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Maryann 58, Female, New York, USA - First entry!

Oct 2006
12:17 PM EDT

The day you realize what is really important in life, is a great day. I felt more like being happy today then I have in a long time. I know I let my emotions take control over me. I am a happy person most of the time, however, when I become down, it snowballs into rediculous self pity and I am the only one who suffers. So today I am just going to be happy for what I have and be thankful I have all the things I do. Peace

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TrulyMe88 37, Female, Colorado, USA - 188 entries

Oct 2006
10:02 AM MDT

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then hell no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is Don't stay because you think "it'll get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a whole bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr.. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him...he takes it for granted. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Ladies..... RETHINK your choices, and PREPARE. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

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Queenie 38, Female, Ohio, USA - 29 entries

Oct 2006
10:19 PM EDT

Okay this is new to me . I think this is pretty cool though.

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horsefreak0224 32, Female, Ohio, USA - 3 entries

Oct 2006
9:44 AM EDT

Hey everyone who is reading this....YEah i haven't written in like forever well..My laptop hasn't had internet for a while...And my friends right next to me right know..Her names Delaney. And idon't want her to read this so it will be a quick entery. BYe

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TrulyMe88 37, Female, Colorado, USA - 188 entries

Oct 2006
7:11 AM MDT

Tell me what you see when you look at me Do you really see what I see or is my mind telling me differently? Maybe everything is a dream or is it simply MY own reality Maybe my mind hasnt settled into the world entirely When I looked into the mirror I saw a different person A face full of make up Hiding all true emotions Hiding all the Anger. Sadness. Grief. Pain & Suffering Covering all that with Happiness. Smiles & Continuous Laughter So when you look at me, do you see what I see? Do you see ALL of which I see or do you see the simple part of me? Now if i told you the story of me Would you be afraid and hide Hide from me or expect me to hide what's inside Or would you stand beside me willing to guide Would you laugh at me or would you praise me, For ovecoming all that you really don't see? Do you see what i see? Do you see deep inside me? Do you see the cries of a growing woman, Tell me what do you see when you look at me? And after doing so tell me what you see when you look into you When you look at yourself, are those same feelings desperately trying to berak through? Evaluate life from outside of your skin and ask yourself this question... Do you see the same thing you saw when you were looking from within?

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smb 50, Female, Wyoming, USA - 129 entries

Oct 2006
3:40 AM MST

letter to CN

LETTER TO CN:

I am sorry for last night! I am sorry I am co-dependent and "try to control you". I wish I could make us LOVE eachother like the kind of love I want and the kind you deserve. but quite frankly I feel like neither of us are giving or getting the love! I don't know why: who and what you are, isn't enough! I guess I feel the need to change you. This makes me feel like we are NOT meant to be together because if I truly loved you, I wouldn't want to change you, right? You are not what I need. I need someone who is lively and passionate about me and someone who follows through with ideas and concerns (of mine). Therefore, I really think we would be better off without eachother. I know we have been saying this for over a month now and I just don't know how much longer we should keep drawing this out. We need serious help or this relationship is DONE! I am tired of you minimizing everything when I bring this stuff up. I don't understand why you are okay with a half-assed relationship! TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT!!! Do you want me (+ the boys) or are we DONE???? I feel like I need to make it work for the boys! I know I will never find a guy like you when it comes to the boys,,, and one who is so "healthy". I love that about you! BUT, honestly, that and the sex isn't enough to hold us together. I want this to be an awesome love where I feel madly deeply, passionately IN LOVE with you (without the sex as the glue)!? DON'T YOU WANT THAT? or do you not care that we have a mediocre relationship??? I feel so desperate but yet so helpless! I am afraid what will happen is we will keep doing this... I bring it up, we talk, nothing happens, nothing changes and we are fine for awhile till I feel the emptiness again, and then it starts all over... HOW LONG do we do this? When do we finally just cut our losses and say GoodBye!? I guess I have to draw the line somewhere... (I know I am not perfect and have things to work on) I am willing to work on it and really give it one last ditch effort but if this (what we are doing right now) happens again, I would say we should be done, because of obvious reasons. Please tell me what you want and what you need and if you want to try to make it work or if you want to be done now. I need to know exactly how you are feeling and we need to make some decisions! I need to talk to you about this before I decide if I am coming over. OKAY! BTW-I will always love you...no matter what happens to us, I will love you as the awesome friend that you have been and I hope will continue to be!

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shejustloves 49, Female, Minnesota, USA - 24 entries

Oct 2006
4:19 AM CST

How is it that I am so in love with two guys? My husband of four years is a great guy but not exactly there for me emotionally...not the way I thought my marriage would ever turn out. I waited until mid 20's to get married for the reason that I wanted to be sure and I was sure. Now, everything has changed. I see him becoming more and more of an alcoholic and I don't know how to control it. So I do all I know is comfortable I resort back to old love letters from ex's and especialliy the one that I have never fallen out of love with. I guess it is hard to call him a boyfriend...I was the other woman. I wasn't married at the time but he was and still is. It ended badly, as most affairs do and I didn't think that I would see him again. Four years ago as my husband and I were building our house my husband set up a plumbing and heating company to do the work and of course they would send my ex!!!! My husband know nothing about our relationship and all though he is still not sure what went on he knows something did...he has never pressed the issue and neither have I. As C was up working on our house I felt the connection again so deep so real so wrong. Now 4 years later we still talk when we run into each other and neither spouse is around...which isn't often...but I know that he is planning a divorce once his child is 18...6years from now. And I am so in love with him still. I can't help but think that fate brought him to our house 4 years ago and it is fate that throws us into each others paths to this day. He has always said that I am exactly what he is looking for in a woman and God knows he is what I am looking for. He had told his dad about me and when his dad confronted me he said "he loves you please don't give up on my son." On the same hand I did not get married to turn around and see if the grass is greener on the other side. I love my husband and I know that he loves me. We have a house and a history we have our own amazing love story and plans for a family we have been through some really trying times and some of the happiest times...we have a future mapped out how can I think I could just walk away to see what is awaiting me? Yet how can I go through life wondering what could have been. Is there such a thing as fate?

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crazynluv 38, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - 4 entries

Oct 2006
5:55 PM EDT

hey, Do you think it's possible to love more than one person at the same time?...Personally, i don't. I think that if you truly love a person, you give your everything to him/her. All of your heart, that way you have no room for anyone else. That's why i say that if you think you love more than one person, most likely, you don't really love neither one of them,you might them both alot, but i wouldn't call it love, or you might love one and really like another, or you may just not truly know what love is and really think that you love both. NO, it is impossible to love more than one person at once...for me at least.

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messeduplove07 37, Female, Pennsylvania, USA - First entry!

Oct 2006
5:13 AM EDT

Hey what's up? Not too much here just chilling up in study hall bored out of my mind. I can't wait to hopefully meet this guy that I normally chill with. My cousin morgan is going to be hooking us up if he likes me. I don't understand why guys are so difficult. Right now I don't care I am going to stay single if I don't meet anyone that actually wants to settle down. Yesterday we were going to go and meet him but I had to be at work at 4 and he wouldn't of got to giant until 4. We are suppose to be hanging out with him on Friday night while he is working on his car. I hope that he likes me but if not i am going to stay single for awhile. My ex was going around telling everyone that I was pregnent and that I hadn't been taking my birth control for the past two months and he is just starting shit and I told everyone that I will take out my birth control out and show everyone that I am on it and they were like okay we believe you and not him. My dad is being a dick head and i wish that he wasn't. He told me he would try and make time for me so he can come and get his birthday gift. Him and his family are so hipacritical and I hate it. But they are going to be happy when I tell them that I am not with Justin anymore. Got to run talk to you later. Sweetsexygirl

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1 comment(s) - 07:14 PM - 10/18/2006

kjs2004 40, Male, California, USA - First entry!

Oct 2006
2:52 PM EDT

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