acting this why. I told him Sat. night that I am not trying anymore, I really feel like giving up.
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        retirik  58, Female, Illinois, USA - 36 entries
    09
    Oct 2006
    4:19 AM CDT
       

    Сегодня праздник, День Колумба, школы закрыты. Утро. Ребешка смотрит детскую передачу и играет с куклой. Где-то через час должна позвонить Оля. Сегодня они с Настей и Ваней приезжают в Чикаго на прием к врачу - у Вани проблема с ушами. Если врач успокоит Олю и скажет, что ничего серьезного нет, то она позвонит нам и мы где-нибудь встретимся, чтобы дети поиграли.
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        eveycan2  49, Female, Illinois, USA - 5 entries
    09
    Oct 2006
    3:12 PM CDT
       

    havnt been expressing my thought's hear lately but it has been an interseting few weeks, I almost wish I could meet someone who can forfill the emptyness ive been experiencing with my man. I went out to a local bar with somne friends and ran into a guy who i grew up with as a child....my my my has he grown into a man. A hot handsome man. It's interseting how all I could think about was my man, and how I wouldnt want him to cheat on me so I cut him short really fast and let him know I had a man. I havn't been spending much time here at home. Ive been out everyday with my girlfriend cause im tired of waiting at home for my man to come home. My man is still a jerk but trying to be home a litttle more. we actually had a serious conversation last week about breaking up, it's so easy to get over someone when there is someone else in your life to fill that void, so he's obviously cheeting, or he really just dont care. well thats all for now....
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        Mzmoss03987  33, Female, Ohio, USA - 6 entries
    09
    Oct 2006
    3:32 PM EDT
       

    Today was alright i guess. i ahd fun at school but im very tired of english. My friends are normal friends and they are cool. I know who are my real friends and who are not. I would name a few but this is public so i won't be mean. people in school are stuck up and phony. Follower and copies. Im not like that at all but im still real. People calling either names because of how they look and sound and appear to other peopel. Like being big, thick, short hair, short or tall. it really should not even matter but people will be people. very harsh people. well i've got to go type to ya 2morrow. Lata!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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        lmm27295  44, Female, Ohio, USA - 15 entries
    09
    Oct 2006
    12:32 PM EDT
       

    B just called and he acted pissed. He got home from work. He asked if I had check my oil yet b/c it seems to be leaking very bad and I told him no that I don't know how and he said yes you do. I told him that I really didn't and he said fine, I will show you. Heaven forbid he help me check it. I am so sick of his s***. going to make me check my own oil. My father changes my oil. My own boyfriend don't and he loves to use the excuse that he doesn't have a place to do it when my parents live 2 miles down the rd w/ a big back yard. Its really kind of funny. So then he brings up that he found were I had written on the foam on the garg. doors months ago. We were out there working on it late one night and I wrote B loves L. I thought it would be sweet and incase we ever move out it would still be there. Well, he calls me a bit ago all pissed b/c I put his name first instead of writing L loves B. I meant nothing by it. I was trying to do something sweet and he just reunied it. I wish I would have never done it now. I regret writing it. How ungrateful can you be. I meant nothing by it. He said "you always wright my name 1st." I just thought I would put his name 1st. It was so harmless. So he got off the ph and did not even tell me that he loved. Oh, I guess that I have committed such a sin that I am going to hell.
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        Jane  58, Female, Ohio, USA - 50 entries
    08
    Oct 2006
    5:08 AM EDT
       

    Traveling via the interstate is nice because it gets you where you want to go but it does not always offer much to look at. On my way from Tennesee to Alamabma I took a detour around Nashville and was on Highway 50. It was an absolutely beautiful drive. I also go a chance to see some of the local flair. My first stop was at a little grocery/deli store to pick up a few supplied for the weekend. They had so few items on the shelf it made Hartman's Variety look like a super Wal Mart. I asked if they had any fruit - Not this week the lady replied. Then I asked to use the bathroom. When I got to the door it had a large "out of order sign on it". I asked it if was okay to use - she said "yes, we just put that up to keep the unwanteds out". I promptly used the bathroom and got our of there. Jeff and I successfuly made it to the track and got our delivery of carts to the right place. We then registered for our passes and we are off to the races. Have a great day. J
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        Mzmoss03987  33, Female, Ohio, USA - 6 entries
    07
    Oct 2006
    6:36 AM EDT
       

    Today. well im really bored. my stomach really hurts and so does my head. life, well life is just life. No questions about that. school well not much to say about that either. School, friends, family and life is a blast and a nightmare. School i dont like at all but i want to be there. family gets on my nerves every second. Friends always have my back every time i need them.and life i need more. My life is oaky. Ineed more adventure and needless to say more drama. Drama always stirs me up. Well its about time for me to hit the mall. Hit u up later with more details about me and the thingss going on.
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        coreysgirl  36, Female, Georgia, USA - First entry!
    07
    Oct 2006
    4:01 PM EDT
       

    Hey this is the first time i've ever done this but ok. I'm new to this. Well,...i really love my fiancee. he is the greates guy in the world. without him i don't know what i would do. he's been in basic for a while and its been a week or so since i've heard from him. is it normal to have your brain think things that you know aren't true? see what i mean is i know he loves me and that he's not going to leave me but still sometimes since i've watched so much stupid tv that my brain starts to thiink opposite of that. i guess that would be normal...right? oh well. the good news is i see him next month. YEAH!!! i get to go up there with his parents on family day and i get to see him graduate! i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy!!! I miss him so much. whenever my emotions overwhelm me people say not to worry but when i'm like that its kinda hard to do. i'm just worried for his safety. i can't wait to see him.
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        Friskysesshomaru  36, Male, Illinois, USA - 2 entries
    07
    Oct 2006
    9:27 AM EST
       

    Hello everyone! Happy Halloween! I love your Profile's and Avi's. I love you all my friends!
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        Trace  61, Female, Illinois, USA - 38 entries
    07
    Oct 2006
    8:18 AM EDT
       

    Im still trying to hang with the math at ITT. Signed up for tutoring; really want to put forth the effort. Don't want to throw the money out the window! Oh, wanted to also mention that "M" stopped by last week on his own, and drop a little cash on his daughter. I thought that was nice. Claims he's going to do it more often...well, we will see.

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